Let it seep into your whole being.
With one deep breath, the changes began. The dancing, flickering flames spread from Cassie's hands to her arms, her shoulders and her neck. He straight black hair erupted in flames, their tips curling as it did. The flames continued spreading to her face, her chest, her torso, her legs. As her whole body became ablaze, gorgeous red and orange plumage began covering her body, replacing the flames. Simultaneous changes occurred in her feet and arms. Her feet became curved talons, the golden scales shining in the light. Her arms elongated and turned into elegant wings with the long contour feathers flared out. Her nose and mouth protruded forward until it formed a wickedly curved beak. And finally, her eyes. Despite a minimal increase in the size of her eyes, the changes within were amazing. The rich brown color of her irises melted to liquid gold. Her once normal human sight became superior in all aspects. The images she saw became sharper and colors became more vivid. What was invisible to her mortal eyes before were now visible with her enhanced vision.
Cassie took the wind and gave out a shrill cry of delight.
Shifting to her Phoenix form had gotten a lot more easier after her first two years in the Academy. Sylphide had advised her to keep practicing and had given her 24/7 access to the holographic room Cassie had learned to call the 'Fear Landscape.' Wanting to be able to shift properly and with ease, she took it in herself to visit the room every single for the whole two years. And thanks to her determination, she had succeeded. She no longer had to call out unwanted memories to evoke the change.
As Cassie let an updraft carry her up, she remembered her first year in the Academy and her first shift into her Phoenix form ever since she entered the institution. She was probably the only one who felt pain when the changes began. Or maybe, as she figured out later on, it was all brought to her by her own mind and her incessant fear of fire.
It was the Fae Instructor, Sylphide aided by the Kitsune, Ikari, who taught her how to harness that fear and turn it into something productive.
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"We can teach you how to harness that fear, Cassie." A human sized Sylphide, trained her clear blue eyes on a younger Cassie, who silently nodded when her eyes fell on Ikari's golden, encouraging ones.
Led to stand in the middle of a huge, empty, domed room, Cassie took a long, deep breath and then closed her eyes, a shudder running through her body as she did. In the darkness behind her lids, her mind's eye immediately conjured up images of the attack that had scarred half of her body.
She was 15 again and walking home from school. She saw the street, the people, the cars, the clear blue sky. She could smell a hint of lemon in the breeze. The images were so vivid that Cassie felt she was reliving it all over again.
Her heart began drumming on her chest. Her breath became quick and shallow, like small hiccups. A panic attack. The images in her head was too much. Her eyes flew open. But instead of the holographic room, Cassie found herself standing on the street leading home. Familiar faces surrounded her. A teacher from school, a classmate, a neighbor... She looked down at herself, at her hands. Her right hand was no longer scarred and she was wearing a simple blue shirt and matching skirt. It was the same clothes she wore 3 years ago.
Tears began streaming down Cassie's face. She knew deep inside that the images were not real, the landscape was made up. This was the reason why Sylphide had brought along Ikari. But her mind refused to see it as an illusion. She began to feel dizzy and nauseous.
And then the fireballs began falling.
Cassie heard the explosions, she heard the agonized and terrified screams. She watched again as a woman's twisted, burnt body writhe on the ground. Her pulse and her breath quickened to a terrifying speed. She could feel the fear choking her, the darkness hovering in anticipation, threatening to claim her consciousness. She knew what would happen next. She anticipated the heat and the pain.
"Cassie." It was Sylphide's gentle voice. "Cassie." Her voice repeated her name.
Cassie whipped her head around, trying to locate the source of the voice. But both instructors were nowhere to be seen. There was only chaos around her. The gentle voice was joined by another female voice. Ikari's. "Fear is only a fabrication of the mind. Face it. Control it."
The fireball hurtled towards Cassie. With her heart thudding painfully in her chest, Cassie clenched her fist and faced it head on. It took all her effort not to scream in pain as the flames came in contact with her body. "...fabrication of the mind..." The words echoed somewhere in her mind. But she couldn't take it. She screamed and crumpled down onto the ground.
It took her almost a month to get past the burning.
Determination raged inside Cassie as she felt her flesh melt again and again. She could no longer keep track of how many times she went through the illusions, reliving her nightmare. It felt like the hundredth time and every single time she failed.
I will not fail this time... She thought to herself, desperately trying not to scream out in pain. She felt fear tug at her heart once more. The pain intensified. She gritted her teeth, trying to endure it. In the peak of her fear and pain, Sylphide's voice echoed loud and clear. "This is the moment... Hold on to that fear. Hold on to that pain."
Ikari's voice echoed after Sylphide's. "Make that intangible feeling tangible. Feel it in your hands, give it form, give it shape."
"Yes." Sylphide continued to urge her on. "Grasp it, hold on to it."
With the two voices urging her on, she struggled to follow their instructions. Ignoring the pain coursing through her body, she closed both hands and felt her fingers curl around something round. A fireball? The skin of her palm burned as she fought to hold on to the orb, her fingers blistering as she did.
"Yes." Sylphide continued speaking in that gentle voice of hers. The longer Cassie held on to the fireball, the more apparent it was that she can finally achieve her goal. "Now, crush it and feel it seep into your whole being. You. Are. Fire."
It was strange. Those were the words she had said the day she was infused with Mythic Essence. But there was no time to wonder or think about how Sylphide somehow knew those words or if she was simply urging her on. "I. Am. Fire." She repeated and with one decisive movement, she squeezed both hands until she felt the orb give and shatter in her palms. Immediately, there was a rush of heat that ran through her hands, up her arms and coursed through he entire body. Unlike the pain from the burns, the heat she felt was soothing.
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Cassie glided lazily in the illusory horizon of the Holo room. Her first two years were a struggle despite the constant guidance of Sylphide. She lost sparring matches numerous times just because of her panic attacks. The sight of fire when she shifted, despite there being no more pain, still made her nervous.
And now, on her third year, that fear seemed like a million miles away. After a long while, she was finally comfortable in her Shifted form. The sight of fire now gave her courage and gave her the drive to learn more each day so that she'd be ready when she finally joined the war. Sylphide was right. She cartwheeled midair, relishing the feel of the warm air flutter her crimson and orange feathers.
It was only until she saw a lone figure far below on the ground that she decided that it was enough practice for the day. She dived down and landed gracefully a few feet away from her visitor.
Talons transformed back to feet as they hit the ground. "What are you doing here, Eric?"
Eric Mun is a US-born Korean whose original name was Mun Jung-hyuk. He had been Cassie's opponent in the last sparring match and his Shifter form had been a fire drake. There had been no taunts, no insults. There had been no words. The fight started as soon as they faced each other.
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Cassie took advantage of her fire and speed, dodging and hurtling fire at her opponent. Eric used brute strength, biting, clawing and swiping when the fire bird flew close to him. Several times he caught Cassie and threw her aside like a rag doll but the phoenix always had a counter attack. However, no matter how many times Cassie launched any form of attack on the large beast, his scales provided enough shield to deflect her assault. For the first few minutes, it seemed like Cassie was the only one taking a beating in the match.
It wasn't until Eric took to the air after her did she figure out his only possible weak point. His underbelly had finer, thinner and most probably softer scales than the rest of his body.
Cassie twisted her body mid air and from her talons, she launched numerous small fire balls that unraveled themselves into smaller copies of herself. By her command, the duplicates flew head on to the drake. Meant to distract and irritate the beast, they exploded on impact on his face, on his chest, on his wings and any part that they came into contact with. The drake stopped mid air and reared up the same way a horse would raise itself up on its hind legs, swatting at the duplicates as if they were flies. At that exact moment, Cassie hurtled several more of her mini phoenixes towards him, this time targeting the smooth underbelly that was conveniently exposed. The first few attacks seemed ineffective but soon red, raw welts began appearing. Eric began flailing around, trying to claw at his underbelly.
A few more seconds and the fire drake hurtled down towards the ground, roaring with pain and fury as he did. His massive form hit the ground hard, the weight of his body sending a tremor through the earth.
The burns on Eric's underbelly continued to spread. Cassie glided down closer to her opponent who was thrashing around in pain. She immediately called out to the instructor assigned to them. Just as she was about to alight on the ground, Eric's tail whipped around and caught Cassie off guard, sending her flying towards a hill of rocks. Cassie fell unconscious on impact.
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"Thought I'd see what you were up to." The tall dark haired Asian replied. After the fight, he had actively sought Cassie out and went out of his way to be friendly to her.
"Practicing." Cassie answered, quickly pulling down the sleeve of her shirt to cover up her scarred right forearm. She wasn't exactly comfortable having people stare at her scars despite the fact that Eric never did.
"Practice is good." Eric nodded approvingly. "Are you planning on joining the festival?"
Cassie shook her head. "No. I'm staying here to practice more." She began walking towards the exit.
"Aww, come on. Where's the fun in that?" Eric frowned and fell into place beside her. "You practice everyday. It's time to sit back and relax for a bit."
"An attack can happen anytime. Just like what happened to Johannesburg." Cassie replied, visibly shuddering at the thought.
Eric's face darkened. "I know..." He murmured and then shrugged. "But... festival. Fun." He said it as if those two words explained everything. "It's not something that happens everyday." He explained when Cassie remained quiet.
"Fine." Cassie finally agreed.
"You're going with me." Eric grinned. "No complaining. It's not like you have anybody else to go with." He continued, effectively cutting off any retorts from Cassie. And before she could answer, he jogged ahead. "See you later, Phoenix girl."