It was the mentality that Noah had with Elann. There was a great deal about himself he had changed since their initial meeting, of that was the imposing stature in which he often made himself up to be. Elann had found him at the height of his independence, when his domain was miles wide and he was unchallenged. Over time, he had begun to shrink himself for her, attempting to adjust to being cooped up in her apartment. He wasn’t uncomfortable there, but she didn’t know the extremes of his power over the Bronze Woods. It truly explained why his apartment was barely touched. Before he confessed his love for her, he was barely there. Afterwards, his apartment was little more than a place to store his shiny baubles. All this meant that now he was simply attempting to keep his bondmate and their bond unstressed and satiated, meaning when he felt he did something wrong, there was a depression on him, momentary or lasting.
Elann found herself welcomed by him openly. He stretched out his legs to make room for her there in his chest and overtook where she once sat with his outstretched body. Maybe unknown to her, he appreciated when she spoke slow and calculated, allowing his thoughtful mind to take in what she meant, digesting it at a slow and steady pace. What she said, while making sense in many ways, confused him in others. He waited until she was done talking - and then some - before speaking himself.
“I don’t understand some of that,” he told her. “I take interest in your body; your lips and how you smell, even when we’re not having sex. I desire you and I want to hold you and kiss you all the time.” He paused, thinking. “I’m attracted to you; I like your body, all of it... just some parts more than others: your eyes and your hair. I like your skin, the color, how soft it is.” He paused once more, drawing breath. “I do do what I want with you; holding you and kissing you, so I do not understand when you say, ‘to be attracted to you and to desire to physically do what I want with you’. I do do what I want with you. It doesn't make sense to me,” he said, lightly shaking his head to indicate as much.
Noah was gently spoken in the moment, though the confusion in him was apparent in their bond and how he phrased his words, the inflections in his voice.
“Do I not do what you want me to do to you?” he went, searching for clarification.
Elann found herself welcomed by him openly. He stretched out his legs to make room for her there in his chest and overtook where she once sat with his outstretched body. Maybe unknown to her, he appreciated when she spoke slow and calculated, allowing his thoughtful mind to take in what she meant, digesting it at a slow and steady pace. What she said, while making sense in many ways, confused him in others. He waited until she was done talking - and then some - before speaking himself.
“I don’t understand some of that,” he told her. “I take interest in your body; your lips and how you smell, even when we’re not having sex. I desire you and I want to hold you and kiss you all the time.” He paused, thinking. “I’m attracted to you; I like your body, all of it... just some parts more than others: your eyes and your hair. I like your skin, the color, how soft it is.” He paused once more, drawing breath. “I do do what I want with you; holding you and kissing you, so I do not understand when you say, ‘to be attracted to you and to desire to physically do what I want with you’. I do do what I want with you. It doesn't make sense to me,” he said, lightly shaking his head to indicate as much.
Noah was gently spoken in the moment, though the confusion in him was apparent in their bond and how he phrased his words, the inflections in his voice.
“Do I not do what you want me to do to you?” he went, searching for clarification.