Tsukiko was irritated by the fact he just didn't understand. The fact he came from such a family which was reputable didn't really help his case since it would be that much more difficult to establish any form of bond earlier. She looked away from him for a moment and wondered if those urges of laughing were actually real feelings? Here was this annoying boy who wouldn't leave her alone and yet he managed to bring in some sense of humor despite being a terrible example for her. Why couldn't he understand that she didn't want his help? She just became more frustrated when he decided he just wanted to continue to talk to her rather than get the point that she had no interest in forming any form of relationship with him. Damn you, are you that stupid? The fact you just won't disappear is making me even more uncomfortable. I hate you and all that you stand for and yet here you are bothering me thinking that you can understand what I've been through? She thought to herself as her eyes were still full of doom and gloom inside them. Her eyes further developed from the emptiness she felt as they became even more fierce than they were earlier. They looked like she was pissed off though the look on her face was one that gave the impression that she just wanted to be left alone.
Everytime she sighed at him it became longer and deeper since she was getting quite fed up with his words. Who did he think he was anyway just to think he could violate her space like that, because he wanted to share her pain. She had no interest in sharing any of her pain with him and he needed to get the hint. He was suffocating his words off optimism like he had a strangle hold of her throat. It felt like the fresh clean error which was unaffected by his idiocy was being blocked by his words which she found rather insulting. He was just ignorant to not respect the fact she was a lady and here he was make a hypocrite out of himself saying how good he was with women when he just didn't have any idea what he was doing. It was obvious by that foolhardy laugh that he had going and that carefree smile on his face just continued to cause her blood to boil within the cauldrons of her own hell she call life. She started her to speak once again in a tone that showed little interest in what he was talking while she scoffed at him. "You actually think you have any right to question me when you have no idea how bad I've suffered? You insult me with your very presence and if you grab me like that again I will do more than just slap you!" She paused for a moment as her tone become even more vulgar before she decided to continue. Her eyes also widened showing more ferocity as she brought her arms up and crossed them together on her chest making them square. "All you boys do is care about you. That's all you care about. It's never about the person you're talking about. It's always you and how can I improve my bonds with this random girl that is suffering. You really are gullible it's not only pathetic, but makes me want to smash this wall right in front of me." She paused for a moment there as she clenched her fist and then brought her other hand up against with her fingers partially curled in as she gestured that she was going to hit the wall with her fist if he continued to bother her like he did.
"Life is worth living? This coming from someone who has no idea what true adversity is? If you experienced what I've gone through I doubt you would use those same words to describe life. Especially when everything you loved was either stolen away from you or is collapsing right in front of your eyes where you are powerless to do anything." She paused briefly as she looked around the room for a moment to see if anyone else was looking. Surely enough, some of the students were watching the confrontation between the two which only made her run her hand through strands of her fluffing them upward into the air before they returned to their position. Her body was obviously griping from this individual who stood right in front of her who continued to use words he thought he was just pulling out of thin air. Yeah, of course you don't care about my brother. You only want to try to impress his sister which is myself and you aren't doing a very good job of it either. She revolted in her mind as she would try to control her thoughts from letting them escape. Letting the cat escape out of the bag just might make him more curious and want to pry into her affairs even further. "There is only one Tsukiko and that is me. I don't know about this imagined Tsukiko you have envisioned nor do I care. I am myself and that is all you need to know. Yet you are too stupid to pick up that I am the genuine Tsukiko who has veiled herself under a mask trying to strive for a normal lifestyle until I achieve what I came here to accomplish. You all came here to become professional duelists, but I, on the other hand, did not come here for that reason. I will also not disclose the reason why I did come here, because you couldn't help me anyway. It's also none of your your business." Tsukiko's tone became more harsh with each sentence she spoke. The harsh reality of this girl's suffering could be felt if you could feel the burn of her flames released by the sheer animosity set off in her eyes like a ticking timebomb.
"It's always easy for someone to just try to ignite the flames of warmth and light within someone's heart when they have lived a life that is nearly perfect outside the corruption and greed which fuels the circle of hatred for many. Of course, you can say how easy life is to live when you haven't lost anything and have never experienced tragedy in your life. Then you think you can move heaven and earth by trying to pull someone out of the depths of the void without understanding you have no experience of being pushed into the dark hole of nothingness that is known as the cruel reality of despair. You have your crux which is called prosperity and you're able to propel yourself forward due to the fact that you had always experienced a life full of happiness. You still have the light known as faith and hope which shine upon you like a beacon of stars in the sky. But you will never understand the void that creeps inside my heart and I'm not about to let you try to understand it either." Tsukiko stated in a very cold and somewhat sinister like tone as her eyes became even more icy as the gaze gave some people chills that ran down their spine. This person in front of her who just tried their hardest to try to understand her was the reason she hated boys the most. She knew that with every sentence he spoke and the fact he went off and said something as foolish as not a wealthy girl, not a girl that's miserable because of corruption just you when he still had no idea that he was confronting the true version of herself which was embracing all the hatred for boys she had inside her body and releasing it on him.
The constant thought of him still not seeing and failing to understand that his smooth talking wasn't getting anywhere with her almost pushed her patience to its limit. She tried to control her hatred which wanted to rage and cause destruction to objects around her though Angelo made it harder to sanction it off. It was hard enough she had thoughts of her past looming around her like a haunted ghost. It was like this ghost wanted revenge for something she did, but that is all it came off as. It wasn't actually a ghost that cursed her though it did feel like one. This made her despise her father more and more since she blamed him for all the suffering that she had to go through. Including the accident that happened during the Semifinals in the World Tournament that was sponsored by her father. She had closed her eyes for a moment while thinking and when she was finished with trying to piece her thoughts together she opened them once again. The light that Angelo saw earlier had dimmed and the flame that was lit on her face was only completely extinguished by the cold nature of her own attitude which enveloped her in a state of coldness. Her rivers within her eyes were all but dried up. The whiteness in her eyes showed signs of red like she had cried for days end and still came to no resolution. Tsukiko eyes showed she was filled with very deep sadness and one had to venture deep into the cave of darkness that were her memories to even understand the girl which she refused to let anyone do. She was about to start with Angelo either. The day was almost over and she decided she would go from a swim another day like the verdict she came toward earlier due to Angelo's failed sense of judgment which impeded her way of thinking clearly. She could sense he cared, but that didn't matter since she did not trust him at all with her feelings. After how he grabbed her and chose such a careless choice of words as well as becoming repetitive she was almost ready to retire for the day and put the events of today behind her.