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Bio









Hello! I'm MsMorningstar, or Momo for short. I'm a college student in my early twenties, located in the Western United States. I have a deep appreciation for memes and vines (RIP Vine), so if you're a wandering soul feel free to drop a couple in my visitor messages. I like loom knitting, and I used to be a big reader but haven't touched a book in a while since I've been writing. I love procedural cop dramas, my favorite being Criminal Minds, though I guess it's technically a procedural FBI agent drama. Everything else I'm into, I'll tack on in a different section. I'm a big fan of RPing, though I do tend to fade in and out. Luckily, I've made some friends here who've helped me sink my hooks into the forum. Speaking of which, I'd like to give them their own section.



If you're uninterested in me rambling about these amazing guild members, feel free to move on to the next section.
  • @NorthernKraken: I knew I had to start with this lovely, Texan woman. She's definitely one of the brightest people I know. There's a reason why people come to her daily seeking help and advice. She pushes me to do what I love, even when I don't want to. For this, I'm extremely grateful. Thank you, Goblin Queen.
  • @c3p-0h: The coolest cool kid around, by far. Not to mention, the nothingness that will eventually swallow up our universe. Cep, even though you're way too awesome for me you somehow make me feel amazing. Your compliments really lift me up, and I hope someday I can repay you for all your kindness. Also, you gave me my nickname, and I'm eternally grateful.
  • @Damo021: You've been my buddy since the beginning of Red Hoods. Even if our characters don't end up together, they're still my OTP. Thank you for always offering to help me, and chatting with me about everything and anything.
  • @Almalthia: You've been off living your life and being the responsible adult I wish I was, and I commend you for that. Doesn't mean I don't miss you like hell, though. You're the best mom older sister ever, and I eagerly await the moments when you're online.
  • @RedVII: My honorary brother. I feel like I could talk to you about anything, so I usually do. You understand me when others don't, and I'll never stop being weird alongside you. You're the strangest person, and that's what makes you wonderful.
  • @ZAVAZggg: You're the angstiest EdgeLord I know, but I appreciate everything about you. You keep me in check, in a way not many others are capable of. You're always scheming, and I'm pretty sure you have a ten-step plan for world domination. Despite this, you've proven to be an amazing GM, and a great friend.
  • @Senhara: Screm




I listed a few of these in my About Me Section, but I'll list them again.
  • Reading: Fantasy, mystery, drama, romance, etc.
  • Loom Knitting
  • Anime: AoT, Soul Eater, Seven Deadly Sins, Kakegurui.
  • Television: Criminal Minds, Lucifer, Black Mirror.
  • Music: R&B, Hip-Hop, Pop.
  • Memes & Vines


  • Fantasy: High, Low, or Urban.
  • Slice-Of-Life
  • Superheroes
  • Crime/Mystery
  • Historical: Egyptian, Victorian, Ancient Greece.



Here are some links to music I love. If you'd like to drop some music suggestions, be my guest!


More to be added! (SO much more)


I'm extremely active on discord. So, if you'd like to add me and chat, I'm likely available.
Ms. Morningstar#2903





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Time: Night
Location: Ember Grove Park
Interactions: Cyler Johnson - @Pyxis
Vibes: “All my troubles seemed so far away...”




Leilani shambled across the field, on an unsteady path toward the park gate. Her car was waiting for her in the distance, silver exterior coated in a thin layer of dust. A small frown tugged at her lips. Once upon a time, she had it washed every other week. Now, she couldn’t be bothered. Pausing for a moment, she began to dig through her purse, seeking out her fluffy key-chain. That was when she heard it.

Footsteps.

She hadn’t been paying attention before, but now that she was still, they were evident. Resisting her immediate urge to panic and start walking faster toward her car, she slowly began to turn instead. Relief washed over her when she recognized who it was.

“Ah...hey, Cyler.” She smiled through her fatigue, raising a hand in greeting. Despite being hardly acquainted with the man, she had done her best to remember the names attached to friendly faces in her new home. Her gaze wandered over him, stopping for a moment as she took in the camera he was carrying. Every time she saw him, he had one in tow. Perking up visibly, she took a few steps closer.

“Got any good pictures?” She asked, wondering if he’d let her see. Some people kept their art to themselves, at least until it was perfect in their eyes. She was one of those types at times, if only because she was prone to changing directions over criticism. “It’s a nice night, huh?” She glanced around at the scenery that she struggled to sketch. The nights were usually beautiful in Ember Grove, a natural distraction from all the horrible things that happened there.

Stopping a few feet away, she searched his face. His features really reminded her of an ex, Cadence, and she wasn’t sure if that was a good thing or not. Cadence had dumped her the weekend before prom, after all. She cleared her throat, blinking to break her awkward staring.

“I was just about to head out...but I don’t really have anywhere to go.” The thought seemed sad at the moment. “Did you, uh, wanna do something? I haven’t seen much of this town and I’ve been here a month.” She forced a chuckle. “Will probably be here for a while, actually. Have a lot of time to spare." It was meant to come across as a sort of joke, but it fell flat. She opened her mouth again, but said nothing, clamping it shut after a couple seconds.

Time: Night
Location: Ember Grove Park
Interactions: None
Vibes: “Most days I don’t recognize me…”




Leilani plodded through the park, her steps slowly becoming more and more of a shuffle. Mindlessly, she tightened her grip on the thick, twin size quilt around her shoulders. Made up of blue and pink patterned patches, it provided little warmth to an eternally frozen body, and no semblance of comfort. That being said, it would make a perfect buffer between her skin and the irritating blades of grass. Picking a random spot beneath a birch tree, she laid out the blanket, tugging at the corners and smoothing the surface to ensure there wasn’t a wrinkle in sight. A breeze was nowhere to be found, so she didn’t bother to hunt for rocks to prevent the corners from peeling up. Settling down onto the quilt at last, she folded her legs neatly together, tucking her hands into her lap and releasing a deep sigh.

If she were still human, she would’ve described the moment as blissful. Eerily silent perhaps, but certainly calming.

She was not a human though. And silence was no longer a reality to her. Even now, she could hear the buzz of some grouping of insects a distance away, the rustling of rabbits as they disturbed the grass. The fall of a pine cone off a nearby tree. Her serenity was disrupted. Torn asunder by her new, heightened awareness.

Perhaps she shouldn’t have been complaining. After all, she had been given a month to adjust. It wasn’t as if she were making zero progress. At first, she had been so overwhelmed she could barely leave her home on the estate. Now she could at least wander. Still, it managed to irk her. Not that she ever expressed this to the other members of her…clan. She did her best to act content around them. It was the least she could do, seeing as they had adopted her, after her sire had abandoned her on their doorstep like a defenseless babe in a basket.

Shaking her head, she struggled to clear her mind. Overthinking her issues wasn’t what she was there for. She had come to the park for a purpose, one that didn’t involve the relentless scratching in her throat and the emptiness in her gut.

Reaching into the satchel that was secured around her shoulder, she pushed aside the ration she had taken earlier and dug for her sketchbook. Taking it out alongside a charcoal pencil, she settled it in her lap and began flipping through the pages. The sketchbook was in great condition despite being almost two years old, each finished artwork painstakingly laminated to preserve the design etched on the thick paper. Finally, Leilani came across a blank page.

This was why she had traveled to the park in the middle of the night. She wished to restore her muse, which had died out in the past month. It was an irritating cycle. Every time she attempted to start a piece, she found herself drawing blanks, and ultimately ended up setting her pencil down or snapping it in an accidental showing of frustration. She could only hope that tonight would be different. The longer she went without her outlet, the more exhausted and angry she felt.

Holding her pencil delicately, she stared out into her surroundings, trying to feel the way she used to. She reminded herself that there were no expectations. That she was doing this for herself. She pushed at the block in her mind, disappointment filling her as she realized that there was nothing there.

She continued this for another ten minutes, at the very least. She tried closing her eyes, humming a tune, drawing random lines on her paper. She just couldn’t inspire herself. The longer she tried, the more persistent the scratching at her throat became. Finally, she pushed aside her sketchbook and replaced the pencil in her hand with a blood ration. Her fangs came out of their own volition, and she downed the thick, red liquid with a soft groan. It was the only thing that could satisfy her anymore, as one would expect. Not even sour candy packed the same punch.

She wiped at her lips, then brought her hand to her mouth in order to lap up any blood residue on the back of her fist. Sighing at her lack of control, she put everything back into her bag, rose to her feet, collected her blanket, and began wandering back in the direction of her car.

A bust. That’s what the night had been. She wasn’t sure if she’d try again the next evening.






@princess Here she is! Hopefully this is fine, lol.


@Shard Here comes the rock puns!






@Shard First character is done!


Location: Unknown
Vibes: Sad song much sad.
Interactions: Bongo





Escape.

Escape was detrimental.

Stagnation was a killer. Every second she wasted was another second gifted to Samael. She knew this, she had made a promise to herself.

So why couldn't she move?

Was it the air here? So much thicker, it tasted dirty. Tainted. Like it needed to be run through a filter. Breathing it in was like snorting paste. And yet, it was still more refreshing than the air of the battlefield. The scent of blood, decay, all amplified by the rain. She shook it away, forcing back the thought, the hideous realization that she had been slipping around in the gore left behind by her fellow hoods. That their bits and pieces, their blood, was stuck to her skin.

It hadn't bothered her when the blood belonged to her Father, though, had it?

No, no, no. Not her father, not again. He was just a stain, a bloodied stain burned to ash and spread in the nearest ditch. She had made sure of it, he would not be coming back.

Only in her nightmares.

She wanted to move. She needed a drink.

Fingers, groping at her side, the movement was so fluid. Instinctual. There was nothing there, her flask was gone.

Teeth, grinding together slowly. A heaving breath, hands digging through hair. A low, garbled whine. She must've looked mad, doubling over just enough for a throbbing pain to spike in her side. Straightening, she gripped the air, dragging it down to her thighs in a fit.

The worst part? She wasn't present for it, she was only doing it. Going through the motions. She just needed to move! If she moved, she could find Samael. If she moved, she could get a drink.

Choppy breaths, blazing eyes. She forced a step forward. And another, another after that. She took methodical steps, until finally she broke into a casual stride. She could act normal. She had to act normal. Samael was probably watching her, laughing. Who wouldn't be amused by a woman going through a breakdown?

Her steps lead her to a gate, a scissor gate that was gleaming orange beneath the glow of two street lamps. Almost without thought, Eliza dug into her knapsack. She retrieved a charm, one of the last she had. Peered down at it, turning it over in her hand.

With a maniacal cry, she launched it at the gate, straight at the lock that was binding the two lengths of folding metal. In midair, the charm shifted, becoming a large chunk of earth.

The gate broke, and with it went a solid portion of Eliza's anger. Breaking things felt good.

But did it really? Yes.

It felt good, in the same way breaking her father had felt good. Even in the moments after, until Colin found her, and she felt guilty. But everyone needed a guilty pleasure, right?

Wrong. Right? She didn't know anymore. She just needed to walk.

And so she walked, down the grainy, albeit smooth stretch of outdoor flooring. She walked until she heard the chime of a bell, and pressed herself flat against the wall of the nearest building. One of the ones that stretched into the sky. One of the ones that was covered in windows, windows filled with lights.

She waited, breath catching in her throat, as the sound of the bell came closer. And closer. Then stopped, then started again. Then stopped.

Goddess, the bell was teasing her.

Finally, she broke away from the wall, peering around the corner. The sight that filled her eyes left her face scrunched with surprise.

A dog. Not of any breed that she had ever seen before, but a dog nonetheless. It was small, covered in tufts of white fur from head to toe. The fur looked so soft. Around its neck was a bell, tied to it by a handkerchief. It laid eyes upon her as well, and for a moment, Eliza crumpled under the weight of desire.

She wanted to pet the dog.

Crouching down, the dog immediately raced forward, prancing with paws lifting up in exaggerated motions. She allowed it to sniff her hand, a hoarse giggle escaping her as it licked her palm.

Scooping the small creature up into her arms, Eliza slouched against a building, marveling at the puppy. She had never met one so friendly. She stood there for a time, stroking the creature's fur and letting it writhe in her hands excitedly.

She was almost too enamored to catch the light. The clicking and whistling, the calling of a name. Bongo. The dog seemed to writhe more furiously at the sound. Eliza considered rushing to the other side of the building, but by the time she moved it was too late.

A beam of light hit the side of her face, and she froze. She glanced to her side, catching the eye of a relieved man in a similar outfit to her own.

"Oh, thank fuck, you found my dog!"

Location: Unknown
Vibes: "I'll only hurt you if you let me..."
Interactions: None




For many moments, for whole lifetimes, Eliza was just a ripple. A passing breeze. The odd, feathery touch that sends shivers down one's spine. She was the familiar stranger in the corner of someone's vision, that disappeared upon a second glance.

Briefly, she was spread into nothingness, becoming a fragile part of the all-encompassing void. Just as suddenly, she was mashed together, a boneless lump of molten flesh and gore.

She felt nothing, was numb to it all and somehow present for every moment of it. It was as if she were seeing it from an onlooker's point of view. Perhaps she was. After all, she hadn't a clue where her eyes were during all of this.

It was an experience for the history books, truly. It was a moment where she was all, and she was nothing. It was like being carried through a dream by Felicity. In this dream, though, she was the interpreter. For a moment, she was enlightened.

Then, she was coughed out.

~*~*~*~


"'Liza, I'm home!" Ethaniel called, a merry lilt to his tone. His short, casual strides carried him to their small kitchen, where he paused and popped his head into the alcove that housed their dining table.

Eliza wasn't there, working on her charms as he had told her to. A lump of clay remained on the table, untouched. That meant she was somewhere else, doing Mother knows what. Assumptions traveled like lightning through Ethaniel's mind, very few of which soothing.

For all he knew, she could have been taking a nap in her room. She had been acting more sluggish lately. On the other hand, she could be terrorizing the next village over. Her newfound, violent tendencies were becoming more of a pain to deal with. Every hex thrown his way was another waste of energy on both their parts. She was too weak to harm him, and he was too weakhearted to punish her properly.

Perhaps, in another life, he would've thrown her out. Abandoned her on the streets with a bit of money, just so she could drink herself to death. Maybe this darker version of himself would have abused the inkling of loyalty that was bubbling up within her, just as her father had. Trashed her, completely and utterly. It wouldn't have been hard. No one would take the time to mourn her ruination. To most, she was scum.

But not to him.

For the short time they had known each other, she had made a great impression upon him. Whenever her mood swings weren't weighing her down, he caught glimpses of her true persona. She was compassionate, despite her past misfortunes, or perhaps because of them. Her truest self was eager. Eager for love, and joy, and someone who could take care of her in the way her mother and father hadn't. He wanted to be that person. More than that. He wanted to see her succeed, if not because he cared, then because he wished to be the person behind someone else's success.

He would get her there, past boundaries she didn't even know she had.

To begin that process, though, he had to find her.

One-by-one, he checked her room, then the oversized study that dwarfed the rest of the house, then the garden outside. If she was around, there was only one other place she could be.

Creeping into his room, he let a curse loose under his breath as he laid eyes upon her. She sat in the corner of his quarters, staring up at him with wide, apologetic eyes. They were glossed over, and unfocused.

In her arms, she cradled a bottle of wine that was almost empty.

"How long was I gone?" His tone was accusatory, and when she flinched back, he realized it may have been overly so.

"An...hour?" Eliza replied, blinking every second, as she repeatedly lost focus.

"Was that long enough to drain an entire bottle of wine on your own?" He kept his tone inquisitive, light. He didn't want to put too much blame on her in this state, they'd have to talk more when she sobered up.

"No...but--" She cut herself off, nibbling on her lower lip as tears welled in her eyes. "P-Please don't throw me out!" Her slurs came out beside soft sobs.

Ethaniel quickly shook his head, throwing up his hands defensively. "Eliza, I wouldn't abandon you." His affirmation seemed to do its job, as her tremors slowed significantly. "I just don't know why you've done this to yourself, that's all."

"I have...haven't, I haven't been myself. I keep getting so...so angry and I-I can't take it anymore!" Her tone was louder than before, though still incoherent. She stared down at her hands, past the bottle folded gently between her arms. In a pathetic fit, she shook them, clutching her twitching fingers.

Ethaniel sighed, continuing his approach. At last, he crouched down beside her. She stared up at him, wide-eyed. Pooling tears fell in rapid streams down her face. "Eliza, would you like to know what I think?"

"Yes, Ethaniel." She replied, after a few moments of blatant processing.

"I think I can handle the crying, and the anger, and having to force you out of bed in the morning, because I know you're worth the effort." He paused, reaching out to take hold of the wine bottle. She clung to it momentarily, before relinquishing it to him. "What I can't handle is seeing you like this. Drunk and slurring each word, deprecating yourself. This?" He shook the bottle, making sure she focused on it for a solid moment. "This isn't a solution, it is a cause. Until you're able to learn that, you will keep falling back on this 'miracle cure'. You'll do it 'till you die."

He stood, letting his telekinesis take the bottle to the other side of the room. Holding out a hand, he offered her a way up. "Do you want to die, Eliza?"

Eliza didn't have to consider this. The answer was clear enough. "N-No!"

"Then don't continue to force death upon yourself. Get up, Eliza."


~*~*~*~

Get up, Eliza.

Get up...

Get up...

Get up!


Eliza sucked in a sharp breath, the simple act causing a vicious stabbing pain in her side. She hissed, clutching her side with numb fingers. Slowly, she sat up, strained muscles pulling at the movement.

How long had she been asleep? A hand shot to the mud caking her face. It was dry. A glance at the sky informed her that it wasn't raining. How far had they traveled, exactly? It didn't matter. She'd make her way back home eventually. For now, she had to get her bearings. This place, wherever it was, was a haven for Samael. That meant she wasn't safe. Not yet, at least.

Pulling herself to her feet unsteadily, she took her first look at her surroundings. What she saw amazed her.

Up in the sky were thousands of lights. Like stars, but hung in midair. They didn't twinkle, staying firm in their nigh orange coloration. And they were so close, closer than any star she had ever seen. It was as if she could touch them. Perhaps she could, in this foreign place. Once the mission was done, she would make a point out of approaching these wondrous lights. For now, though, she had to focus on the task at hand.

A row of tall evergreen trees about three hundred yards away surrounded her, the thick boughs interlocking and creating a wall that was difficult to see beyond. She shook off the feeling of entrapment, continuing her sweep. A fine brick building was only a short distance away, made up in a style of architecture Eliza hadn't witnessed before. Upon seeing it, Eliza tensed. It was more than likely that this building housed her enemy. Were the others already within? She couldn't hear any sort of commotion...perhaps they were already dead.

Eliza patted the sheath where her dagger had been, scowling as she recalled it being thrown from her hand. She'd have to rely on her magic, which was practically nonexistent against someone of Samael's caliber.

Creeping toward the building, she willed adrenaline to come to her aid. None joined the battle, however, leaving her stranded. She could feel just how sluggish she was. By the time she had approached the building, she had stopped trying to be stealthy. At this point, Samael knew she was coming. It was only a matter of when, she supposed.

Walking around the building, she searched for an entrance. There was only one, in what she presumed to be the front. Surrounding the door was two large windows, a peek inside revealed to her racks of clothing in bright fabrics and strange designs. Things one could only find in Sinstead, though the makeups were foreign to her, and this was certainly not the crowded city of debauchery.

Gritting her teeth, Eliza pulled on the plain silver doorknob, marveling as it opened easily for her. She had been expecting some form of resistance. Then again, Samael gave off the image of a cocky asshole. Stepping inside, she tried to leave the door hanging open. As if by magic, though, it swung closed slowly behind her.

Samael had to be there.

"Samael!" Eliza called, throwing all caution to the wind. For a few moments, she waited. When no one popped out of the darkness, she began searching the premises. Finding...nothing.

Absolutely. Fucking. Nothing.

Doors marked with the words 'MEN' and 'WOMEN' lead her to rooms full of curtains hanging on metal rods, all of which guarding empty alcoves. Around the main room that she had walked into there were strange pieces of merchandise made of clear or semi-transparent material Eliza had never before seen. It was hard to the touch, but when she put her hand behind it she could see through it. The clothes on the racks felt so very soft, in colors brighter than she could ever have imagined from fabric.

While this was all well and good, Eliza was extremely disappointed. After all, Samael was nowhere to be found, there were no ghouls or the dead bodies of those who had jumped in before her. It was just an empty shop of some sort. Eliza concluded that they had all been dropped off at different locations. An advanced portal trick, but one Samael could surely pull off.

Taking advantage of what she had been blessed with, Eliza stripped out of her clothing. Reluctantly, she abandoned her yellow hood, which was little more than a tattered piece of fabric stained with blood and dirt. She traded it out for the strange soft clothing, picking out a black outfit with leggings that hugged her body like a second skin and an overly-thick, hooded blouse that draped over her body like a blanket. It didn't combat the itching on her flesh from the mud she had rolled in, but it was comfortable and nondescript.

Leaving the shop behind, she stepped into the cool night. She stared, for a moment at the evergreen trees surrounding her. Then, at the strange lights in the distance. Samael was out there, somewhere.

She swore to herself that she would find him.
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