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Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ohhhh I like it! That's a good idea! Perhaps the Soldier is the one that laughs in their faces like the Prince is dead you think I'd believe that? Kind of style haha

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

That was so much fun to write! They can't catch a break bless them! Poor Cas though, he doesn't know his dad thinks he is dead haha

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

“I’m not mad at you. I understand why. I just, I’m too warm and I can’t eat anymore. I’m sorry.” Iris sighed softly as she rubbed her temples feeling the headache transpire from the whirlwind of emotions she felt. She knew deep down she couldn’t be mad at him; it wasn’t his fault they couldn’t be together, and he was right. As much as she hated to admit it even if they spent this time together or even tried with no strings attached when he was back at the Capital that would be it. They would never see each other again. The disappointment now would be far better than the heartbreak they would feel later on when they departed. Plus, she knew she was being an idiot at the idea of some kind of fling, there was no way she’d be okay with it meaning nothing because it meant everything to her. A part of her knew deep down that she’d never had a fling before, that just wasn’t her and as much as she knew she had dated Ethan she was certain they’d never done anything serious. Probably why he was a bit of a dickhead.

Glancing up as she felt the vibrating she was slower to catch on unlike Cas. Watching as he spun around to the window, she pushed herself off of the sofa on unsteady feet to join him wanting to see what was wrong. Forcing herself she made it to Cas to catch sight of the huge bulky aircrafts, feeling her heart drop at the site she recognised them as bombers. This hadn’t been the first time she had seen them, and she doubted it would be the last either. Looking aghast as she watched them she could feel her heart start to race at the idea they were coming for what remained of Bel Bicis, but as the hatched opened she could only watch in horror as a bomb was dropped onto the next district over. The one they would have been reaching had they not had to stop.

It was like a ripple effect; the ground shook beneath her and the building crumbled at the pressure. Falling to her knees much like Cas she grimaced as she looked up towards the ceiling, a small crack had begun to form running across the ceiling dangerously. “Cas. We have to go. Another quake we will be buried alive.” Whispering hurriedly as she scrambled to her feet the adrenaline pushing her through as she grabbed the backpack scurrying to put everything away that they would need. Already she was panting with effort, but they couldn’t hesitate, they could not delay as right now their very lives were at stake.

I can’t believe he would do this. Does he not realise Cas could be here? Worrying thoughts crossed her mind as she just about threw the backpack on her back before forcing herself to move to the door. Iris could feel her feet were unsteady and she knew the fast movements was making her feel sick, but she had to ignore it. They had to get out of here. The next district was probably in a state of panic meaning it wouldn’t be best to go there just yet, but they had to get out of this building at least. Just in case another quake toppled it over causing it to collapse in on itself.

Feeling her whole-body tremble as she moved out of the door to make their way to freedom it was a grim reminder of what those bomb could cause. Flashes of bodies crossed her mind; innocent people would now be dead all because she had been stupid enough to kidnap the Prince. This is all my fault.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Yaaay! I can feel the heartbreak poor things :(

Ohhh I like that! That would be pretty interesting too! And kind of scary at the same time :3

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Trying to avoid his gaze she didn’t want him to see the hurt in her eyes because she felt shameful over the fact, she had gotten her hopes up for a brief second. It was foolish of her to get her hopes up over him and the idea of them being together. She was a fool and she felt the stab at her heart with his words. I’m such a fool. I should never have said anything, I should never have thought it could work or even got my hopes up. The deafening thoughts made her feel heavy and everything was beginning to weigh down on her as the thoughts continued to spiral.

Although he told her not say it and although his words spoke about how she had been a better woman than anyone he met it fell on deaf ears. All she could focus on was the fact she was not good enough and that she would never be good enough for him. Feeling her lower lip tremble as she tried to push back the immense amount of emotions she felt as she didn’t want to break in front of him. Blinking away any hint of tears she tried to keep herself calm but with the high fever still apparent it was hard to keep them under control as much as she tried. I am not good enough, no matter what he says I will never be good enough for him. Who was I kidding? After everything I have done to him too, of course he wouldn’t want to be with me. Of course, I’m not good enough.

With her eyes downcast she could see the food now set in her lap from him and looking at the food only sent another wave of nausea through her. Focusing her little energy to keeping herself composed she could already feel herself growing weaker at the effort. Trembling in her place she looked at the food biting her lip she sighed, knowing deep down she could eat but she had no appetite for the food. All appetite had been lost and even the idea of drinking water made her feel sick. No. I won’t be finishing this, I can’t bring myself to anymore. Thinking to herself as she looked between the food and the bottle of water she had been given. Shaking her head, she moved putting the plate onto the coffee table with shaky hands before settling herself back onto the sofa.

The heat was too much and without even thinking it through she tossed the blanket to one side sighing heavily. As much as she knew how right he was, that it would be easier if they didn’t get too caught up with one another because parting would only be harder, she still hated to hear it. The way her heart longed for him wasn’t healthy and if they had become close once more the parting would be worse. Unable to find any words for him she didn’t speak, she just let him distance himself and busy himself as she tried not to look like she was moping on the sofa heartbroken.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

There we go! Sorry for the delay.

Work has gotten pretty stressful right now and I've got so much to deal with! I'm so tired haha. How has the project been going?

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Feeling him move closer, moving the bowl of lunch he had made for her onto the coffee table she felt the butterflies in her stomach. Hopes began to rise that perhaps maybe they could be close once more, that maybe it would be okay. The idea that they could just go back to normal crossed her mind, the feelings had resurfaced, and she felt nothing but desire for him once more. Iris wanted nothing more than to just hold him, feeling his warmth and touch once more and she felt excited when he had tentatively edged closer. Closing his eyes as if to kiss her.

No. Feeling her heart stop as she didn’t feel his lips, unable to open her eyes just yet because she wasn’t ready to face the fact that they couldn’t. As much as she knew in her heart that they shouldn’t be thinking of this or egging it on together it didn’t stop her from wanting it. Finally opening her eyes, she could see he was still close to her, he hadn’t pulled back yet, and she could feel his warmth breath hitting her skin making her heart flutter in anticipation.

I know. I shouldn’t. We shouldn’t. Reasonable thoughts crossed her mind as she did agree with him, he was right in every sense that they shouldn’t be doing this but yet they were still close unable to break apart. “I know.” Whispering her words in disappointment, she didn’t want to admit to him as he voiced what they were both thinking, “I know we can’t be together. I will never be good enough and I understand, but I can’t help but feel this way for you. I can’t help but want this.”

Feeling her blue eyes soften as she looked him in the eyes, her hands now moving to touch his gently. Taking his hands in her own feverish ones gently as she caressed his skin with her thumbs. “I can’t stop these feelings for you. I can’t stop wanting to kiss you, hold you and… just be with you. I want that and a part of me doesn’t care if it’s only for now because that would be better than nothing.” She could already feel her heart breaking at the idea that they shouldn’t be doing this, that ultimately at the end of the road it would be the end of them whether friendship or not and she didn’t want that.

There’s nothing I can do, nothing he can do. We will never be together. The gut-wrenching thought crossed her mind, But… what if it means nothing? What if it’s like friends with benefits? No who am I kidding. Feelings will always be attached to this. To us. Biting her lip as she looked at Cas, longing in her eyes as she desired to be with him. Iris hadn’t been able to bring herself to move away from him, the pull to be close to him was still strong even with the reasonable thoughts that they couldn’t be together.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ah brilliant to hear!

They really are, least he came to his senses!!

I won't be able to post tonight sadly :( I had a stressful day at work and I just want to sleep.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Oh gosh that sucks! Thankfully you managed to fix it yourself though!

I don't blame you for being tired sounds like it was quite stressful!! I hope tomorrow is better for you :)

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Oh gosh! What's the update? Was there anything they could do?