I have come to realise over the past few days that I may in fact be a total asshole. I have been thinking about some things i have said in the past and compared it to other peoples behaviour and to be honest I seem like a bit of a prick.

Has anyone else realised this or something similar about themselves?

Oh no, I realized I long long time ago... Not sure if it shows here, but it does in real life.

Are you talking about me or you?

... Me.. Whoopsie daisy...

I know I'm an asshole

Actually I think I used to think I was meaner than I actually am. I can hold a grudge but I really have a tough time being consistently mean.

Vortex said
I have come to realise over the past few days that I may in fact be a total asshole. I have been thinking about some things i have said in the past and compared it to other peoples behaviour and to be honest I seem like a bit of a prick.

Has anyone else realised this or something similar about themselves?

I can totally relate.

Every so often I seem to enter periods of being extremely self-critical. While it's impossible to check for proof, I'm fairly certain I'm technically the first person to ever make a "tell me your opinion of me" thread in Spam, which I started when I was feeling bad about myself and wanted to know if other people felt the same way. I asked Spam because at the time I didn't know anyone there too well, so I knew I'd get relatively unbiased opinions as opposed to a bunch of my friends patting me on the back and trying to convince me I'm a wonderful person.

These self-critical periods used to get really bad, but I feel like they're mostly over now. I really don't feel that way as harshly anymore. These sorts of things still do come up, but on a much less intense level. Like, I went from periodic thoughts of "I'm a horrible person who does nothing but meddle in other people's lives while making myself look like a victim just as a desperate cry for attention" to "Do my friends think I'm annoying?" and "I've been acting kind of like a grumpy asshole lately". The latter two are thoughts that have indeed crossed my mind as recently as the past couple weeks. ...The former I haven't thought about since... at least six months ago - probably close to a year. Perhaps longer. Time seems so hard to keep track of where it concerns emotional things.

So uh... I guess if there's anything to take away from my story, it's that you'll probably move past it soon? I think I lost my point halfway through writing this.

Sometimes I think of myself as too annoying so I leave for awhile to take a breather. Usually happens when I've said some stupid things and gotten bad responses.

I am the least asshole out of all spam and RPG, I am also the most loved member of spam, and the best hidden mod ever.

Doivid said
Actually I think I used to think I was meaner than I actually am. I can hold a grudge but I really have a tough time being consistently mean.

basically this

Kaga said
I can totally relate. Every so often I seem to enter periods of being extremely self-critical. While it's impossible to check for proof, I'm fairly certain I'm technically the first person to ever make a "tell me your opinion of me" thread in Spam,

As someone who has pretty good memory and has been in this place way to long.
I hate you so much.
I can't remember who made the first one
I'm going to be thinking this for so long
I'm going to wake up
be likie
"ah hah I know who it is"
and it's gonna ruin my beauty sleep

this
is
the
worst
thing
in
the
last
hour

Do you feel bad about calling me an asshole yet?

Azarthes said
As someone who has pretty good memory and has been in this place way to long. I hate you so much. I can't remember who made the first oneI'm going to be thinking this for so longI'm going to wake upbe likie "ah hah I know who it is"and it's gonna ruin my beauty sleepthisistheworstthinginthelasthour

:/ Like I said, I'm pretty sure I made the first one. I had never seen a single "tell me what you think of me" thread during my time in Spam prior to that, and when I finally made my version of it, not a single person commented with any indication that it had been a thing in the past. ...Many people commented saying it was a stupid idea, which I agreed to, even saying in the OP I knew it would come off as stupid but I was in a really weird emotional state and just really wanted some outside opinion on my character...

But yeah. I'm pretty sure that if I wasn't the first person to have done something like that, at least one person would've said "this again?" or made some other indication that it was already a thing. I'm hanging onto the belief that I was the first person to do that.

...Not that I'm exactly proud of it. I know it was dumb to begin with and after a short run of people seeming to enjoy it it wound up getting really dumb and kind of annoying; I just didn't want it to keep you up at night. :/

I avoid introspection.

Kaga said
:/ Like I said, I'm pretty sure I made the first one. I had never seen a single "tell me what you think of me" thread during my time in Spam prior to that, and when I finally made my version of it, not a single person commented with any indication that it had been a thing in the past. ...Many people commented saying it was a stupid idea, which I agreed to, even saying in the OP I knew it would come off as stupid but I was in a really weird emotional state and just really wanted some outside opinion on my character...But yeah. I'm pretty sure that if I wasn't the first person to have done something like that, at least one person would've said "this again?" or made some other indication that it was already a thing. I'm hanging onto the belief that I was the first person to do that....Not that I'm exactly proud of it. I know it was dumb to begin with and after a short run of people seeming to enjoy it it wound up getting really dumb and kind of annoying; I just didn't want it to keep you up at night. :/

If you want you can blame me or 1x1 for it.

Kaga said
:/ Like I said, I'm pretty sure I made the first one. I had never seen a single "tell me what you think of me" thread during my time in Spam prior to that, and when I finally made my version of it, not a single person commented with any indication that it had been a thing in the past. ...Many people commented saying it was a stupid idea, which I agreed to, even saying in the OP I knew it would come off as stupid but I was in a really weird emotional state and just really wanted some outside opinion on my character...But yeah. I'm pretty sure that if I wasn't the first person to have done something like that, at least one person would've said "this again?" or made some other indication that it was already a thing. I'm hanging onto the belief that I was the first person to do that....Not that I'm exactly proud of it. I know it was dumb to begin with and after a short run of people seeming to enjoy it it wound up getting really dumb and kind of annoying; I just didn't want it to keep you up at night. :/

natsumehack said
If you want you can blame me or 1x1 for it.

Yeah Kaga just blame Nat.

I
I didn't mean to make you self conscious or anything

But you know I totally think it started around the time I remember you coming in.
I mean there was this dry spell until late 2010ish where bandwagons didn't come in so strong.
And since most of the front page was just counting games...
You could very well be it.

ImANargleHunter said
I avoid introspection.

That's probably healthy.

@Vortex: Being an asshole isn't always a bad thing.

Azarthes said
Yeah Kaga just blame Nat. I I didn't mean to make you self conscious or anythingBut you know I totally think it started around the time I remember you coming in. I mean there was this dry spell until late 2010ish where bandwagons didn't come in so strong. And since most of the front page was just counting games...You could very well be it.

It was counting games, and a mass amount of me being active.

Azarthes said
Yeah Kaga just blame Nat. I I didn't mean to make you self conscious or anythingBut you know I totally think it started around the time I remember you coming in. I mean there was this dry spell until late 2010ish where bandwagons didn't come in so strong. And since most of the front page was just counting games...You could very well be it.

Don't worry about it. You didn't make me self-conscious - I just have a bad habit of rambling and using three paragraphs to say what I could easily say in three sentences.

Rest easy.

You're all assholes in my book.