Rising to her feet she moved towards his cell reaching inside for the empty glass. On top of that she grabbed the one that had been knocked over as she had noticed it earlier. Probably kicked more like. Reaching inside the jumper she was wearing shifted revealing the discolouration around her wrist, the bruises were still there from two nights ago, but she had barely noticed them now. Not with the bruise on her cheek. Taking the glasses, she moved towards the stairs that led to the door to exit he basement, she had heard his next questions but deemed getting water was more important than answering them. Plus, she didn’t know what to say, she didn’t understand herself why she had done what she did.
Why did I bring him here in the first place? What was I even thinking?
Frowning as she thought on it more, confusion swept her face as she rinsed out the glasses to refill them. He is thirsty, I’ll do the both of them. It’s the least I can do. Watching as the water filled the glass, she felt a bit dazed, zoning out as she held the glass under the tap it took a few minutes to realise they had overfilled, and water splashed down her arm. Shaking her head out of the daze she turned off the tap waving off the water before she headed back down into the basement, two glasses in hand. Readjusting to the dimmer light downstairs she placed the glasses inside his cell so he could reach them easily before returning to the chair she had sat at before.
“In answer to your questions, I-I don’t know.” Glancing over at Cas she could see the cut on his cheek now there was light in the room, and she winced knowing her father had been the cause of that. She was certain he probably had more injuries, but she didn’t want to think on it or ask because it would only worsen the guilt she felt. “I was gullible enough to think you wouldn’t get hurt. My mind was all over the place, I allowed myself to be convinced that you and your father would kill me. That it was the only option left.” Looking down at her hands in her lap she shifted on the chair, trying to get comfortable. “When you sentenced those two people to death, I didn’t know what to think, I was overwhelmed by the memories returning all at once and then I was fearful because I honestly thought I was going to die... I’m not excusing my actions or making excuses.”
Pausing slightly as she thought back on the events in the forest. “I hesitated in the forest, I wanted to tell you the truth and run, but… Ethan had other ideas and by that point it was too late.” Pulling up her legs on the chair she wrapped her arms around them hugging them close to her chest. “I know I’ve made a grave error; I know I’ve completely messed everything up and I will have to account for it.”
Why did I bring him here in the first place? What was I even thinking?
Frowning as she thought on it more, confusion swept her face as she rinsed out the glasses to refill them. He is thirsty, I’ll do the both of them. It’s the least I can do. Watching as the water filled the glass, she felt a bit dazed, zoning out as she held the glass under the tap it took a few minutes to realise they had overfilled, and water splashed down her arm. Shaking her head out of the daze she turned off the tap waving off the water before she headed back down into the basement, two glasses in hand. Readjusting to the dimmer light downstairs she placed the glasses inside his cell so he could reach them easily before returning to the chair she had sat at before.
“In answer to your questions, I-I don’t know.” Glancing over at Cas she could see the cut on his cheek now there was light in the room, and she winced knowing her father had been the cause of that. She was certain he probably had more injuries, but she didn’t want to think on it or ask because it would only worsen the guilt she felt. “I was gullible enough to think you wouldn’t get hurt. My mind was all over the place, I allowed myself to be convinced that you and your father would kill me. That it was the only option left.” Looking down at her hands in her lap she shifted on the chair, trying to get comfortable. “When you sentenced those two people to death, I didn’t know what to think, I was overwhelmed by the memories returning all at once and then I was fearful because I honestly thought I was going to die... I’m not excusing my actions or making excuses.”
Pausing slightly as she thought back on the events in the forest. “I hesitated in the forest, I wanted to tell you the truth and run, but… Ethan had other ideas and by that point it was too late.” Pulling up her legs on the chair she wrapped her arms around them hugging them close to her chest. “I know I’ve made a grave error; I know I’ve completely messed everything up and I will have to account for it.”