I'm working on a post now, but honestly, I'm so exhausted. I've been coughing so much, that its nearly impossible to sleep, I may have whooping cough, so I might end up passing out, and finishing it in the morning, if thats okay, I'm so sorry
MarshiestMallow
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The Marshiest of Mallows
STATUS: "Doing your best" does not mean working yourself to the point of a mental breakdown. Its no longer your best at that point. 6 yrs ago
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"Doing your best" does not mean working yourself to the point of a mental breakdown. Its no longer your best at that point.
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8 yrs ago
The word homeowner has the word "meow" in it. Good luck pronouncing it correctly ever again. You're welcome ^.^
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8 yrs ago
When everything seems wrong...something goes right, and it changes darkness into light, and makes the shadows a little less daunting.
9 yrs ago
People cry, not because they are weak. It's because they've been strong for too long
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9 yrs ago
the bad thing about being bullied is that every time it happens it steals a little piece of who you are if it happens enough little by little you become a little less of who you were meant to be.
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“Who said I was trying to help, Mr Astra?” Patrick said with a wide grin, pulling Ferrin to his feet, “although I was taught never to kick a man when he’s down, I never could quite get the hang of my mouth”
He chuckled, “As for your condition, why, you must take it up with Sasha, and I wish you luck. Better you then me. She’s such a stubborn little thing” He said, glancing over to Sasha, “This is more her expedition then my own, and she’s as much Fairy Tail as you, even if she’s never been apart of it”He warned, before shrugging, “Good luck to you”
Penny looked up as someone laid a hand on her shoulder, and sighed bitterly when it wasn’t anyone she wanted. She looked away, “Well, right now it feels like all my “Family” hates me. All I’ve done is just disappoint everyone.” She looked through the skylight, to her sister and her partner, “She doesn’t need me to complicate things. She’s happy, and that’s all that matters to me. She doesn’t need me making things difficult”
She looked to the rest of the guild that she could see, and shook her head, “None of them has ventured out to see if I am okay. Not that it matters” She bowed her head, the blue-white flames flickering about her, sorrow still filling her, seeming to want to engulf her completely.
“Everytime I try to do the right thing, it seems to go wrong… “ She’d taken Ariel with her, to kill her father, and look how well that had turned out. All she’d succeeded in doing was just making Ariel’s life harder. She’d wanted to help Jasmine.. The girl didn’t seem to resent her for her absence, at least, but she hadn’t help her find any sort of peace… Sasha had grown into a fine young woman, thankfully, over the last few months… Penny had always needed her, not the other way around…
She sighed and dropped her head into her hands.
Sasha watched Shujin go, before looking to Lazarus once more, watching him for a few moments, shifting so she could lean against him a moment, “You were scared to tell me” She said, with a bit of amusement, “I’m not scary, am I?” While she knew that they should probably get moving soon, it would take time to gather those that were coming, so she thought that they could take a few moments.
@YipeeXD@Crimson Raven
He chuckled, “As for your condition, why, you must take it up with Sasha, and I wish you luck. Better you then me. She’s such a stubborn little thing” He said, glancing over to Sasha, “This is more her expedition then my own, and she’s as much Fairy Tail as you, even if she’s never been apart of it”He warned, before shrugging, “Good luck to you”
Penny looked up as someone laid a hand on her shoulder, and sighed bitterly when it wasn’t anyone she wanted. She looked away, “Well, right now it feels like all my “Family” hates me. All I’ve done is just disappoint everyone.” She looked through the skylight, to her sister and her partner, “She doesn’t need me to complicate things. She’s happy, and that’s all that matters to me. She doesn’t need me making things difficult”
She looked to the rest of the guild that she could see, and shook her head, “None of them has ventured out to see if I am okay. Not that it matters” She bowed her head, the blue-white flames flickering about her, sorrow still filling her, seeming to want to engulf her completely.
“Everytime I try to do the right thing, it seems to go wrong… “ She’d taken Ariel with her, to kill her father, and look how well that had turned out. All she’d succeeded in doing was just making Ariel’s life harder. She’d wanted to help Jasmine.. The girl didn’t seem to resent her for her absence, at least, but she hadn’t help her find any sort of peace… Sasha had grown into a fine young woman, thankfully, over the last few months… Penny had always needed her, not the other way around…
She sighed and dropped her head into her hands.
Sasha watched Shujin go, before looking to Lazarus once more, watching him for a few moments, shifting so she could lean against him a moment, “You were scared to tell me” She said, with a bit of amusement, “I’m not scary, am I?” While she knew that they should probably get moving soon, it would take time to gather those that were coming, so she thought that they could take a few moments.
@YipeeXD@Crimson Raven
No it's more then fine!@YipeeXD ^.^ should be an interesting interaction
Patrick watched with some curiosity and concern Ferrin have what appeared to amount to a mental and emotional breakdown. That had certainly never happened before. He waited a moment or two before he approached, "I'm 16, everyone seems old to me- although perhaps that might have to do with time itself" he shrugged, crouching in front of the older man, "I was, however, meaning the fact that technically, you are over, what is it, 400 years old. That is, if you go by your own date of birth."
He gave a shrug and rising, offered his hand to Ferrin, "come on, have a breakdown later. Your island needs you" He said, his tone rather serious, "and your family needs you too. Both of them" an odd look crossed over his features, quickly gone.
Jamie watched the situation bemused, shaking her head after a moment, "well, I'm forty three, you're both children, now if you've stopped having an internal crisis- and a rather decent external one- shall we continue?"
@Crimson Raven
He gave a shrug and rising, offered his hand to Ferrin, "come on, have a breakdown later. Your island needs you" He said, his tone rather serious, "and your family needs you too. Both of them" an odd look crossed over his features, quickly gone.
Jamie watched the situation bemused, shaking her head after a moment, "well, I'm forty three, you're both children, now if you've stopped having an internal crisis- and a rather decent external one- shall we continue?"
@Crimson Raven
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I send my thingies to you, don't I? Eh, I'm going to do it anyway, cause they are done
I send my thingies to you, don't I? Eh, I'm going to do it anyway, cause they are done
Sasha looked up at the sound of footsteps, and smiled at Lazarus and Shujin. Staying where she had been, Sasha glanced about, seeing Jamie and Jarvis talking with someone, Patrick seemingly engaged as well, and others nearby, whether or not they were coming, wasn’t clear to Sasha yet. She looked back to Lazarus as he spoke, studying him a moment. Sasha had had good reasons for wanting him to stay behind, stay back, away from the temptation that could be Zeref on the island… and she studied him, searching for anything that made not be… him. She waited a moment or two, flickering her gaze to Shujin, raising an eyebrow at his comment, before returning her attention back to Lazarus.
“Alright” She said softly, keeping her gaze on his, not looking away, her tone serious, “I trust you, Lazarus. Perhaps it’s time to have a little faith” She said, offering him a smile, keeping his gaze for a few more minutes before she allowed it to slip to the side, towards Shujin, “He’s never needed protecting. Just to believe in himself, Should you not check on your own guild members, and check in with your master?”
Patrick watched Ferrin, a small smile on his features, and not seeming to mind the silence as the older man thought on what to say. Rather pleased with himself that he had given the man pause, Patrick was more than content to watch and wait. “You may think that, and perhaps you have the right to, the mere difference is that this time, i decided to come back, and this time, I decided to bring together as many people as I could. Including you, if you’d simply stop being a stubborn old man- nice to see that some things do not chance, at least” He said, shrugging, and leaning against the bar slightly.
He chuckled at Ferrins last attempt to turn their course, and said “And how can you know for certain that the island doesn’t want us there? If it doesn’t, then we won’t step foot on the island, if it does then we will. At this point, only the island itself can stop us. I believe that the island wants our help. If I’m wrong, no harm done, and you are proven right” He said, with a shrug, “In anycase, I was taught that if we don’t try, then we have already failed. I’m going to try, and right now, I don’t need your approval for it. I cannot speak for Masters Jamie and jarvis however. If they wish to stay behind, that is their choice- theirs and no one elses”
“I’m not going to the island” Penny said softly, but it seemed too late as Ariel walked away, hurt a painful sensation in her chest, Penny let her go. She knew that she deserved it, and yet, it just seemed one blow after another, and she couldn’t take it. Each beat of her heart was painful as she moved towards the doors, trying to keep her pace as steady as she could make it, but breaking when she drew closer, and just about fleeing out the doors. It seemed everything she tried to do lately just… failed, or she ended up hurting someone, or ended up not able to do anything.
She didn’t know what to do anymore. Her breathing came hard and fast as she took to the skies, and to the roof of the guild, landing- more like falling to a somewhat semi sitting position, her arms going around herself, as if to hold herself together. It almost felt like she was being broken into a million tiny pieces, tears stinging her eyes, falling unbidden. A song seemed to weave throughout her entire being, one that seemed to resonate with everything she was feeling, oddly beautiful even in its sorrow. And she knew that if she’d been in her Phoenix Form, that she wouldn’t have been able to avoid singing its song.
She bowed her head, rocking slightly. What was she meant to do? She had no clue how to fix anything, no clue how to make anything better… Maybe it would be better for everyone if she just left. Who would miss her? Sasha, sure… but Sasha had her own family, now. Ariel? She’d made it perfectly clear that Penny had hurt her, and she had no idea how to make that right… She closed her eyes tightly, unwilling to go on that train of thought.
Her heart continued to pump painfully, moving the blood around her body that shimmered with the song, tears still stinging her eyes painfully, her body shaking. Sorrow weighed her down, made her very limbs feel heavy, and it seemed that nothing was enough to fill the grief in her very essence. The song continued to build within her, seeming to come straight from her soul, a cold burning sensations following along behind it, until she couldn’t take it anymore.
The song burst forth from her lips, flames engulfing her as her Phoenix form engulfed her, cold blue flames taking over the warm red and orange, purple flickering through, and she bowed over, gasping, feeling as if her heart had shattered into too many tiny pieces to put back together and the tears fell, staining the roof with their wetness.
@t2wave@Crimson Raven@YipeeXD
“Alright” She said softly, keeping her gaze on his, not looking away, her tone serious, “I trust you, Lazarus. Perhaps it’s time to have a little faith” She said, offering him a smile, keeping his gaze for a few more minutes before she allowed it to slip to the side, towards Shujin, “He’s never needed protecting. Just to believe in himself, Should you not check on your own guild members, and check in with your master?”
Patrick watched Ferrin, a small smile on his features, and not seeming to mind the silence as the older man thought on what to say. Rather pleased with himself that he had given the man pause, Patrick was more than content to watch and wait. “You may think that, and perhaps you have the right to, the mere difference is that this time, i decided to come back, and this time, I decided to bring together as many people as I could. Including you, if you’d simply stop being a stubborn old man- nice to see that some things do not chance, at least” He said, shrugging, and leaning against the bar slightly.
He chuckled at Ferrins last attempt to turn their course, and said “And how can you know for certain that the island doesn’t want us there? If it doesn’t, then we won’t step foot on the island, if it does then we will. At this point, only the island itself can stop us. I believe that the island wants our help. If I’m wrong, no harm done, and you are proven right” He said, with a shrug, “In anycase, I was taught that if we don’t try, then we have already failed. I’m going to try, and right now, I don’t need your approval for it. I cannot speak for Masters Jamie and jarvis however. If they wish to stay behind, that is their choice- theirs and no one elses”
“I’m not going to the island” Penny said softly, but it seemed too late as Ariel walked away, hurt a painful sensation in her chest, Penny let her go. She knew that she deserved it, and yet, it just seemed one blow after another, and she couldn’t take it. Each beat of her heart was painful as she moved towards the doors, trying to keep her pace as steady as she could make it, but breaking when she drew closer, and just about fleeing out the doors. It seemed everything she tried to do lately just… failed, or she ended up hurting someone, or ended up not able to do anything.
She didn’t know what to do anymore. Her breathing came hard and fast as she took to the skies, and to the roof of the guild, landing- more like falling to a somewhat semi sitting position, her arms going around herself, as if to hold herself together. It almost felt like she was being broken into a million tiny pieces, tears stinging her eyes, falling unbidden. A song seemed to weave throughout her entire being, one that seemed to resonate with everything she was feeling, oddly beautiful even in its sorrow. And she knew that if she’d been in her Phoenix Form, that she wouldn’t have been able to avoid singing its song.
She bowed her head, rocking slightly. What was she meant to do? She had no clue how to fix anything, no clue how to make anything better… Maybe it would be better for everyone if she just left. Who would miss her? Sasha, sure… but Sasha had her own family, now. Ariel? She’d made it perfectly clear that Penny had hurt her, and she had no idea how to make that right… She closed her eyes tightly, unwilling to go on that train of thought.
Her heart continued to pump painfully, moving the blood around her body that shimmered with the song, tears still stinging her eyes painfully, her body shaking. Sorrow weighed her down, made her very limbs feel heavy, and it seemed that nothing was enough to fill the grief in her very essence. The song continued to build within her, seeming to come straight from her soul, a cold burning sensations following along behind it, until she couldn’t take it anymore.
The song burst forth from her lips, flames engulfing her as her Phoenix form engulfed her, cold blue flames taking over the warm red and orange, purple flickering through, and she bowed over, gasping, feeling as if her heart had shattered into too many tiny pieces to put back together and the tears fell, staining the roof with their wetness.
@t2wave@Crimson Raven@YipeeXD
Been a rough couple of days to be honest. But working on finishing up right now
It's okay, I understand, take all the time you need.
Amd yeah, I get that. I've had a couple of really frigging awesome interviews, and they've actually said 'you're amazing, and I think we will have good news" AND THEN something frigging happens, like "Oh someone with more experience turned up, applied" or "Someone from last summer called up, asked if they could work again"
And it really gets you down. So take all the time you need, I'll still be here ^.^
Amd yeah, I get that. I've had a couple of really frigging awesome interviews, and they've actually said 'you're amazing, and I think we will have good news" AND THEN something frigging happens, like "Oh someone with more experience turned up, applied" or "Someone from last summer called up, asked if they could work again"
And it really gets you down. So take all the time you need, I'll still be here ^.^
@CirusArvennicushuggles
I literally just have to sit and write in the goals but I spent four hours yesterday just staring at my screen.
Being sick sucks. And the way my throats is...
But I'll finish it up today if it's the last thing I do!
Being sick sucks. And the way my throats is...
But I'll finish it up today if it's the last thing I do!
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