"They say money is the root of all evil, I say money is the root of all people."
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The Diary of Rosemary Riina
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Dear Diary,
04/02/2024
My name is Rosemary Riina, but you can call me Rose, everyone else does. I was born on April 2nd 2013 and today I am officially eleven years old! Momma says she’s real proud of me, and Daddy said he got me this diary—that’s you!!!-- Because he wants me to record life because he said I’d be a star one day! I didn’t even want to play with my other presents after that, Daddy and Momma know that I want to be a singer more than anything in the world, and you being here shows they believe in me!!
You will be the one I confide in. I promise to tell you everything that happens, everything I feel, everything I desire, every single thing I think. And every song that comes to my heart. There are some things I can't tell anyone. I promise to tell these things to you.
Today was absolutely perfect. Momma let me sleep in, and when I woke up to see the time I almost died! I rushed to get ready for school but Momma stopped me at the door, she said “We’ll just tell them you sick today.” Then we ate pancakes and watched cartoons all morning, and she let me open a few of my presents before Daddy got home from work!
He got home late, but when he did get home we all got into a taxi without a word. Apparently Daddy had taxi driver friends, because he wouldn’t tell us where we were going—when we did get there I almost died
again. He had gathered all my friends from school at Central Park! We had cake and ice cream, everyone got me gifts, and it was so fun!
It has been such a good day!
I’m so happy I can tell you about it all now. When you and I get there, we’ll make Momma and Daddy even prouder than they already are. Well, I’m beat, I will see you tomorrow, Diary.
Love, Rose
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Dear Diary,
12/25/2025
You and I have become great companions over the last few months. Everyone notices how old fashioned it is to carry around a diary that you have to write in, but no one knows how special you are to me. Every time I write in you I feel like I’m that much closer to getting to where I want.
You’re special to me.
I know that’s dumb and childish, but I don’t care. Daddy got you for me because he believes in me, I do too. So why don’t they? It doesn’t matter, because when I’m writing in you I feel even closer to being a famous singer than when I’m practicing singing or performing at a show…
Speaking of shows—Merry Christmas! Daddy got me the role of the lead angel in this show they’re doing about the birth of Jesus. You know I’ve been practicing hard for this, but I can still barely believe it will be me singing! I’ve been resting my voice all day, going over my lines in my head, I barely noticed the presents under the tree this morning! Let’s hope I can make it a Merry Christmas for everyone who came to see me on stage!
Wish me luck!
Love, Rose
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Dear Diary,
06/15/2026
It was such a boring day. Dad had to go to the hospital again, so me and Mom just lazed around the house and did the chores. She made me do more than her, and she thinks I didn’t notice, but I’m okay with it. After all, she has been crying a lot lately, so I figured it’s the least I can do to help her.
I think they think I’m too young to understand what’s going on, but I know something’s wrong. Daddy is rarely around anymore and Mom is sad all the time. I wonder if they are getting a divorce?
This might seem mean, but honestly I already know I’d have to live with Daddy. He’s my agent, and he’s the one helping me get better at singing. I know! I’ll buy Mom a mansion when I’m rich!
Oh, Dad just got home. I had better go see what’s up. I’ll be back in a sec
(later)
06/15/2026
It’s not a divorce.
Daddy is… dying? Mom was crying so hard that we had to leave the apartment for him to explain, but apparently he has cancer. He says he’ll be around as long as possible, but the doctors say he’s only got a few months left.
I don’t know what this is I’m feeling, but it’s more than sadness.
What did I do to you, God?
Thank you for being here, Diary.
Rose
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Dear Diary,
8/04/2029
He’s been gone for exactly 1 year today.
I haven’t cried today, which I think is good, I’ve been dedicating more time to singing. It’s all I can do, I never see mom anymore, so I won’t pretend like I don’t want to become rich, because I do, that’s the honest truth.
But…
I also remember why he got me you, Diary. I don’t want for him to have been wrong, so I have to keep singing, I have to keep hoping that I can be that 1 in 1 million. I will achieve the dream for both of us.
Nothing else in life really matters anymore.
Rose
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Dear Diary,
01/01/2030
Today is the start of a new year, and with it, I am running away.
This comes after some time thinking things over, and after mom’s new boyfriend, I decided it’s best for me to just leave altogether. There’s a club in Brooklyn that needs singers, I know a girl in Harlem, she dropped out and lives on her own there, and she told me she’d love to have me as a roommate. Honestly, this couldn’t have worked out better.
This isn’t me over reacting, either. I’ve been planning this for months; this is just the first I’m telling you about it. Sorry. I know I said no secrets, but I didn’t want her or one of her creepy boyfriends finding out. No like she’d even care, I don’t think she was sober for a single day in December.
I’m still going to make it, it’s just going to be a little harder. I’ll talk to you in a bit, Diary.
Rose
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Dear Diary,
01/23/2030
It’s been a hard month, but I finally landed the job! More than that, I think they really like me.
When I sung for them, they looked like they couldn’t believe what they were hearing. At first I thought that was a bad thing, but then they started fumbling over each other to get a chance to welcome me on board!
I’m just glad I can finally start living my life.
I’m beat. I’ll tell you more about it tomorrow. Goodnight Diary.
Rose
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Dear Diary,
04/05/2032
18 was a hump that I am so glad I’m over. I can’t say that enough! Yeah, I’m still technically a “teen,” but only technically. 18 is like that point between two great things, adulthood and childhood, well, great for most people. For me, childhood was something I couldn’t wait to get over—In fact, I didn’t wait! Take
that age!
19 is the year of the adult, and today marked my first major adult purchase! Amanda Morello, you know, my backup singer and bestie from the Bronx, well she and I are going half and half on that apartment on 5th street! I’m going to miss Harlem, but I think this is for the best.
Too many bad memories in Harlem. (Plus this new place is LOADS better looking)
Now, I know what you’re thinking “What ‘adult’ still writes in her diary?” To this query, I refer you to my current social status. Google me, go ahead, Diary, I’ll wait.
Hmm? What’s that? The Google search only turned up a bunch of Italian cocktails and a single list of clubs I’m singing for like 5 pages in??? I’m singing—I’m so so so happy for that, I’m telling you, sometimes I feel like a kid when they announce my name with the band and I get to sing to a smoky room full of distinguished looking men, but that’s all I’m doing right now. One bar, no recognition on the streets, BARELY making enough to live… I’m not done documenting my rise yet.
You’ll see. I’ll be making enough money to make Daddy turn over in his grave.
In other news, I saw a guy today.
Now, you, my most confidential of confidantes know I’ve never had boyfriend trouble; I’m usually the one going after guys. But he was… different. Not like, mysterious, but like… heroic? He had this look about him that was easy-going and serious at the same time, and he was the first Italian I’ve ever seen with hair that actually flowed in the wind. I tensed up when he walked past me.
Me. Queen of Drama-Gift of Gab-Rosemary, tensing up?
I know. But it happened. I asked Amanda for his name, and apparently he’s some bouncer’s cousin from Chicago or something, goes by Luciano.
When I saw him, I couldn’t help but think of home.
I’ve never felt like this over a guy before, Diary. I do hope I see him again.
R. R.
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Dear Diary,
02/14/2033
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!He’s such an old-fashioned cornball, but God do I love him.
We’ve only been officially dating for a few months, but today we go on a wonderful date for Valentine’s, Coney Island, and he’s just staring at me right? We’re sitting on a bench, eating churros or funnel cake—I don’t even remember, all I remember is those beautiful brown eyes, and his hair, God, his hair. Diary, I wish you had eyes so you could see Luciano’s hair. It’s like a model's.
Anyway, he’s staring at me, so of course, like the competitive idiot that I am, I think we’re playing or something and I stare right back. And we just sit there like that for… probably a few minutes, but it felt like hours. My heart always beats so fast when I’m looking at him, and he just seems so cool. Anyway, my eyes are red, I’m probably on the verge of tears, and his eyes are still so clear and cool and he just whispers; “Behind you, Rose.”
I nearly dropped my funnel cake when I turned. It was one of his mafia buddies, Viddy? Something like that. I’m sure they both got a kick out me yelping. Anyway, Viddy pulls out this red velvet pillow from behind his back and it’s got a ring on it. (And this rock on this thing, it’s huge, like I’m talking they stole the Hope Diamond or something)
Anyway, THAT surprises me, I turn back to Luciano to see he’s already on his knees, I only start freaking out more, Viddy walks over give the ring to him, and then my Lucian just looks at me with those big brown eyes of his, and the wind blows perfectly through his hair and a crowd is gathering…
You know what happens next, he’s still so cool, but he asks if I “want to be his girl?”
My heart felt like it would leap out of my throat!
But of course, I said yes.
OH MY GOD, DIARY, I SAID YES!
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!Love, soon to be Mrs. Castalia
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Dear Diary,
05/07/2034
Small entry today, Diary.
This is our first anniversary after all!
I guess I just dusted you off this morning to recap this last year, first; I got married!!!
Lucian is working a lot, but it’s okay, because I am too, our time together is that much more sweet. He said the Family needed a private singer, and they’d be lucky to have one as good as me. I’ve been BUSY, really busy, but, for the first time in a long time, also really happy.
Amanda also got married! To Lucian’s friend no less! That made moving out easier, though.
I can’t believe it’s been a year.
Hey, Dad? How about you? Do you think I’ve been doing alright?
I miss you.
I think I just woke Lucian—we’ll talk later.
Love, Rose Castalia
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01/02/2035
I
I don’t even know why I’m writing this.
I couldn’t write you when I found out yesterday, I was just crying—I still am
I just
Oh God.
It’s just this feeling of absolute emptiness, tearing at me, as if it wants me to just end everything now and make it easier than just waiting, and knowing the end is going to come, with nothing I can do about it.
I found out yesterday that the world was going to come in a month. We won’t get to have our second anniversary—I won’t even get to turn 22!
Luciano is in and out, I think he’s trying to figure out what’s going on—I don’t see how he can be so calm about all this!
Ugh
I don’t know what I should do. Besides cry, I mean.
Should I go pray, Daddy? Please talk to me, I miss you so much…
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01/05/2035
Luciano is working on something.
The National Crime Syndicate is working together; of course, all the fighting is behind them when faced with absolute destruction. But Luciano say that even if they do organize a bunker for the New York Outfit we won’t get in.
I told him that we should pray for anything that might help us get through this, that it might be a blessing from the Lord.
Luciano got this cold look in his eyes, like he saw something that I didn’t. He gave me a gun and told me that I should pray enough for the both of us, that he was going to put something together. Then he left.
That was 2 days ago, now.
Don’t worry diary! I’m not alone, Amanda’s here, she didn’t feel safe in her house, and she said that she wanted to spend her last moments with family, and I was the closest thing to a living relative she had.
I do wonder what my mother is doing. Is she even still alive? Part of me regrets leaving her—another part of me is just glad I’ve got someone here with me, blood or not.
What does Luciano think he’s doing? He’s smart, but…
I don’t know.
I guess I’m just so sad about so many things, but I can’t cry anymore, I’m all dried out. So I can only think of how sad this all is and just feel it.
Useless, that’s it.
I feel completely useless.
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01/22/2035
I got a call from Luciano today!
Which is good, I was beginning to think he had died. Amanda was right to fear the panicking. The people in the streets have become violent, I’ve had to use this gun in the name of protection several times and I haven’t even had time to reflect or pray on it.
We can no longer leave the apartment. We just cower and wait, in fear.
I’m so scared of death.
I’m so scared of death.
Luciano knew that, too. He couldn’t call for long, I’m surprised that he even still has service, but when he did call, he told me some things that didn’t make much sense, that he was organizing a group, that he’d come for Amanda and I soon, and that I shouldn’t “lose hope.”
What else is there to do?
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01/31/2035
Amanda and I had fallen asleep together, crying, but not alone. Then I heard the door, that was enough to twitch me awake, enough to draw the pistol on memory alone.
In the dark of the night, I had pulled a gun on my own husband!
I practically screamed in excitement, but Luciano told me to quiet down. He was bloody, but not injured, his eyes weren’t the eyes I was used to seeing, they were tired, serious, the carefree Lucian was--is gone, it seemed.
He didn’t—still hasn’t explained what his plan is. He’s determined to get us somewhere; I know that he has people waiting for him, rendezvousing at a certain place at a certain time.
I don’t know how I feel about this. Amanda is asleep in the backseat of the car, I’m in the front seat with Luciano- he hasn’t even glanced this way. He seems very worried.
I don’t know.
Wait. No. I do know something. For the first time in a long time, I feel hopeful. Confused, yes, but I prefer this over whimpering and crying in a Manhattan high-rise.
His hair is still flowing beautifully.
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02/01/2035
I might cry tears of joy.
There has been shooting.
A lot of shooting. But he isn’t dead! He said he needed most of the month to put this together, but he organized a coup.
It’s a bunker.
It’s a musty, poorly made hole in the ground. Millions of dollars of illegal money went into its making, the Dons it was originally made for would die, and there would be millions
billions more who died because they weren't as lucky as she had been. But that didn’t matter.
This is survival.
This is hope.
Diary. I feel like singing.
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