[OOC] Academy of Hereos and Villains: Year two

[Archmage MC]

@Archmage MC a man who isn't worried about failure is more desirable I know this because guys are terrified of me and it's no wonder that I date more women. They see me and think already has someone (not for eight months now) She's an athlete, she likes guns and can shoot Bla, bla, bla

The guys that aren't afraid of me are usually ego driven creeps that come up acting as if I should be thrilled with their presense; I love Geek guys and they never seem able to at least talk with me, I'd love a guy that doesn't look at me like a freak when he discovers I love Anime, Scifi, Cosplay and other Otaku and Geeky Pursuits

@RumikoOhara

I'd talk with you, but if you just say 'yeah' 'sure' 'uh-huh', or those dismissive kinda replies I just kinda go off somewhere else because its obvious people don't wanna talk to ya. That tends to be most of my conversations. Or If I do get one, its sort of that 'oh thats neat' and it doesn't go much further than that. I'm outgoing enough to strike up conversations, the problem is the other person doesn't wanna talk usually.

Now why would people be scared of you? Only reason I can see is that they think that since your so cool that your already taken or something, which is usually is true from what I can tell. And a guy can't become friends with a couple because there is another guy there and a girl there. That tends to end poorly, I've seen it unfold at school quite a lot when I was still in school.

@Archmage MC
well. That's kinda offensive.

It's so hard for me to talk to people in real life, really. I'm terribly shy. I get nervous even appraoching a guy. Or a girl. Cause yeah "Go a way"vibe.

So I understand.

Meeting people through games or sites...it lets me be myself and then I don't have to worry so much about the shy thing.

@Caits

Sorry. But thats how I've seen things happening and how things have happened to me it feels. So if its not online its hard to talk to people with that 'get away' vibe thats everywhere. And I agree the sites are great. I'm just talking about dating sites specifically. Like I like you guys/girls so there are friends being made here and its interesting and nice that we can have a convo like this. Imagine trying to get a convo like this going irl.

[RumikoOhara]

@Caits

Same here Caits I'm the worst reader of body language ever and terror is my middle name in any first date situation

I had a date actually tell me once that he thought that perhaps we wouldn't work out because he was intimidated after showing up at the stables and watching me be the Manager; something about he thought Arggg!!!

[Archmage MC]

@Caits

Same here Caits I'm the worst reader of body language ever and terror is my middle name in any first date situation

I had a date actually tell me once that he thought that perhaps we wouldn't work out because he was intimidated after showing up at the stables and watching me be the Manager; something about he thought Arggg!!!

@RumikoOhara

I can say this, at least you've had a date. I haven't even had that yet. Not one I can really call a date anyway. So even if its terror filled and even if it ended in failure, I'd be happy just to have the opportunity.

Actually, what games do you all play that are multiplayer? It'd be nice to get on an MMO and have friends playing it for a change. xD

[RumikoOhara]

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I'd talk with you, but if you just say 'yeah' 'sure' 'uh-huh', or those dismissive kinda replies I just kinda go off somewhere else because its obvious people don't wanna talk to ya. That tends to be most of my conversations. Or If I do get one, its sort of that 'oh thats neat' and it doesn't go much further than that. I'm outgoing enough to strike up conversations, the problem is the other person doesn't wanna talk usually.

Now why would people be scared of you? Only reason I can see is that they think that since your so cool that your already taken or something, which is usually is true from what I can tell. And a guy can't become friends with a couple because there is another guy there and a girl there. That tends to end poorly, I've seen it unfold at school quite a lot when I was still in school.

@Archmage MC

Oh if you chatted to me about Anime or Scifi I'd show you why my uncle says I could talk the ears off a rabbit

Of course I'd likely tell you about my Doctoral Thesis which I need to finish and then rattle the cages of the old Philosophers I love to quote and the ship would begin to sink

[BlackPanther]

.....I'm at university
My food time is my me time
I will hiss at people lol

But the other side of the coin I am trying to be more social
But being into science so much makes it hard to interact with people not in that field
I've done better though

I don't mention diseases quite as much XD

And while I'm more social and I do interact more....I still stand at the bus stop alone...

I have one super best friend (friends for going on over 7 years
And then I have people I interact with a lot that I feel are my friends but they will be moving on into heavier fields
*shrug*
Each person is different and such

[Archmage MC]

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Oh if you chatted to me about Anime or Scifi I'd show you why my uncle says I could talk the ears off a rabbit

Of course I'd likely tell you about my Doctoral Thesis which I need to finish and then rattle the cages of the old Philosophers I love to quote and the ship would begin to sink

@RumikoOhara

Probably not. It'd be nice NOT being the chatterbox for once. xD. Theres only so many times you can spout science stuff before you get bored repeating the same things for the nteenth time. lol

Probably doesn't help I haven't had an IRL friend in 3 years (And even then I dunno if I'd call them friend either. Friends invite you, not force you to invite yourself.) and most internet friends are more just aquantences or just drop off the face of the earth. lol

.....I'm at university
My food time is my me time
I will hiss at people lol

But the other side of the coin I am trying to be more social
But being into science so much makes it hard to interact with people not in that field
I've done better though

I don't mention diseases quite as much XD

And while I'm more social and I do interact more....I still stand at the bus stop alone...

I have one super best friend (friends for going on over 7 years
And then I have people I interact with a lot that I feel are my friends but they will be moving on into heavier fields
*shrug*
Each person is different and such

@BlackPanther

Yeah, science talk is tricky. I usually go the tech or space route. Usually you can get some 'cool' 'wow' or the like going that route. Or give people hope in genetic engineering in 20 years with CRISPR.

[RumikoOhara]

@BlackPanther@Archmage MC

What I'm trying to say is both parties are afraid of failure if they have a real chance because most of the time those who aren't score keepers or users just want a friend first and to feel a connection not a hookup.

Try Chatting about Philosophy Panther, peoples eyes glaze over in 30 seconds or less

[Archmage MC]

@BlackPanther@Archmage MC

What I'm trying to say is both parties are afraid of failure if they have a real chance because most of the time those who aren't score keepers or users just want a friend first and to feel a connection not a hookup.

Try Chatting about Philosophy Panther, peoples eyes glaze over in 30 seconds or less

@RumikoOhara

Dunno what you mean by score keeper or user, but shouldn't you be friends first before making a relationship? Though I guess if either person makes that relationship plunge, I've noticed that people tend to not want to be friends after that if it fails for some unknown reason. I mean I'd still be friends with someone if they did that.

Philosophy is fun. I've gone on some tangents in the OOC here already with that xD. Just didn't show the initial rambling.

[MarshiestMallow]

@BlackPantherHey don't diss the disease thing!

I met one of my best friends because Iwas reading lecture notes as I was eating and was apparently mumbling them, and she overhead me go

"Bllllooooooodddd" in this high voice. And since then everytime we said blood it was like that.

We bonded over me saying blood creepily.

@Archmage MC
Well at the moment Iplay ESo. Destiny. The division. Some others.

I'm 24 and i'e only had a handful of dates-part of that is this irrational fear of being betrayed because of childhook bully but lets not go there. I don't trust maby people in short. So games are a great way for me to learn how people are. You see people at their best and worse there.

Plus...I have to fall in love with a gamer. Its like half my life. And anime/manga.

in short, I need a geek.

[Archmage MC]

@BlackPantherHey don't diss the disease thing!

I met one of my best friends because Iwas reading lecture notes as I was eating and was apparently mumbling them, and she overhead me go

"Bllllooooooodddd" in this high voice. And since then everytime we said blood it was like that.

We bonded over me saying blood creepily.

@Archmage MC
Well at the moment Iplay ESo. Destiny. The division. Some others.

I'm 24 and i'e only had a handful of dates-part of that is this irrational fear of being betrayed because of childhook bully but lets not go there. I don't trust maby people in short. So games are a great way for me to learn how people are. You see people at their best and worse there.

Plus...I have to fall in love with a gamer. Its like half my life. And anime/manga.

in short, I need a geek.

@Caits

Man, I want your luck. You got all the cool bonding stories! Right now I'm kinda just looking for the basic someone to love and love in return sorta stuff. Pretty sure that having no friends in 3 years is the source of my crippling depression, and not having a date ever and being in my mid 20s is the other source of it. And not being able to ever drive a car, but that has hope due to self driving cars. xD Just gotta wait for them to NOT require a license to drive, or some sort of easier to obtain license that doesn't need an eye test. lol

I don't play much of anything right now, I just mostly binge watch science stuff on youtube or read lots of science stuff. Maybe some DOTA, maybe some Paladins, Maybe some Fallout 4, Dragon Ball Xenoverse 2 here in a couple days. I stay away from MMOs because they just feel completely empty due to the whole no friends thing. Used to play WoW and ESO though. And City of Heroes. City of Heroes was great, lots and lots of socializing and random fun stuff like that. Why did that one get canceled? And If your going to cancel an IP with no intention of restarting it, sell the bloody thing! >.>

Also studying the stock market. I really wanna get into that, but a 1k entrance fee is kinda steep.

Hope I'm not making you guys uneasy. If you ever need to vent and need an ear, I'm open. It helps a lot. xD.

[BlackPanther]

@Caits
Lol
I get a weird enjoyment from talking to non bio majors and watching their faces
.....honestly I'm pretty sure my microbiology professor did too XD

@Archmage MC
You can do it.
Just gotta put yourself out there.

:3 I believe in you man

[MarshiestMallow]

@Archmage MC
Wow. Your story could be my story. Really. I have like six friends. One from high school. One from my frist degree-actually three from that one. And one in this one.

I'm only now learning how to drive because of my messed up eyes (Hence why Iwear contacts. Ihave 20/20 vision with them)

and I've only have had like five real dates, despite the fact I desperately want more with this guy but am too scared of, well, scarying him off. So we just talk.

huggles

I believe everything happens for a reason.

I've been struggling with depression on and off for...12 years. This year has been particularly bad. So I do understand. Believe me.

I had to...well force myself to volunteer last year. Because...Iknew i needed to do something. The convention...it was great and I loved it. start with doing things like that. And then...going bigger.

[MarshiestMallow]

@Caits
Lol
I get a weird enjoyment from talking to non bio majors and watching their faces
.....honestly I'm pretty sure my microbiology professor did too XD

@Archmage MC
You can do it.
Just gotta put yourself out there.

:3 I believe in you man

@BlackPanther

Its super fun doing it.

At one of the conventions I presented at, the dinner table later? God, i'm sure none health care staff would have been freaked and terrified.

The things we talk about...

[BlackPanther]

@Caits
:D fun times
Some people on Facebook get miffed at me though when u go in and year some things they post up
But it's what I do

Oh
Jasper is in fox form he growled at Penelope

[MarshiestMallow]

@BlackPantherwhoops let me edit

[MarshiestMallow]

Edited!

[Archmage MC]

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@Archmage MC
Wow. Your story could be my story. Really. I have like six friends. One from high school. One from my frist degree-actually three from that one. And one in this one.

I'm only now learning how to drive because of my messed up eyes (Hence why Iwear contacts. Ihave 20/20 vision with them)

and I've only have had like five real dates, despite the fact I desperately want more with this guy but am too scared of, well, scarying him off. So we just talk.

huggles

I believe everything happens for a reason.

I've been struggling with depression on and off for...12 years. This year has been particularly bad. So I do understand. Believe me.

I had to...well force myself to volunteer last year. Because...Iknew i needed to do something. The convention...it was great and I loved it. start with doing things like that. And then...going bigger.

@Caits

Ah. Growing up I think I ever had... uh... How do I classify a friend? I'll classify it as they invite me over. Everyone else is an acquaintance. A good one, but still an acquaintance since I was still an afterthought. So by going by that criteria, I'd say I only ever had one friend. And that was in elementary school before I moved. Then I was in Conneticut for a good... uh... 12 years? With a couple good acquaintances here and there, a few bullies who had broken arms, but not really a friend who invited me to things. And the good acquaintances were I'd say... 4 total? 1 for a year, the last 3 for the last 4 years. Rest was just me being buddies with teachers since they tended to like me since I was usually the smartest kid in the class by quite a wide margin.

I can't drive. With correction I'm... 20/480. Without it I'm like 20/1000+. And short of cybernetics, thats not getting better anytime soon. Not getting worse either, so thats a silver lining. Get that car license. Being able to go anywhere you want sounds so liberating!

No dates for me in general. Best I've gotten is a friendly hug. Hugs are nice though.

I find my depression has made me a nihilist. I don't get sad anymore, though I don't show much emotion anymore unless its more of an extreme one. Though I'd really like to be enthusiastic and tend to be when something interesting happens. Though being nihilistic has given me an incredible pain threshold.

If I could travel, I'd volunteer more. But being alone for too long has given me a very unhealthy dose of paranoia, so I don't take busses and taxis are too expensive. xD Its weird though, I'll freely talk to strangers, but I hate going on busses alone.

Getting into life story stuff now. If you all want me to not ramble, just say. I can ramble for days. xD

Also my mom is a nurse. I know a good deal of what you two would talk about just through osmosis. xD

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Oh yeah. Light also commented about Penelope. Not much, just asking if she did kidnap them and asking to be let go with a vague threat. xD

[BlackPanther]

@Caits
Lol
Love it XD

Curiosity...would Jasper be able to use his telepathy right now?
He just uses it to communicate in this form right now
So I think it'd be funny to freak her out

[MarshiestMallow]

@Archmage MCedited that in too

and I don't mind rambling.

Without my contacts I'm half blind. Completely in one eye.

Ramble away, honestly.

My childhood sucks. I didn't have a friend until Iwas 12. Actually, that's not true. I had a friend but my brother stole him.

Well I kinda knew that if I didn't start doing things, I'd turn into crazy cat lady.

@Caits
Lol
Love it XD

Curiosity...would Jasper be able to use his telepathy right now?
He just uses it to communicate in this form right now
So I think it'd be funny to freak her out

@BlackPanther

sure thing, lets freak her out ^.^

[MarshiestMallow]

Speaking of Penelope, how do people think I'm doing playing her?