Erranruin said
"I would call your decision admirable Kurahimi-dono, if I understood it. But I have never felt this stain or guilt that some experience. My enemies always know there is a possibility of them dying, they all have chosen to forfeit their lives for some cause, as have I. If I am prepared to die and so is my opponent, then there can be no shame in fulfilling our purposes."
A warrior as experienced and battle hardened as Kaede of course wouldn't understand why one who gained such an infamous and fearful reputation as the most powerful samurai in all of Japan would simply lay down their blade and vow an oath to never shed blood again. Perchance if Asuka was certainly among the fields of war for the remainder of her life, she too would've been muted to the carnage over the years, not that she hasn't been already, seeing as much death and discord as any man or woman of the blade, but....to turn your blade, the very same you swore with to defend, upon the lives of the innocent....not even the most ruthless of warriors could escape that dreadful memory, never unsee the grotesque and maddening sight of children, infants some, quartered by a madman's sword, never able to mute the screams of agony and the cries begging for salvation that echo viciously in their ears and plague their minds with festering nightmares to drive them to days without rest. To some, perhaps Asuka seemed soft, a pushover to let such horrors haunt her day and night, still the vow was made. Asuka would never kill again.
"What you speak of is true, Kaede-dono, that it is." The woman nodded courteously to her fellow ronin. "Maybe it's just me. Maybe I am growing soft for my young age, wishing to adopt a life of peace. However, no matter what vow I have taken, I am still a samurai, that I am, and if I shall die as one should, then it shall be so." Sheathing her sakabatou, Asuka smiled to the fiery warrior. "Quite the honor it was meeting you again, that it was, Kaede-dono. You haven't changed much over these few years. Maybe someday we shall continue our battle, albeit on more peaceful terms, that we will."
There was a sword pointing to the samurai by a hilt, an offering to test her mettle? No, the other warrior, a rather short woman named Hiryuu, had requested of Asuka if she would but grace her hand upon the hilt of the bizarre blade, yet Kaede, seeming impatient to begin the group's travel, had suggested that such a matter wait until later. Asuka had to agree. She could not see the aura emanating from the blade, yet from experience with such majestic creations, she could feel the presence calling for her to touch it, every sword was made with a heart indeed. "I'm terribly sorry, but I must agree with Kaede-dono. If we do not leave soon, we will have lost much valuable time before we even begin our journey, that we will." A humble bow was given to Hiryuu, "Please forgive me, Hiryuu-dono, if I have slighted you in the least refusing. Perhaps when we have set foot in due time, I shall oblige your offer, indeed I will." The sword was meaning to test her, but for what? If it were for inner peace, then Asuka was indeed certain the blade would cast her away. Even if she claimed to travel a road to peace, there was still the matter of a troubled heart.....