I know how a lot of that feels, except... in an oddly reversed way. My dad IS a bad guy and he just pretended not to be by picking me up and seeing me like... once every two years. My parents split up... Idk when, actually, because I grew up not caring about my dad. I was forced to see him on those visits, and at first it was like once every four years, then they got closer together until I was old enough to decide if I wanted to see him or not, which I didn't. It was ridiculous 'cause he never wanted to see me, he just wanted to pretend he wasn't a bad guy and make people think that. Like, I'd go with him on the nearly two hours of driving, and he'd just pawn me off on my grandma. I'd usually visit for like three days, and not even see him the second day, even if I wanted to, like when I decided I should at least TRY having a dad, but that didn't work either.
Funny story, actually: I'd gone to see him a lot before I turned nine, but when I was nine years old I found out the name I knew my dad by was his middle name, and that I had no idea what his first name was. I'd seen him a lot of times and lived with him for like three years (I actually don't know how long I lived with him 'cause I apparently blocked it out of my memory) and still didn't know his name. Weird, right? xD He got in contact with me again about four or five years ago, and I eventually decided to go see him and the family again. Turned out to be fun and I went again, then I decided to move up there for a summer 'cause he got me a job, but then he wanted to get this chick and her daughter to move in (he lived in a REALLY small house) and I wouldn't have had a room anymore, plus would've had to take care of this random kid all the time, and so I left and came back home. He didn't like that and started harassing me over the next few days through texts and stuff and then when I came back to school he was still harassing me, calling me a child and just picking random fights with me. It was pretty upsetting. He's a terrible person, and I never want to see him again.
...uhhh sorry. >< I guess that subject makes me talk more than I usually do. XD I apologize, dear. And yeah well Idk. Some of the family on that side SEEMED to love me, but he turned them all against me. Who knows what he told them about me to produce that result. I know I was in the wrong because I didn't discuss it with him, but I still don't think I deserved ALL of that. :/
*sigh* okay, I'm done talking about him. :x What're you up to, dear?