The Minister for Magic's Office
Ministry of Magic
London, England
August 31st, 2004
Ministry of Magic
London, England
August 31st, 2004
Sarai Shacklebolt had only been in her father’s office twice before in her life. The first time, she had been newly fifteen and he had just been named Minister for Magic. More than anything, she remembered the flash of photographers and an endless barrage of questions. Someone had taken portraits then, their family captured forever in magic film. In the years since, her father had hung his favorite of the photographs. He had framed it in gold above the fireplace, a perfect moment frozen in time, the glorious high after a long campaign. They’d been laughing, because the world had been less awful then, even in the wreckage of war. Her eldest brother, Princeton, had tousled her hair as she grinned between him and Amir. Her mother had beamed at the world, relieved and hopeful, bright blue eyes shining. And her father had been every bit the stoic hero the stories painted him. Even in photograph, he emanated complete calm.
The last time she had sat in this office, all plush emerald velvet and gold detailing, she’d been seventeen and they had just buried her mother. There had been no press that time. She had sat beneath that portrait, hysterical with grief. She’d been the only one in tears; her brothers had done their best to imitate their father’s reserve. Sarai had never learned how to swallow sorrow. While her brothers had pretended their world hadn’t shattered, Sarai had drowned. Princeton had thrown himself further into Quidditch, every spare moment at Kenmare’s stadium, honing his skills as if that would chase away the grief. Amir had started sleeping in his cubicle in the Auror’s office, productive in his misery, trying to save the world. Her father had lost too many friends and loved ones to war to let his wife’s death stop him; he had honored her death by working to redeem their world.
Her mother had left Sarai journals in her will. At first the gift had seemed cruel. Her writing had made the woman seem alive, and she couldn’t stop seeing the woman in shadows throughout England. And the more she read about her mother’s travels, about her journey through lands magical and mundane alike, the more Sarai had needed to run.
While the men in her life turned themselves into islands, Sarai left for Kenya.
Her grandmother had, generously, offered to pay the way. And two days after she turned eighteen, not even a month out of Hogwarts, Sarai had packed her bags and left home with a short letter and no goodbyes. And she traveled.
In the end, she had spent two years away from England. Kenya had become Uganda and South Africa, then a jaunt to Madagascar. After a near miss with a Nundu, she had flooed to Greece, wandering further east, always following her mother’s writings. Turkey had become India had become Thailand. She’d taken a plane to Argentina and marveled at the genius of muggles, pocketing her wand somewhere after Brazil. She had traveled until she had run out of gold and wanderlust alike. And just as suddenly as Sarai Shacklebolt had left, she had found herself back in England.
Things hadn’t changed much in her absence. Princeton had been promoted to captain of the Kenmare Kestrels. Amir had married a witch she had never met. Her father had begun financial restitution to the muggleborns affected by the war. They were still islands. Sarai tried to cross the waters of their stoicism, but she never managed the journey.
It was surreal, standing in her father’s office again. It was as if the past two years had never happened. The deserts and jungles and cities and mountains she had so loved were a lifetime away, no more solid than dreams. Back in London, it was as if the fog of the city had settled over her hazel eyes and separated her from her memory. Someone else went on that grand adventure, had escaped from their life. Sarai Shacklebolt had finally returned to Earth, as though nothing had ever happened. She had found a job in the Ministry, working with the muggle wonders she had learned to adore. After crashing on Princeton’s couch for a fortnight, she found a cheap apartment in Diagon Alley.
After two years, she had finally rejoined wizarding society. Everything had become normal again.
Except, nothing normal ever happened in this office.
The portrait stared back at her, their smiles unfaltering, unaffected by the passage of time. The drumming of the rain filled her senses, drowning out everything but the last photograph of her family, happy and whole. Golden flickers of light danced across their likenesses, a fire crackling beneath it. Sarai studied her mother, all kind blue eyes and gentle smile. This was how she wanted to remember the woman; vivacious and laughing, not a withered corpse in a bed at St. Mungos. She had spent her life healing and loving the world in equal measure. After a long moment, Sarai turned away from the portrait, wandering to a false window.
The magic was superb. Sarai could almost believe that she was truly watching the streets of London, not several stories beneath the earth. Leaning against the windowsill, she folded her arms beneath her chest. The autumn chill curled down her spine, even in the relative comfort of her father’s office, cutting through her thick burgundy sweater. Dark legs crossed as she studied the muggles wandering beneath her vision, well above her. Not for the first time, she found herself envying them.
Sarai wasn’t sure how long she spent watching the world when her father arrived. Minister Shacklebolt was all crisp black robes and a steady smile. His assistant followed on his heels, the gangly man running off a checklist of something undoubtedly important. He silenced himself suddenly, better interpreting her father’s expressions than Sarai had ever managed. Excusing himself primly, Sarai found herself alone with her father.
Two years had not been kind to him. The lines in his face were deeper now. Had he kept a hair on his head, Sarai suspected they would have greyed. But despite the time, despite the distance, Sarai fit herself into his arms with a deep breath. For a long moment, everything was perfect. Her father’s chin settled on the top of her head, and there was nothing wrong in the world. Sarai breathed in the familiar smell of sandalwood and saffron. For the first time in the month she had been back, she felt like she was home.
“Sarai,” her father boomed in that beautiful baritone. “You look well. How are you enjoying London?”
"It's wet,” Sarai decided on after a long moment, scrunching her nose in distaste. The expression melted to a warm smile, dark fingers tucking brunette locks behind an ear. "But I'm glad to be back."
It was only a small lie. She had missed her father and brothers something awful, but England had thousands of memories of her mother. Sometimes she swore she saw her in Diagon Alley; sat outside what had once been Florean Fortescue’s, perusing a novel inside Obscurus Books, haggling with the apothecary witch. Truthfully, Sarai longed for wild forrests and sprawling concrete, where no one knew her name and her mother didn’t haunt her.
Her father smiled at her. He knew. He always knew. He was truly the most astute, brilliant, and cunning man in the world. For a moment, Sarai felt guilty that she had abandoned him. She should have stayed, should have helped him survive her mother’s death. But he had pushed her away—they all had—and she would have drowned if she had lingered. If he resented her for her cowardice, he said nothing. Instead, he wrapped an arm around her shoulder. Sarai curved into his warmth. For several moments, they relished the quiet, watching the photograph above the fireplace.
“Why’d you ask me to come in?” Sarai finally asked, resting her head against his shoulder. Her father tightened his grip around her, his robes nearly drowning the muggle dress that had drawn disapproving eyes in the atrium but forty minutes ago. Sarai scuffed a black flat against the floor, dropping her gaze from her mother’s radiant smile to study the opulent rug beneath them.
"There have been rumors, Sarai. Dark things, things we haven’t heard since the war." Her father began, his baritone rumbling through her bones. Its comfort was at odds with his words as he began to elaborate.
It was a simple statement, but Sarai understood its weight. She remembered what the war had been like. Only fourteen during the Battle of Hogwarts, she had followed her mother and brothers into hiding. It had been a year of horrible silence, waiting to hear if her father had died. He’d refused to abandon the Order, even as England burned. Sarai’s lips curved into a frown as her father explained, as if the war was still a threat. It had been six years. Blood supremacists were supposed to be in cells in Azkaban, not out to punish ‘blood traitors’ and muggleborns alike.
“You’re joking,” Sarai laughed, because it was ridiculous. It sounded so much like a cheesy muggle drama. Assassins threatening the Minister’s children? There was no humor in her father’s eyes. Her smile faltered as she studied him. He had given so much to their world. He had fought two wars to make things right and then fought a world that wanted nothing less than to change. And he was just a man, exhausted by these endless battles. He’d never retire, of course. Not until his work was done. Sarai bit her lip. “Who would be stupid enough to try that? You were only the best Auror the Ministry has ever known.”
Her father chuckled, and his low laughter filled her with a warmth she hadn’t known for years. His heavy hand smoothed out her dark hair, weaving jagged fingers through her curls. He shifted, dropping a kiss to the top of her head. Sarai closed her hazel eyes, trying to ease the twinge in her chest.
“We don’t know yet. We’ll figure it out soon, I promise. Until then—”A crisp knock at the door interrupted them. Sarai stepped aside from her father, folding her arms tight, as if she could keep herself together through sheer force of will. The door opened to reveal the harried assistant, his glasses magnifying his watery blue eyes to truly comical sizes.
“Minister Shacklebolt, I’m sorry to interrupt; your…help is here.”
Sarai arched a brow at the catch in the man’s voice, all reedy disapproval. Her father nodded, and if he noticed his assistant’s tone, he did not comment on it.
“Send him in,” his baritone echoed through the room. Sarai studied her father, loathing the conclusions her mind was reaching. Threats and ‘help’ and the steel in her father’s eyes, the line of worry in his brow… No. No. She was not a child in need of minding. She had spent two years traveling on her own, surely her father did not think her so incompetent as to waste everyone’s time with protection. Sarai grit her teeth, turning her calculating gaze on the opening door, hoping against all hope that she was wrong. Not likely.
I could reach Greece by nightfall if I left now.