[OOC] We Are the Crystal Gems

[Loony]

Because this isn't something new. I've been fighting it for a while.

I've been fighting it for a while and I never wanted to hurt anyone.

But that's the case anyways while I'm alive so why not.

I've been holding off because I didn't think I could get away with it. Just like before. So many people in the house.

So I tried pushing boundries a bit and just...It was okay. No one noticed. And the one person who did didn't care.

All it is now is just taking the freakin' bottle and not being such a wuss.

[pyroman]

@LoonyLoony.

Sometimes life is going to be endless and dull, with nothing working in your favor and nobody wanting to look in your general direction. Sometimes you just want to sleep forever, and sometimes you just want to die, but please, don't kill yourself. Your life, no matter what you may think about it, is precious. You are a wonderful human being in which we've all had the pleasure of meeting and getting to know over the past few months, and I want you to know a few things.

It will get better.

There are people here for you.

We do care.

We are here for you to talk to and confide in.

You do matter.

I don't know what you're going through personally. I'm not you, and I can't speak like I am, but I do want you to know, that whatever you're going through, we are all here to help you.

[21308]

@Loony I think we'd all prefer it if you would stay around as long as possible. There isn't a whole lot left that I can say, just please know that nobody wants you to feel guilty, but we all care for you a great deal and you are incredibly precious.

[Loony]

@pyroman Life is fine. It's me Pyro.

I'm not going to get better.

Each year I get progressively worse and now I should probably be in jail or some shit and the only reason I'm not is because those kid's parents beat their children all the time and I'm supposed to be better but I'm just going to end up like them. If not worse.

I have no control over myself and life doesn't mean nothing until you give it a meaning.

And I'm not giving mine one.

My death will be the meaning I need.

[Loony]

@21308 I'll stay here.

And I'll shut up now and stop bogging you all with my shit.

Pretend I've just gone away on vacation or something once the 29th rolls around and none of this happened.



Here. Have a curl crested aracari. It's innocent and pure and if it were here right now it'd want to snuggle you, judging from hands on experience.

[Raijinslayer]

@LoonyThere is no meaning in death, Loony, because Death is the end. It is finality incarnate, and it should not be what you turn to in your darkest hours to give your life purpose. I don't know nearly as much about you as I'd like to, but what I do know that death isn't the answer to your problem, even if you think the problem is yourself. Because death isn't a solution to any problem, no matter how dire.

[Pathfinder]

Denial can't help us Loony, I can't. You will always be precious to me, to all of us. I can't...I just can't.

[Loony]

@Raijinslayer
It's okay Raijin.

Just please forget about it.

[Loony]

@Pathfinder
Please don't be upset.

I love you guys. And I know you guys love me too.

I just wish I could love myself the same way.

[21308]

@Loony I can't stop you, but for what it's worth you aren't bothering me, and despite the circumstances I'm actually really glad I got to talk with you. You're one of my best friends ever and I love you.

[Raijinslayer]

@LoonyNational Suicide Prevention Hotline: [phone]

I hope this helps, I really, really. Call them, talk to them, just please try. If not for yourself, then for us . . . for me. Because I don't want to feel like nothing I said, nothing I did, could do anything to help or stop you. Just pleas try.

[Pathfinder]

@Loony
I don't want you to leave.

[Loony]

@21308 I love you too Spinna.

I love you all.

I love you all so, so much.

And I wish it didn't hurt you all that I'm going to do this.

Thank you all.

[Loony]

@Raijinslayer I would but then my parents are just going to freak and yell at me. I can't call. I'm sorry.

[pyroman]

@LoonyIf... If your really set on this... please let your last thoughts be of those who are there for you. Us, and anyone else you've met. If this is really what you want, then I want you to go with good thoughts.

[Loony]

@Pathfinder I'm going to stay for a while. 30 days. That's a month Path.

Who knows, maybe I'll stop being so stupid and my mind will change, or maybe I'll be too cowardly to do it again.

Maybe.

I love you all.

[Loony]

@Raijinslayer Thank you for trying anyways.

[Pathfinder]

@Loony
I really hope so, for your sake more than anything else. And when you have a chance, please call the suicide hotline. They can help, it's their job to help. We just wan't you to be safe.

[Loony]

@Pathfinder Maybe if I'm alone in the house.

In a house of eleven that's hard, but I'll try.

I don't want you guys to have tried in vain.

I doubt it'll help, but I'm going to try. For your sakes.

[Raijinslayer]

@Loony*hugs* I . . . I'm glad you appreciate it and I really do hope that this'll change in time. But still . . . sneak and call them or something, because I'm sure they can help you more than I ever could. But if you don't it's your choice and there is nothing I can do to assist you. I'm here for you Loony, and I will continue to be here for as long as you need me.