To say that I was a lonely child would be an understatement. With that said, I was also a bastard, but a lonely bastard at that.
I stumbled across the Guild when I was about fourteen or fifteen years old and had fallen on hard times yet again. Before coming to the Guild, I had learned how to write at the hands of college student and several older individuals through a Pokemon website. I would spend countless hours well into the night on various chat boxes that would empty during the school year which would leave me alone about two years later. I was about thirteen years old when my mother had abandoned me for a second life I knew nothing about - a job that she supposedly had was actually an affair with a strange man. Months later, I would forcefully be removed from my stepfather's residence by police after my mother realized she had made a mistake by upsetting her aggressive daughter that also happened to have an interest in archery.
And then I was alone.
There was a void for a while and it was one that I had tried to fill by taking my mother's medication, stuffing myself with blueberry muffins, and taking as many baths for as long as I can. One day, I can't remember what had happened or why, I decided to start writing again which caused me to stumble across the Guild. I was fourteen or fifteen and I'm nineteen now. It occurred around Easter and I remember playing as a dragon-like character in my first Roleplay. I vividly remember the amount of Smarties I devoured and the countless amounts of hours that my sister had put into playing The Elder Scrolls: Oblivion on a television sitting near me.
I remember feeling alive.
I had a fantasy world to escape to and the weather wasn't so bad either. I was eventually joining Roleplay after Roleplay until I came across a Heroes Roleplay where I would meet one of my best friends, Josh. I forget what username he went by on Old Guild, but we traded Skypes, Facebooks, and
even met in real life last summer right around when I established the Unofficial Guild Discord. Though not the Guild Discord anymore and still scorned by some, I've never been disappointed of the work that myself and many others put into it. I do not regret the people I've met and the experiences I've had while on there.
The Guild has begun to change recently and it is my hope that these changes will ultimately create a more active, friendly, and creative community as we very much already are. I hope that we will see many other unique individuals who will impact my life as greatly as
@Midnight Howl,
@Celaira,
@Grey,
@Nytem4re,
@Fubsy, and countless others have.
I think the Guild's most important impact on me, however, was that it taught me how to feel alive again.