Outside the school, Izzy leaned against the rough bricks of the wall beside the front door. She tried unsuccessfully to calm herself, to push the gory image of Guillotine Cutter from her mind, to stop the echoing loop of Cerasus’ last words in her head.
She needed to find somewhere for the day, somewhere away from Cerasus, from the madness surrounding her. Away from Guillotine’s lifeless body, and the smell of his blood.
With dawn approaching, Izzy pushed shakily from the wall, swallowing hard against her panicked, rapid breaths, and ran from the school. There were a few old farmhouses, now long abandoned, further out from the town. Even if they were not as well boarded up as the school, she was sure she could find at least a corner untouched by the sun.
In no time, she found one of the abandoned farms. Though the two-story home was choked by overgrown weeds and ivy, its windows boarded up in a hasty mess and covered in graffiti, Izzy picked it out easily.
As the first fiery colors of the sun began to paint the horizon, she squeezed in through a broken window she assumed some vandals had torn the boards from.
The rank smell of mold and mildew greeted her, mingled with the stale scent of cigarette smoke. The floor beneath a threadbare carpet creaked loudly from her weight as she stepped fully into what may have once been a living room. She stopped, listening for signs of anything living. She heard only the creaks her presence had sent through the house, and the faint sound of something dripping on the upper level.
She moved through the house, searching for what she thought would be the darkest place. Finding a basement behind an old, decrepit door, the steps between metal railing nearly all rotted away, she jumped down into the room below, closing the door behind her. Made of concrete, it had only a single window large enough for someone thin to squeeze through, its glass blacked out by boards on the outside.
Izzy ignored the many spider webs and their occupants strewn through the room. A few rows of storage racks took up one end, a few forgotten glass containers resting among yet more webs.
Sure she would be safe from the sun, and not be found in the unlikely event someone came to investigate the old house, Izzy went to the side opposite the racks and sunk heavily to the filthy floor, her grocery sack falling beside her. With a shaky sob, she placed her face in her palms. No matter how hard she tried to push it away, the image of Guillotine Cutter with Cerasus bent over him, covered in crimson, was burned into her brain and flashed in the darkness behind her eyelids. That was the monster she allowed to return to power, all so she could become human again. The monster she feared she would become from not becoming human. If he had not fed on Cutter, it would have been someone else. And there was no telling who would fall to Cerasus’ hunger next time. Perhaps someone she knew, someone she loved.
Even if she had prevented Cerasus’ return, it would have been a lose-lose situation for her.
Her own hunger had only grown, excited by the scent of what it desired. She had known, deep down, the truth of what Cerasus had said, only shoving it as far from her mind as possible. But now, she would have to face it, one way or another. She did not know how long she could go without blood, or what factors influenced it. And she had spilled plenty of her own to save Trevor. She would have to do something to satisfy it, if only long enough for her to become a human again.
She let out a long, slow breath and leaned back against the wall behind her. She glanced over to her grocery bag.
It wouldn’t hurt to try. Slowly, with trembling hands, she started pulling out the bag’s contents, which included a couple paper plates and a butter knife for the mostly empty jar of mayo she had grabbed. Taking her time to hopefully let the normalcy of the actions bring some sort of unstable calm, she made herself a sandwich. Wiping the butter knife off on a second plate, she ate it as slowly as she had made it, hoping beyond hope that it would dilute the hunger, if even only fractionally.