Emilia looked up hearing Lanns voice nearby. He had followed her. A new series of sobs choked her, loud and uncontrollable. He had followed her and she was so damn happy about it. She dared to hope that he stil cared, that he was not simply disgusted with her, because the girl he had slept with had been his cousin. Emilia didn't know what to do. She couldn't tell anyone, never! Who knew what would happen to Lann if anyone knew? God, he was her cousin! She cired out at the thought, pained. She had given her virginity to her cousin! And she had loved every second of it.
The happiness she had felt just an hour ago was completly vanished. The satisfying fatigue in her body had turned her limps into lead. She could not move, could not do anything but cry her heart out, hot tears streaming down her face as she held her hands over her mouth to stiffle her wimpering. She heard branches breaking closeby and looked up. Lann was getting closer, still calling her name. She wasn't sure what she wanted to do. She wanted him with her, comforting her, but the thought of the feelings she had for her own cousin made her not call out to him.
He found her anyway, breaking through the bushes. They gazed at each other, Emilias sight a blur from the tears. She sobbed audibly again, the took a deep breath, her voice a whisper as she finally managed to say something. "How?.." she sobbed again. "How could we not know?!" She swallowed the lump in her throat, choking her words out. "How could I love my cousin?[/i] she asked, her voice full of pain, the words that followed barely understandable. "How can I still love you, knowing that you're my cousin??" She covered her face with her hands, wanting to hide from the world.