Hahahaha!! XD Ahhh man, that made me laugh lol. Just so you know, I'm doing a fist pump right now for beating you to the word >;D

Yeah about those anxiety attacks.. x) Nah, see, slamming your foot into a ball a hundred times a week really helps to alleviate stress xD And I have to work, so there's no use in me freaking out about it. As much as I complain about work, I've really got a great set up at this grocery store. I like all my coworkers and my managers are good people, which makes all the difference in the world. They let me pick my hours without a fuss and if I'm slammed with school work, I can usually easily request a day or two off. Art and design are my passions so I can work long stretches of time without burning out.

But.. sometimes I do feel a little overwhelmed by all of it. Even though I'm out of my parents' house, I'm still partially supported by them. There's nothing I want more than to be financially independent. But when I get stressed, I start to get scared that I won't find a job after I graduate and have to be a cashier for the rest of my life... ;_; Sounds melodramatic now...but very real at 3am.

Uhhh, ok enough therapy couch confessions haha xD I'm glad you liked my post!

EDIT: YES BITE-SIZED. Haha, clearly I'm still wrapped up in Mila's personality xD Must get out of character lol

Rude! Haha! Just so you know, I still used the word... twice... XP

I guess playing sports would help a lot, I know dance does for me. I'm just such a weird person and I get really worked up over things that I shouldn't. That does sound like it would be really good! I know all of the grocery stores around here are so uptight about their employees taking time off and it's just a really big mess for a lot of my friends who dance or do other sports. It must be so nice to have that sense of flexibility with your work schedule too, that's what I would love to have!

Me: "Mom, I have no money would you give me some?" My mom: "Here. Take 20" *repeat for the rest of my life* XD Trust me, you're more financially independent then I'll ever be. Now being serious, that is a really realistic fear (especially at 3am)! Like you never know what the future holds and the "what ifs" of life are always there and they are always reallllllly scary. To be honest right now I am having such a hard time holding back a bunch of overused bull crap about "you just got to go where the wind takes you", haha. Oh god...

Hahaha, I actually laughed so hard at that! Never get out of character! Real life is for dummies ;)

Oh my god, I loved your post. I read it twice. I'm going to go read it again.

*shocked face*

Uhh, thank you! Haha. Murr, I'm not really sure what else to say without sounding like a cocky little bitch so thanks, thanks very much!

Here I was thinking, "hm, I hope she has enough to work with, my post was kind of short..." and then you send me a freaking masterpiece xD I did smile when saw euphoric lol.

What! I think my mom would start laughing if her 21-year-old just asked for 20 bucks. But maybe when I was 16, she would have been like ok here...Yeah, my parents did give me spending money before I started working. *Sigh* ..to be young again x) But it's so freeing to have my own money!

Guess I'll be content staying stuck in character then ;D

Haha, well thank you :) I give what I receive, so there! And by the way it's in there twice! Hehe.

Every time I ask for money I always get really dirty looks from my mom... she hates it! But, like really! I don't have a job or anything, not that I just don't want one but I literally cannot get one, and I'm 16! She's the one who always says "You have your entire life to work" but then when I want to go out and do something she'll be like "You need to be more responsible" and no, no I won't do that because that is scary.

I do miss having a job and having my own spending money, this has actually been the first time in years that I haven't had my own money! I use to babysit my cousins children from 8 to 4 on weekends and then another family had me come watch their kids from 6 to 5 weekly (I would feed them all three meals a day and clean the house and literally do everything and they paid me soooo much and it was marvelous <3) but my cousin moved and I almost burned down the other peoples kitchen so yeah... that was kinda a bust.

Twice! Touche! x)

Well, you do have the rest of your life to work, so I say you should enjoy this time now! I used to babysit too actually, before I moved out to Raleigh. I'm actually going to babysit over Easter Break when I go back to my hometown. They're a family I've known since we moved to North Carolina and their kids love me, if I do say so myself. Three little boys and we just run around the house playing with nerf guns xD We start out on teams and then they eventually gang up on me. They wear me out. x)

..Almost burned down their kitchen?? xD

I'm gonna call it a night btw, sooo beat. Goodnight! Sweet dreams

Ahh! Oh my god that is adorable. I love kids, they're just so cute! My cousin has three boys who are all insane and then a little girl who won't ever leave my side, so I get ya with the whole "kids wear you out" thing XD

Yeah... That. Well I was cooking some super and the kids were being crazy and the baby needed his diaper changed so I just quickly took two pans out from under the stove and put the chicken nuggets and fries on it to cook while I did everything else. Turns out she kept PLASTIC pans under her stove (who does that??) and the pan had melted everywhere. Anyways, it was just a really bad situation and I havn't babysat for them since.

Night!

Aw that is so sweet! :D They must just adore you.

But really, who keeps plastic anything near the stove? x) What do you use plastic pans for anyway? I don't think I have any. Haha, well, at least the kids weren't hurt or anything. I've never had anything catastrophic happen while I was babysitting, although once I did fall asleep on the couch after I put the boys to sleep. It was like 2am and the parents weren't back from their party yet and I just lay down to rest my eyes. Before I knew it, they were waking me up lol. They weren't irritated at all so it was ok, but I still feel like I should be awake in case something happens or whatever.

I did babysit for a weekend once for another family who had just one four year old boy, and obviously I had to sleep then x) It was cute because the boy would get up in the middle of the night, run down the hall to the guest bedroom where I was sleeping, jump into my bed, and immediately fall asleep next to me - all three nights. The parents even told me before hand that he would do this x) They have a regular sitter almost every other weekend who I was filling in for, so they knew his routine.

Your post nearly had me in tears! Ahh.. is it bad that I'm sympathizing with Mila??

I think it was like a serving thing or something... I don't really know. It looked like a pan that you put in the oven and it was right next to the stove so I just assumed. Aww, come on! You must have had something worse then that! Doesn't everyone?? :P One time I fell asleep on the back deck in the middle of the day when I was babysitting, oh and another time I thought someone as in the basement so I put a chair under the doorknob and sat at the island chair with a knife and a hammer until the parents got home. Tbh I don't know why people trust me with their kids...

That is honestly the cutest thing I have ever heard ohmygod. I don't think I'd be able to sleep if that happened to me because I would be sitting up giggling like an idiot because it would be so cute. Anyways, what was that like, spending an entire weekend watching a kid?

Heh heh, mission accomplished ;}

Ahaha! XD sat at the island chair with a knife and a hammer until the parents got home, I seriously laughed out loud when I read that xD You're funny. I really don't have anything worse to share lol x) I wish I could play this game. Uhhh let's see.. I let the kids stay up an hour later than they were supposed to? XD Yeah, lame, I know. What can I say #perfectbabysitter. Actually, the parents of the three boys never had me cook anything other than microwave meals until I was like 19, so that sort of saved me from having any kitchen disasters lol.

Yeah, I didn't sleep a whole lot, not because I was giggling at cuteness but because that kid must have been doing karate in his dreams because he'd flail around all over the place. The absolute cutest thing of all of this though was that each of those three mornings, we'd we wake up and have a pillow fight before I made him breakfast xD He really is the sweetest kid. Spending a whole weekend babysitting a four year old was pretty exhausting though. New respect for parents omg.

I'd say! Also, I have a song to show you that just came on the playlist that I'm listening to and I was like this may or may not be perfect atm. Go listen to "Human" by Daughter!

Whelp... that's awkward because that's only the start of my many fails at childcare XD The one time that I let the kids stay up later, their mom came home and we were downstairs playing video games it, was really awkward and I'm kinda lucky the kids ere my cousins and not some rando person's kids. They wouldn't let you cook anything? That would simultaneously suck/rock. I guess it is kind of smart though, and you didn't end up killing anyone so that's a plus! But I would die without the "french fries and nuggets" go to meal.

The fact that you just used a hashtag makes you 1042365109845x cooler, just saying.

Eesh, that would kind of suck getting kicked in the back all night. But that pillow fight thing! D'aww ;') that is actually so adorable! I could only imagine how exhausting spending that much time entertaining a kid would be, I think though that when it's your own kid it isn't as winding because you don't feel the need to constantly be playing with them or tending to them. Babies on the other hand... I don't know how people survive that one DX

Woah.. that's like Mila's theme song right there :O Fits perfectly. Love the song btw.

Only the start haha, ah you're killin' me x) No one was rushed to the hospital so you can't be that bad. ...uh right? xD Yeah, no chicken nuggets or french fries for a while, we would have microwave burritos alllll the time.

Haha, score! xD I blame the youtubers I watch for using hashtag phrases all the time. I keep up with Grace Helbig's vlog, Sprinkle of Glitter, Zoella, and Rose Ellen Dix - have you ever seen their videos?

Yeah you're right, when you're babysitting you have to be constantly entertaining (although tv and video games are beautiful things for when you need a break). As a parent, you're not freaking out about whether or not someone would approve of what you're doing, cuz they're your kids. Heh, I've noticed how parents sort of change from one kid to the next, like, with their first little boy, they had a pretty strict bedtime routine, wanted him to be in bed by a certain time, no snacks, etc. By the second and third, they're like yeah they might want to sleep in the hallway, just let them xD

Hey I have a rando quesiton for you, do Canadians throw "u's" into their words, like colour, humour, flavour, etc?

I knooow! I love daughter but that's one of their songs that I hadn't heard before, but now I'm in love!

No hospital endeavors, but one time a kid got hit in the face and his teeth were all bloody and I made him let me take his picture... thinking back now that was probably cruel... but he thought it was funny so it was all cool!!

No, I haven't... I don't really follow any youtubers, but there are a couple that I watch irregularly when I'm bored. Do you watch them often??

yeah they might want to sleep in the hallway, just let them Oh my god, haha! This is so accurate! My Aunt use to go crazy about all that stuff and now she's just like "Don't kill them" and that's basically it. Pretty sure that's how I'll be right from the get-go though... XP

Yes, we do shit the right way! Lol, just kidding! But yeah, we do although sometimes I go back and forth between one spelling and the other. I don't really know why I personally don't think it makes a difference whether or not the "u" is there. And by the way don't diss the rando.. it's a good word! (It's actually what my dance teachers say to us when we do something wrong. "Hey rando, what are you doing?" "Oh my god, what was that rando move?" etc, most of the time it's just mean't to liven up a really mean comment XD)

Gahhh, I loved your post again, I love all your posts. You might be sympathizing with Mila, but your post has totally got me on Charlie's side slash even feeling guilty?? Stop that! No don't stop, you're really good at all these emotions x) I keep thinking to myself, damn if she can write like this when she's 16, what will she be doing a few years from now?? Could I do that back then? I don't think so..

Kid has bloody face: take picture. xD You need to write these pro tips down.

I watch Grace Helbig's vlog basically everyday. Which sounds obsessive, but they're only like 3 minutes long and she posts a new one every weekday. So when get on my macbook to do work I usually procrastinate first by watching her daily video x) The others only post a video once a week, two weeks, so I don't spend a whole lot of time watching theirs. But Grace is pretty much amazing x)

Oh, Canadians do shit the right way, eh? With "u's" all over the place. Ha! We cut that stuff out down here. Lol, just teasing, I only mention it because I have this weird thing where whenever I see one of those useless "u's," my brain automatically goes, hey british accent alert. Which is pretty stereotypical I know I know x) since a lot of other countries obviously spell those words the same. I shouldn't even be admitting this. Nevermind xD

EDIT: don't diss the rando xD sorry sorry, I couldn't resist. I do like it x) I'm going to try it out on one of my friends tomorrow

Oh wow, thank you :) Haha, I'm not sure what to say!

I know, I should have my own self help book. 100 Easy Ways to be a Good Bad Babysitter. It'll be a top seller xD

Oh, that's really cool! I've seen like Jenna Marbles and Wasabi Productions and stuff but only when I have nothing else to do :p Maybe I'll have to check out Grace Helbig's vlog.. what does she make her videos about?

Haha, oh my! I can see why you would think British accent, though! It does seem very British-y... I'm pretty sure they use "u's" over there, actually. Don't quote me on that 'cause I may be wrong. I actually find it really amusing how something as simple as a letter can be so normal/abnormal.

Oh my god, please do it! That would actually make my day XD Also, speaking of tomorrow, I have another comp starting so I may not be on that much the rest of the weekend.

Grace is sort of like Jenna Marbles only more toned down x) Here's two videos if you're curious: Dori-Froze and The Sweater Weather Tag

I'll let you know how it goes haha xD

Aw, ok, thanks for the heads up :) Good luck! I think I'm going to call it a night btw

EDIT: Here's two more, in case you're ever bored x) Backwards Words and Travel Makeup

Ahhh, oh my god. Thank you thank you thank you. Those videos were exactly what I needed after today, so punny XD I will admit to the fact that my temptation to make a milkshake like that is very high at the moment...

Anywhoo oh my gosh I am going to vent and I am sorry but I need to so yeah. Okay, oh man. *livid face* After school today I went with my dance teacher and another girl from my group to a workshop in town, everything was great until after we were done with contemporary and we got off the stage and my dance teacher pulled us aside and said. "We have to leave at 6:30 to be at the studio to rehearse routines. So-and-so quit." We compete tomorrow and we spent two hours tonight re-doing all of our routine (eight, eight routines...) because she quit. Gah! The worse part is that this is the SECOND time we had to do that this year, it is sooooo frustrating.

Well, that was my rant for the day.

Ah man, sorry I missed your rant! D: How did your routine go?? Did you find out any info about why that girl quit?

Check it out, I made it into the Guild News x) Under On Display: Art.

Woah! Congracts!! Told ya they were good XD That's really awesome! Have you had anyone say anything about them?

I know exactly why she left. There was a "fight" between her and a teacher and she says that the teacher was yelling/swearing at her so she stormed out of class and quit. But I was there the entire time and absolutely nothing happened, she just wanted an excuse.

As for how we did... Highest mark of the day at 93.55! We have six routines together and we recieved multiple judges choice awards including one called "The A Team" because we work really well together!