When I was 23 I dated a 30 year old and when I was 30, I dated an 18 year old. The 23/30 mix was much better than the 30/18 mix. Immaturity was a serious issue.
I've often fantasized about going back in time and confronting my HS bullies. To know what I know now, but inhabit my teen aged self.
i watch dead meat kill counts on youtube.
I miss my bully conflicts. Learned a lot about myself and others. But the lifestyle is shunned so I just feel disconnected now. Like some sort of intimate interaction is missing in my life. It's probably because I don't know what it means to let my guard down. Also, probably why all my girlfriends are brats.