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Was a bit busy today. Time to cool down and try this out.

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RPing characters with mental illnesses

Gat said
As Brovo said, ADD/ADHD is something of a go-to diagnosis before more specific things are pinned down. This is mostly because ADD/ADHD actually has a small laundry list of symptoms itself and you only need a few of them to be diagnosed. I was diagnosed quite young with ADD for instance, I can typically keep a coherent thought going so long as I concentrate, I do however get distracted relatively easily and need to remind myself to stay on task, this is part of why my desk and monitors are littered with sticky notes. This particular symptom is pretty much the most common but by far not the only one as many people with no experience with ADD/ADHD believe.A second notable symptom I have for instance is the inability to filter sound, also quite common but much less well known. You know how most people say they just tune out the sound of traffic or someone talking to them, I'm actually incapable of doing that, which can make focusing on what a person is saying tricky sometimes when there a high level of ambient noise and provides another trigger to the getting distracted part. Bare in mind of course this is just my experience with a relatively mild case of ADD, I haven't taken meds for it in about 20 years now and have learned to cope with it. there are a number of less common ADD symptoms I apparently don't show signs of, but many of those are shared with other disorders which is why ADD/ADHD is often the first thing doctors come up with to explain symptoms of a disorder.

Yeah, and I asked my mom about it, and she says that Asperger's, ADHD, and DCD are what I'm diagnosed with, which in turn can cancel out other things I've been rambling about. However, she's also said that it might not be entirely accurate, hence why I'm going to see my psychiatrist again.

Distraction is a problem for me too. This is why I don't RP that much, because I far too often find myself drifting off into something else when I intended to do research for something I was going to RP. In school, I've gotten really bad grades because I couldn't concentrate hard enough on what I'm supposed to be doing at the given time. Noises also play into the distraction part for me too, and it's intensely hard for me to concentrate when there's air conditioners running in the background or when people are talking around me.

It's cleaning day for me today, so I'm not able to elaborate on what I'm talking about as much as I could be when things aren't as busy.

RPing characters with mental illnesses

I'll try and keep this short and sweet. I understand how it can be seen that I'm lying, but I'm trying to be honest and truthful here. Unfortunately, I tend to ramble on in ways that often makes people think I'm lying, so this is by no means new for me. I might have to go over this with my mother, since she more than often tends to be a more reliable source about my conditions than me.

You can probably scratch DCD off the list, and my mentioning of undergoing evaluation for schizophrenia can probably be scratched off the list too. I could be bipolar, but I'll have to see my psychologist about it. Honestly, I have doubts about what the doctors have slapped on me myself, and I'm really just going off of my recollection of what they've told me about, and sometimes my recollection of things isn't as accurate as I would like it to be.

1: The last time I asked about having ADHD I think was around April last year, when I asked my school psychologist about what I was diagnosed with on the papers. And there it was. Asperger's, ADHD, and DD-NOS. Might be good for me to go over them with my psychologist when I see her again.

2: The way I see it, psychosis is the loss of contact with reality. I've got a feeling you might be thinking of sociopathy here. Then again, I have a history of violent outbursts, which is what caused me to get beaten up by the security guards at the hospital and restrained for 2 days. I was holding a plastic cleaning sign because I felt I had to defend myself, and that's how I got tackled down. Beyond that, I've also had violent incidents with my family and with people at school too, and I've gotten too close for my liking to getting charged for assault.

3: The hospital's not really as nice a place for me as it is for other people. I think I've been hospitalised for mental health issues about 8 times since 2009, and none of them have really helped me in any way whatsoever. Even my family agrees by now that I cannot afford another hospital visit for the sake of my own psyche. Beyond the hospital, I've also had experiences with some of my teachers through school, like I've mentioned earlier.

4: As I've said, I could very well not be accurately recollecting what I'm diagnosed with, but I'm not doing it with the intention of lying to be "hip". Unfortunately, relaying information across the internet isn't the same as relaying it to someone face to face, so the potential for interpretations of dishonesty is greater than it would be in real life.

5: And that's what I do. I do my research.

Honestly? We probably all have disorders of some sort. It's probably not so much a case of what we're labelled with that makes it all better or worse, but how much we're able to cope with it all. I hope I've clarified things a bit better here, but if not... well, I'd have to go over it with my mom, and my psychologist when I see her.

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Kestrel said
To realistically write a character with mental illness, you must understand that said condition is a core element of who they are and not just an add-on. It affects how you think, perceive, feel and decide every day, every waking minute. To this end it's advisable to do a lot of research to make a believable character, as well as try to keep the number of conditions low as one by itself is often already crippling. For example, a person with ADHD lacks the focus to write a long, coherent response. A character with PTSD is going to be banned from any kind of combat scenario, etc. That's stuff you have to think about when you're writing your character. The more you pile up, the less likely a functional, or even breathing individual comes out of it for you to RP with.

Coming from my own experiences, definitely. Mental illness isn't something that's all "oh, he just happens to have it," and it's something that really affects the quality of life of a person. Unless I decided to try something out that I don't have personal experience with, in which case I would do my research, pretty much all the mental illnesses I play out with my characters come from my own experiences with what I have.

Though also from my own experiences, there's also going to be characters that have varying degrees of the severity of their afflictions, or have otherwise learned to cope with their afflictions. If I didn't learn how to cope with all the shit that I happen to have, this thread would have been about how the Mossad are using the RP Guild to brainwash me into communism to make way for humanity's enslavement by the Intergalactic Reptilian Empire at best. At worst, I wouldn't have even been able to join the RP Guild in the first place. Though in which case, the mental health issues would be hidden underneath the outer layers of the character, and not really worth bringing up in a character sheet or other form of introduction. Rather, they would be revealed as the story progresses and the character has the outer layers of their personality peeled off by whatever experiences they go through in the RP that would cause their inner core to be exposed.

You've met one person with autism, you've met one person with autism. You've met one person with PTSD, you've met one person with PTSD. Likewise for everyone of not just every mental affliction, but also race, gender, sexual orientation, religion, non-religion, and the list goes on. We're all individuals, simple as that.

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The Nexerus said
Fallout 1/2 would be my vote. Fallout 1 is too mainstream, 0.5 was sooo much better.

I agree.

So is this gonna happen or shall it not?

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Figured I should ask for consent before I advertised a test run of my Livestream channel. Because doing non-consensual stuff is no good.

Hoping to showcase my shenanigans in Cataclysm: DDA or Fallout 1/2 or one of my other games with some commentary, and I might even give Paint Tool SAI another run if I'm feeling generous enough. And other fun stuff. I'll talk with you guys and do stuff for you and try to make it as unboring as possible. If that's possible.

The Isla Visa Shooter, Elliot Roger, is disturbing to the highest level

As someone with mental health issues who faces the very real threat of snapping like this if I can't hold it together enough, it always pisses me off how people just further demonize these people who end up snapping. I really do agree with Jorick's post.

Human society really doesn't like to admit that it only has itself to blame in situations like these.

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Drakel said
yes

mkay

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Should I try this out?

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