Izzy shifted her weight slightly, watching him free himself from the ground. She inhaled sharply when his gaze finally met hers. She could not look away, the illusion of emotions, of belonging, nigh intoxicating.
Her body tensed when he answered her question, and she tried with little success to hide her fear at the thought.
That can’t be true! she pleaded silently. If it was, it meant that even the element of surprise would not belong to her. It meant he knew what she had been plotting with Trevor. In the short moment before Cerasus continued, she wondered if that was what had drove him to come here, during the day.
As unsure as ever as to what to expect from him, she flinched slightly when he raised a finger. She blinked at him in surprise when he gave his apology. She struggled to keep the emotions Cerasus brought with him separate from her own as he continued in his pleasing tone. If nothing else, she needed a clear head.
Izzy held her breath when he finished. Some part of her--the vampire part, she assumed--wanted to accept, to live out the rest of eternity side-by-side with him, the King of Aberrations, to succumb to the feelings radiating from him. But every part of her that clung to humanity screamed out against it. It was true, she had not wanted to watch him die. Even now, she did not want to fight him, to kill him, but her options were slim: go against him and potentially save the countless lives of his meals, or let him continue his reign, unchallenged. Or, now, she supposed she had a third, with his offer to join him, to remain a blood-thirsty beast for an eternity. One of the images that had haunted her scant sleep while waiting for Trevor crossed her mind, an image of her in place of Cerasus over the mangled, bloody body of her only friend.
She managed to close her eyes and tear her gaze away from his. She gave a shake of her head and swallowed hard.
“Thank you for your apology,” she intoned quietly. She opened her eyes, her gaze on the ground and only Cerasus’ feet in her line of sight. “But I will not become a monster.” Though her voice was soft, her tone was resolute.