Old Regrets

I Mis My Best Friend (I hope we Can See Eachother Again)

At this point, I don't care who see's this Shawn. The only people who MIGHT be reading this is YOU and your wife, Vivian.

I am through with the pity party. The fucking manipulation, and you not letting go when I have asked to you to leave me alone.

Why don't we talk about the past, since you cannot seem to let go. Why don't we discuss you wanting me to leave my husband, how you were NEVER accepting of most things in my life. You REALLY want to know what happen that ONE night last year, after I deiced to stay faithful to my husband? Let me fill you in since I didn't have the fucking heart too then.

You got drunk (like fucking normal, and that's another reason why I left our friendship), and you thought I had been drinking. I hadn't, I didn't want to drink. You called me and stated that you were glad that I had left my husband, and that my child would not be coming with me to move in with you. You said that I had fell right into your plan and that you were finally happy I was with you. You were going to do anything you needed to have me in your life, no matter who is destroyed in the process.

That is why I hung up and never returned your calls. I went home that night to my husband and fixed things. I was fucking stupid to think my BEST FRIEND would deliberately try to ruin a marriage. Take advantage of the fact that I was in a rough spot with my husband at that time. Also telling me that my mother was manipulating me, when it was ME who made my own choices. No one else made my choices for me. I FUCKED up, but I accepted it and moved on. Fixing things in my marriage. That is why I took that photo of me and my husband the day after that said conversation with you:

Even after my husband asked me to stop talking to you, I still did. However, I asked you to stop drinking. You didn't. You never listened to anything I asked of you or when you asked for my options, you never listened then either. Every time god damn time I had to go so I could spend time with my family or start dinner, you ALWAYS had a pathetic look and would tell me "good-bye" in the most depressing ways. You were never happy at the fact we were still friends, even after everything happened.

There was another night my husband went out with one of his friends, and we deiced to stay up, have a drink at the fact I was changing my life for the better with my new job (even though you didn't want to accept it. Never once did you tell me you were proud or happy that I got such a great job. It was always something negative). You got drunker quicker than I did, but I remember some of the stuff you told me. Plus, if you remember, that was also the same night I started to pull away from our friendship. You were dating Vivian, and you said that you would leave anyone in a heartbeat (even if you were married), to come back to me if I was ever available again. You were with Vivian because you were tired of being alone, and you HAD to think about marriage soon because being in your 30's and not married was depressing. You hoped that my marriage would fail and that you could be with me again. You said that you were going to continue to try as long as you could so we could be together. Shawn, I couldn't believe you said that.

I am done running. I done trying to protect my privacy, and asking you to stop speaking to me, or of me. You say that I have changed for the worse. You could be right, or you simply have no FUCKING clue what has happened since I have stop spoken to you. I have lost Sky, Lily, and Jake all in under one year. My fucking furbabies.. even Sky, she died before her first birthday. I damn near lost my mother. Someone I hold dearly to me, since god knows how much longer I could possibly have with her (one day, or 50 more years... who the hell knows anymore). I almost fucked up the best damn thing to my child and me.. my relationship with my husband. I am grateful that he accepted me back, grabbed my hand and pulled me into reality. My protection orders have been up since January from John. I miss my father, and I have to struggle with the fact that John is no longer in my life because I refuse to put up with the abuse anymore from him. I have to watch my mother suffer from PTSD from John, her health because of John. I have to deal with a ex-husband who doesn't want ANYTHING to do with my child, and yet screams in court I do not let him see him or how much of a bad parent I am. I am struggling to keep my job because of my health. I lost my child in October... and there was no reason for me to miscarry. I lost my FUCKING CHILD!

So thank you for telling me I changed for the worse. It makes me feel like everything that has been going on is my fucking fault, and that I have been deserving this shit storm in my life. I do not want someone in my life who thinks like you have been. Who wanted me to leave my husband. People come and go, and some are meant to stay. We were not meant to stay in each others life.

So now that I opened more wounds, and more scars to heal from. Leave me the fuck alone. I will not longer be attending this site. Stalk my damn Facebook. I will never download Skype or create another username in hopes you won't find me. I don't go on my Steam account anymore because I don't use my computer anymore. Plus my Facebook.. stalk it. I don't give a shit. However, I will be leaving that too. Everything else has changed, and you know that.

I am sick of drama, past shit always popping up. I have become a person who wants nothing to do with the world anymore. I don't care if it crashes and burns. All I care about is my child grows up happy, and healthy. I want him to have a happy childhood and hope he is more successful than me. I want to live a quite life with my husband, and my mother. How hard is it for you to understand this? To just leave me alone. Is that simply to much to ask for? @LoneSilverWolf

Stranded - Open Ocean

Farah Graceland Meadows

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Name:

Farah Graceland Meadows

Gender:

Female

Age:

Twenty-Four Years of Age

Birthday:

July 12th

Birth Place:

San Antonio, Texas

Height:

Five Foot' Six

Weight:

One Hundred and Sixty Five Pounds

Build:

Average, slightly strong

Eyes:

Blue/Green

Hair:

Dirty Blonde. Past the Shoulders. Always down.

Skin Tone:

Fair

Tattoos/Scars/Piercings:

None

Previous Occupation:

Pre-Medical Student - Masters in Biology

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Independent * Stubborn * Loyal * Introvert

Sexuality: Straight
Relationship Status: Single
Personality: Farah is a very difficult person. She grew up understanding that she had to be independent. No man (or women) would ever take care of her. She was born in this world alone, and she would be leaving it alone. Thinking this way is what lead her to become stubborn in her own ways. She will get her way, no matter what. However, she will not hurt people in the process of getting what she really wants. She will avoid conflict as much as possible, but will engage if she has too. She can become very loyal to people once they can prove that they are loyal to themselves and the people around them. She is respectful, but will only show respect for so long if the people around her do not share it back. Being a quite person, she will not go behind your back and stab you. She will tell you things to your face that could be difficult to hear or understand, but she will not do it in front of a crowd. Crowds make her quite and shy.
Trust is something that isn't earned easy with Farah. Being a introvert means not wanting to share things with others. She will play nice, but will get down and dirty to protect herself. She does her best to stay out of the way, but is a very hard worker. She will get things done when asked, and will go the extra mile to ensure that things will remain in order and nothing will change dramatically. She hates change, and cannot handle it very well. If things change in a short amount of time without prior knowledge, she becomes slightly unstable with her emotions. Decisions aren't easy, but once she makes her choice, she will stick with it and will not change her mind.
She is capable of loving, but has a hard time wanting a relationship with a man or possibly a female. She has never shown interest in wanting a relationship, but no person has came close to showing her the right ways of being loved. Being a closed person and not sharing the past, it's hard to make her fall in love with someone. It's difficult to hold onto friendships (even now), since trust seems to run thin in today's society.
History:Farah grew in the south part of Texas. Her parents made a living off of raising cattle and horses. Her parents instilled in her to become a hard working women. They hardly ever went into town for anything, unless it was for church or for medical care. Everything else was within reach of the ranch, including a small garden and small farm (chickens, goats, etc.). She grew up being the only child of the family. Her parents never spoke of family, so she knew very little of her family while growing up. Her parents claimed that they were bad people and they the outside world was a dangerous place to live and that no one would ever take care of her.
With this being her up bring, her father was also physically and mentally abusive to her mother. Yet, never to Farah. However, most the time, her father would ignore Farah or just get after her for the smallest things. Her mother home-schooled her. At a very young age, she learned to enjoy books and writing. Her mind would run wild, only wondering what the outside world really was like. They had no T.V., but a radio to listen to old music of her fathers choosing. She learned to take care of the house, and the farm while her father tended to the ranch.
In her teens, Farah expressed that she wanted to help people. Go to college and become something wonderful. She loved the thought of changing the world in some shape. However, her parents forbid her to go forth with her dreams. They demanded that she found a nice young man at church to marry, and live out her life just like her mother and her future children. Farah was far from pleased about this idea. With the help of her pastor, she was able to apply to colleges without her parents knowing. When she got 3 acceptance letters, Farah told her parents that she was no longer going to attend to the farm and would be leaving for college. Both her parents from that moment on stated they no longer had daughter and wished for her to never return to the ranch, since they felt she betrayed them.
Over the years of getting her Masters in Biology, she would write home in hopes her parents would change her mind, but nothing was ever written back. When Farah attended college, she learned her true colors. She learned that she couldn't trust no one, nor be in a "social" group. She was very scare of being around people. She didn't make any friends, nor have any kind of relationships with men since she could ever think men where just like her father. The fear of being abused and confined into a house with womanly duties.
When she graduated, she applied for Medical School to become a doctor. Slowly, her dreams where coming true. Learning how to become more social, building relationships, and overcoming personal battles, she still had a long way ahead of her before becoming a doctor.

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Likes:

1.Rainy Days
2.Reading
3.Learning to be creative

Dislikes:

1.People who are bossy
2.Being told what to do
3.Not being understood
4.Repeating herself
5.Angry people

Fears:

1.Not being accepted
2.Losing her dreams
3.Becoming like her mother

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Stranded - Open Ocean

@Akayaofthemoon No problem! I can wait on the RP till I can get more likes!

Opps! I meant to change the name to Farah! I was going to name her Willow, and ended up not liking the name!

Arranged Marriage

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Awesome. I will have my CS up in a few!

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Maybe architecture? Great way for them to work on a project together.

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@Carmel Cat :) I don't mind either way! I will get my CS up in a few. Can't wait!
What Occupation would you like our characters share?

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@Carmel Cat Here is the OOC and CS! If you need help, let me know!

Arranged Marriage

Arranged marriages aren't as uncommon as you think today. They still happen all over the world, for many different reasons. To combine families, to gain something from the other party, family traditions, or whatever the case might be. This story takes place when two young friends grow up together. The girl doesn't know that her family has already arranged a marriage for her, yet she is in love with her best friend that she grew up with. He finds out through a grapevine, and pleads her to runaway with him. However, she can't lose her family and follows what her family wants... a arranged marriage. Never meeting the man, nor know nothing about him, she meets him for the first time on her wedding day. From that moment on, she lost her best friend, and only person she truly loved.

Years later, she is successful in her job... yet in a abusive relationship. Her job ends up hiring a new person; her ex-best friend. Trying to avoid him, he ends up finding out that they will be working together in a project for the company. The pair of them agree to not bring up the past and just focus on work. However, the simplest things (brushing the hand, looking into each others eyes, etc..), they soon realize that there relationship is sparking up again, and old feelings are surfacing. The pair of them try to deiced what to do about the feelings. However, she finds out that he is engaged to another women, and her husband is furious about the thought of her being around her friend once more. What will happen? Will they take separate paths once again, or become the lost lovers they knew they should had been many years ago.

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Oh AWESOME! :) Well then, I guess I should set up a OOC then, huh?

I will post a OCC and a CS shortly!!