"I know, I know. I just... I think I really made a mistake and... well, it might have been avoided- but," Janius tried not to let himself babble further and closed his eyes and held up his hand. He lowered his hand and took a breath, forming words to explain.
"So, Kaleeth and I went on our hunt, we ran into some trouble and ended up getting trapped in a cave with a wamasu between ourselves and the exit. We were able to kill the beast together, but I had to transform and pin its neck to the floor to allow Kaleeth to get it in the mouth where her spear could fell it. Everything else was covered in scales that we couldn't penetrate. I explained to her about werewolves and she promised not to tell anyone, but that's not the problem. We..." Janius stopped for a moment and swallowed, no tangents, "...we realised that we were attracted to one another, but from beforehand I had started to feel something more. It was... she was... friendly, talkative, fun..." Janius shook his head, "I was denying it beforehand, but I had fallen for her. I fell badly. I... I didn't want to make a mess of everything before Sabine's ritual so I spurned her in that moment. I claimed that we couldn't do the deed on that spot because-" Janius motioned to Meesei, "-I remembered before when you and Ariel mentioned the thing about catching lycanthropy. When we walked back, it was silent, awkward. I actually consciously knew that I had fallen in love as soon as I realised that I had hurt her. So..." Janius nodded, "...that's why I wasn't in a great mood yesterday evening." Janius looked away at this point.
"That night though, Kaleeth came and saw me by the river where I had fallen asleep. We talked. Having spent the night wallowing in regret beforehand, when she told me she felt the same way about me as I did of her, well... she wasn't discouraged. She had found some potions for herself that would resist and cure her of lycanthropy before it could set in. That's when things went wrong." Janius ran a hand through his hair and scrunched his eyes shut for a few moments as he spoke, "The Master-Hunter obviously had suspicions, he came looking and he found us in the act. I found out then that Kaleeth-Rei is her daughter. In his fury, he attacked me. He might have killed me or brought out my beast spirit again if Kaleeth hadn't intervened. He hit her as she tried to pull him off me, probably an accident in hindsight. He stopped then and I got up. I was angry at that point, so I shouted at him, 'why did he hit his daughter? What was wrong that he hated me?' He said I didn't deserve an answer and tried to get Kaleeth to come with him. She refused and he stormed off." Now that the main confession was over with, Janius became visibly less tense while he explained other details.
"Kaleeth and I sat for a little while and we comforted each other. She told me that her father had a... storied impression of Imperials. Some traumatic experiences on his childhood. A lot of loved ones killed by slavers. You see, his village was tricked by a small group, similar to ours, to lead the hunters out of the village, then the group came back with a force and killed and fettered everyone. Zharanthixil himself was beaten and abused, he had to watch his mother die, and had some toes cut off. The leaders of the slaver group were an Imperial couple. These slavers were killed by hunters from this village, and he's been with them ever since. Apart from all the hate directed towards us, he's apparently a wise and loving man according to Kaleeth. Somehow I feel as if he would benefit from doing Sabine's ritual with such mental scars, but anyway, that explained his impression."
Janius looked up at Meesei with resignation, "Anyway, that's about it. In summary, I acted selfishly, wrong place, wrong time, wrong girl. I know I did the wrong thing, and I'm willing to make up for it. Like I said, I'm going to try to talk with him once he's calmed down. Whatever else you think I should do, fine, I expect some kind of punishment. I just don't want the pack to think I deliberately wanted to deny Sabine her ritual. Also, I didn't want to put any extra pressure on Sabine in particular. This... thing. It just happened. I'm sorry."
Fendros had to laugh at that, "Well, it wouldn't be the worst thing. Not sure how much 'city-boy' really suits me nowadays, but it's less annoying than before." Fendros looked to Kaleeth again, "So, that large corpse that the hunters hauled in yesterday, it was you and Janius that took it down? Haha, now we're going to have to go out and find a wamasu for ourselves. We can't have him have all the glory now." He looked down at Ahnasha's stomach and corrected himself, "Perhaps in a month or two though." With a smile, he looked at Kaleeth again and pointed to her with his head forward, "But, we'll keep in mind that there's a weak point in the mouth. That's good to know." He lowered his hand, "I bet your parents are proud of you."