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Snake Face I'm still in a dream....

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It's always been me vs. this horrid world and everyone on it, so fuck the while world because I don't even care anymore.
I'm struggling to afford college, I don't have a job, no car, I'm barely making my rent, my family has abandoned my ass and verbally abuses me every chance they get, I don't have any friends, no girlfriend anymore, everyone's turning their backs on me, even on here or anywhere on the online community I'm shunned, nobody likes or cares about my ass, no one wants anything to do with me.I ain't get shit!

Shoutout to the cheeky bastard in chat who told me to get off my meds and off myself, this ones for you you Aussie bastard.

If you think I'm playing just wait and see if my ass gets on here anymore after tomorrow.I won't because it'll be because I can't.

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I don't give a fuck where the world moves, I'll be sitting right here.

You know where to find me. I never move nor change. Take me or leave me, is up to you.
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Like seriously it has been proven by me myself and I everyday that only select people in this world will ever be loved and have friends and people close to them.
Then you got motherfuckas like me who can't even get mystery people in the internet to like him and be his friend, or at least an acquaintance.

What the hell is wrong with me????????????
I try so hard and try to be every kind of person imaginable and try to make everybody happy and smile and people instead just piss all over me and laugh at my misery.

I'm suck of the bullshit and I'm sick of the world and every single fucking person in it.
Call it a meltdown call it spamming call it raging call it WTF Ever, but I'm at my breaking point with all the shit that's happened to me today alone and I'm through with everybody and everything
I hope erbody but me rots in hellπŸ’€πŸ’€πŸ’€πŸ’€πŸ”₯πŸ”₯πŸ”₯πŸ”₯πŸ”₯
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Snake Face I'm still in a dream....

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I don't give a fuck where the world moves, I'll be sitting right here.

You know where to find me. I never move nor change. Take me or leave me, is up to you.


GTFO and quit spamming my breakdown spam
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GTFO and quit spamming my breakdown spam


Uplug the god damn net and go kill a wall. Worked for me. Didn't work for my fists very well, but hell, it worked.
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(Just in case this thread happens to be nothing more than an attempt at "trolling" rather than a genuine case of venting, I should probably make a point right from the start that I'm neither stupid enough to not realize it could be... nor am I superficial/weak/uncaring enough to not act in accordance to the possibility that this is genuine. I'm not mindless enough to be insulting or apathetic towards this thread either, but I'm sure some morons will come along to be eventually.)

You can feel free to go into a tangent about how I also "don't care" about you, if you like, even though I actually wouldn't take my time posting in this thread as I'm about to if I didn't care about you. If you decide to mouth off at me, I don't intend on feeding into your comments... so just be warned that you won't actually get any sort of reaction out of me if you decide to be immature when dealing with me. There's no point listening to someone who doesn't listen to you.

That being said, I actually do care about you. I don't know you, or your situation, and (unlike certain particularly small-minded people I've encountered on this site lately) I don't intend on assuming to know a person or their circumstances when I don't, let alone what drives them to think the way they do, even if you have given several hints of these things already.

If I can suggest any advice to you, it's this: don't care what other people think about you. Care about people, but not about what they think of you. Be forthright with who you are, instead of just trying to make other people like or hate you. That's how I live, and the people who are close to me are those who respect the fact that (among other things) I'm a real person in a world full of weaklings hiding behind masks of anonymity. People can like me or they can hate me; they can agree with me or disagree with me. In the end, these things are their choices and it won't stop me from believing in who I am or the path I choose to walk down.

That being said, if you want everyone to "rot in Hell" then you probably don't deserve the compassion I'm offering you in the first place right now, but I understand that people say rather unpleasant things when they're in pain (I know I have). Due to that, I won't take any personal offense to such a statement. That, and it's in my nature to show kindness (and offer my psychological advice) to all where I can.

So, you can take what I have to say or you can reject it; you decide.
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Like seriously it has been proven by me myself and I everyday that only select people in this world will ever be loved and have friends and people close to them.
Then you got motherfuckas like me who can't even get mystery people in the internet to like him and be his friend, or at least an acquaintance.

What the hell is wrong with me????????????
I try so hard and try to be every kind of person imaginable and try to make everybody happy and smile and people instead just piss all over me and laugh at my misery.

I'm suck of the bullshit and I'm sick of the world and every single fucking person in it.
Call it a meltdown call it spamming call it raging call it WTF Ever, but I'm at my breaking point with all the shit that's happened to me today alone and I'm through with everybody and everything
I hope erbody but me rots in hellπŸ’€πŸ’€πŸ’€πŸ’€πŸ”₯πŸ”₯πŸ”₯πŸ”₯πŸ”₯


Chill. Take a walk outside. Sit down on a bench. Enjoy the weather. Maybe bring a book with you. Don't like that idea? Find something else that makes you happy.

Just don't make threads on a subforum that absolutely is not required to care about your problems. Truthfully, not everyone here is gonna tell you off. You might get some people who care enough to sit down and talk to you. On the other hand, you might get people who will agitate the problem further. Also, all the time wasted here could be put somewhere more productive. Or interesting.
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If you're trolling: haha u funy op lel top kek

If you're serious: 1-800-273-8255 Get some help
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If you're trolling: haha u funy op lel top kek

If you're serious: 1-800-273-8255 Get some help


Also, this: crisischat.org/chat
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Also, this: crisischat.org/chat


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adios faggoto
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Snake Face I'm still in a dream....

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adios faggoto


Thanks.
That helps.

And no I'm not a troll.
I'm a depressed, bipolar, abused person that no one cares about.

Why?
I'll never no.

I'm nice, I'm normal, but no one wants anything to do with me.
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Thanks.
That helps.


np ur welcum
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but no one wants anything to do with me.


Bull.

roleplayerguild.com/topics/150594-tota..

I was there and will always be on the lurk. Make another and I'll be on the lurk, and if I don't join it won't have a damn thing to do with you, it'll be my own activity issues.

I've been told to be sympathetic, but given my own experiences I have very great difficulties in doing so.

You are what you make yourself to be. Real life? Shit happens. Internet? Build your image and if it goes wrong, change direction or tear the whole bloody thing down and do it over like I've done five times in the past couple decades. Not quite as easy in real life to do as the internet - but it is doable.
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I'm here if you want to talk to someone about it, that is if you're still out there.
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In all seriousness though @Snake Face The RP community is here for you if you need someone to talk to. Yes, some of us can be a bunch of bellends, but some of us have been down that same dark and desolate road you're walking friend. We all know the pain you're going through and we don't want to see you hurt or worse because of it. If you ever need someone, we're here. ^__^

Now where did I put my speedo?
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You've actually just had multiple people turn up and tell you how much they care and give you some solidly good, genuine advice, and the only one you bother responding to is the single uncaring joking comment?

Maybe you're choosing the wrong things to focus on and the wrong people to be around in real life, just like you just did in this thread.

You want logical approaches? There are only three possible true scenarios here:
A) You really are treated like this, and it's because you're an asshole.
B) You really are treated like this, and it's because literally every single one of the tens of people you know well enough to care about are assholes.
C) You aren't really treated that badly in general, your perception is just skewed because of your current unhappiness.
(D) You're a troll is a fourth possibility, but assuming otherwise.)

In terms of likelihood, C > A > B. It's statistically very unlikely that B is true - that everyone you know is terrible, shitty, abusive and uncaring towards you. Very very few people are like that, especially to those they know properly, so the chances of it applying to all the people you know is tiny.
However, it can happen, so if it is this (almost definitely not, but hey, shit happens) then try to shift your social circles. You're at uni; it's relatively easy to do, there, just go to a new set of societies/clubs (for example.)

But it's almost guaranteed to be A or C. If it's A, maybe you're unintentionally an asshole, like you've kinda been in this thread, or maybe it's because you're so very self-pitying (we've all been there, it's not an insult), or whatever. Point is, if it's A, I'm not saying you're inherently a bad person, I just mean that you've driven the people who care about you away for some reason. I can't blame them if the way you talk and act in this thread is the way you truly are all the time as opposed to a brief outburst of emotion. If all the people in your life disappear from it, usually you're the cause.
So here is my first tip: Instead of only focusing on everyone else and their flaws, try thinking about yourself, your own happiness, and your own flaws, too. Don't define yourself by your relationships with others, and also don't make yourself so busy criticising and blaming everyone else that you're blind to your own problems.
In this thread you have already been rude and dismissive to others who are trying to care for you, and are utterly focused on how flawless you are and cruel everyone else is. If that's how you are all the time, that's where I'd start working on things.

Or, it could be C) - that the people in your life don't all hate you (some of them might, but that's life, you can't be friends with everyone), and it's simply your unhappiness that's skewing your perception of the world. I'd think very very seriously about whether this is the case, if I were you, because it's definitely the most likely scenario.
I've been where you are. I was clinically diagnosed with depression a year ago almost to the day, was on SSRIs until May, eventually brought myself off them and now I'm back at university. I've got 60-80 hour weeks to deal with for the rest of the year just to keep up with my commitments and still also afford rent. And I've had periods of intense loneliness too. So I'd advise listening, because I have actual practical experience of your situation!
The one thing that has allowed me to somewhat turn my life around is realising that I'm not alone. I was at huge odds with my family too at one point, and I felt like I had no friends. Honestly, it was a combination of utterly not appreciating the help that was offered to me (for example, focusing on one negative comment on a thread instead of several positive ones...), and of driving further help away by lashing out at the people around me, not appreciating them, and being so consumed by my own misery that I became quite self-focused. I was convinced it was me vs. the world, as you put it, that I was good and nobody cared about good people, and I pushed everyone who could have helped away from me.
This is a self-perpetuating cycle. You have to break this cycle in order to function and recover from this. A lot of dealing with common mental illnesses (depression, anxiety, bipolar, and similar) is identifying and eliminating these sorts of negative thought cycles. And although it can feel like you're out of control of your mood when you're mentally ill, you're not. You have the ability to change this, at least, if not your brain chemistry. Everyone is different, but, again, this is from personal experience.
So next time you're feeling like this, stop, slow down, and think. Think about the people in this thread who are very obviously wanting to be a helping hand, who are being kind and compassionate. You are not ignored by everyone, and help is there for those who ask for it and are able to accept it. And then go on to think about other times in the last week when someone has been good, as opposed to just a flat out asshole as you claim everyone is. Identify the positive influences in your life and focus on cultivating them, and show your appreciation for them. Don't obsess over one negative thing in a sea of positivity, and allow that to corrupt your view of the world, as is so easy to do in these times of, well, depression.

I hope this somewhat helps. My final bit of advice is: look at Cognitive Behavioural Therapy sessions with your local health care provider, wherever you are. It's very good, and it's all about breaking negative thought cycles. I used it a bit myself.

Good luck.
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