The troop of sixteen weary elves unaccustomed to hiking stood still from shock.
"This... is our refuge?"
"It looked like it was ransacked years ago."
"I would sooner take my chances with the mercenaries then go down there."
The early morning sun illuminated the devastated cityscape, where only the faint signs of movement and fire seemed to confirm the suspicion that there was life to be found in it. Lifting the pike onto her shoulder, Cirel observed the group of elves, seeing that not a single one had a glimmer of hope. A few stared back with a mixture of fear and confusion. The odd expression showing anger was not uncommon. "We are almost there, so we should start on our way."
The majority of others acknowledged the statement by either nodding or fastening their packs. Three elves just stared at her coldly, but she did not let it get to her. She had learned the majority of information on the trio from others, as, even if they had been very vocal in their statements since the first day, they did not engage in conversation with others. She silently picking up her pike and began walking towards the city. Hearing the sounds of the footprints as the elves began falling in behind her, she glanced over her shoulder to make sure. The three elves stood in the same spot as before, not even bothering to follow as they began a heated discussion.
"Farren. Respil. Syrar. It is not long now, but if we want to make it by sundown, we have to get going right now."
Respil, being the well-built spokesman for the group since Farren and Syrar would not respond at all, he took his time advancing towards her. The other elves backed away slowly so as not to be in the way. When Respil stopped a few steps in front of her, he began speaking in a clear but reserved voice. "We are certain you are crazed now." He made a simple gesture down to the city before continuing. "You think that will be safer than the home we built up? You dragged us along with promises that we will be safe, and it turns out your definition of safe is widely different than ours. Seeing that, you must be insane if you still want us to follow you blindly."
Pausing for a moment, Cirel responded in the most serious manner she could muster. "I was charged with your evacuation. The others gave their lives so you can escape, so we must make sure that sacrifice is not in vain."
Without hesitation, Respil spoke back with anger. "You fled at the first sight of trouble, dragging us along with you. For all you know, the losses were minimal, and everyone has adjusted back to normal life. Don't you have any faith in our soldiers?"
"Yes, I do, but we can't take the risk going back. It-"
"The risk? Don't you think going down there holds more 'risk' than going back?"
"It is not like-"
"We have already decided." Beckoning his companions behind him, they walk forward until they stand beside him. "We are heading back, and there is nothing you can do to stop us. The fact that this place is a festering hellhole was the final factor in this matter."
"You won't even reach there with your remaining food."
"If this is your 'salvation,' you wouldn't be needing all of yours, right?"
"But-"
A single older male elf wearing thick leather armour intervened, holding the hilt of his sheathed sword. "Stop this right now. We can discuss this in a civil manner."
"The old coot now wants in?" A smug smirk formed on Respil's face. "Trying to be civil while threatening me with your sword? You fled just like her, and now you work up your courage, and it is to turn on us?"
The soldier was not intimidated. Instead, he turned to look at all the other elves before staring at Respil. "If you want to head back, you can. So can all the other elves that wish to. Those who plan on going to the city can give up a bit of rations to make sure those journey, but I don't wish to hear any more of this."
"Fine." Let out a single word, Respil seemed to have lost his momentum.
With the soldier leading the organization of the elves, it was finally down to Cirel and him. Six others hesitantly decided to go back, making a total of nine returning, while only five were firm on continuing. Turning to Cirel, he gave a curt nod. "I will be heading back with the return group. They will need protection, and I wouldn't feel right having them pushing you around the entire trip."
Not knowing how to respond at first, she decided to put on a smile and respond happily. "I will look after this group, then. If there are people still alive, hopefully they will be nice to you."
"And if they are not, we will continue wandering until we finally starve, end up killed, or find shelter." Letting out a chuckle, he stops to scratch his face. "But don't worry about us, we are splitting to raise our chances of survival, like we did many years ago. These are the same risks as then, but without the large group that draws the attraction of shadows."
All Cirel could do was nod at the grim aspect.
After giving the soldier only took a small portion of her rations before leading his group away in single file back along the High Road that they laboriously followed for days before.
She sent a silent prayer along with them. "Please watch over them, Relanthon."
Sitting at a table in Urenda's inn, Cirel could not help but sulk. Her head rested on her arms, which in turn rested on the table. "You said before to honour sacrifices, and now you are getting all gloomy? You were always a cheerful one, but now you are gloomy." Picking up her head, all she could do was stare at the elf in front of her. He was the only civilian left.
"I know I said that about sacrifice, but it is supposed to be soldiers sacrificing their lives for the helpless, not the other way around."
"If you would have died to those monsters before, nobody would have made it here. Two people made it out, and that is thanks to you."
Resting her head down again, this time she faced a nearby wall to the left, keeping her one eye focused on it. "I know, it is just... I just need a bit of time to accept that fact. Once I do, I will be back to my usual self." Or the version of herself that others think is the usual her. "What do you plan on doing now? It is not like you have anywhere to go."
"I was hoping to see if I could help these people out it some way. There does not seem to be much to do here, but at least it does seem safe after all that we went though."
"Well, I wish you luck with that."
The conversation dropped off at that point, but they both remained seated at the table. Cirel was debating whether or not to work up the courage to tell him to leave her alone for a bit.