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Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Awh ;A;

That's quite the plan brewing, I will be fun to see Miles and Jay a bit more! Iris would feel so awkward in their home though omg, she would try to do things around the house like let me help? Hahaha

Ohhhhh Jacob finding out would be so interesting too! Cause I can imagine his father not reacting well to finding out she has escaped haha.

Yeah I'll probably flit between povs :3 Not much more I can do with Iris right now haha.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ohhh I bet that was a lot of fun!

Only up north, we have a new store opening and I gotta go support it because they are all brand new.

I was going to ask, where did you want to go from here? Give it a few days with them both recovering? Or did you have anything else idea wise :3

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Don’t worry? I can’t help but worry. He has such faith in me, I should have faith in him that he will get me out of here… but I can’t. Why can’t I focus on the positive? Why can’t I just believe that it will be okay? Iris nibbled the bottom of her lip try desperately to cling to hope, but it seemed impossible for her. The idea of everything being fine was just not feasible for her. Sure, she had Cas fighting for her and she believed he would fight until her last breath to free her, but it felt different this time with their roles reversed. Whilst Cas was in their stronghold, she believed that his father would rescue him with the military. Of course, it didn’t happen, but he had found a way to try and escape until her father had caught him.

It was easy to try and break him out, he wasn’t exactly in some top-notch high security prison. My father was also passed out drunk most of the time and it’s not like he had guards. I wouldn’t have been able to break him out of the prison had it not been for help. Lost in her own thoughts she tuned out to the conversation between the security team and Caspain. Iris was focused on how the hell he would break her out, the Capital had far better high tech and security to keep her locked away until her fate was decided. No, I need to have faith in him, I should have faith… but.

Sighing softly as she kept her eyes downcast, she didn’t want to engage in conversation with the people around her. Engaging conversation with Caspain could be dangerous, they could report anything back and she didn’t want to get him in any trouble with what she assumed was already a troubled relationship.

“Well not to be too bold but, maybe we should all get some rest? Jacob is right your highness; you’ve only just started to recover, and rest is needed.” Harry spoke up trying to ease any sort of tension because they were both quite stubborn and he knew it. “I’m sure the prisoner also needs rest too. It’s not been too long since she come around.” Coughing as he looked between the three, the girl was not engaging in conversation and didn’t even look up when he spoke, but he couldn’t blame her.

“I have nothing scheduled for the day, I can stay here and keep watch. From what I gather the doctor has said to keep her in for a minimum of two days to ensure it doesn’t happen again and monitor it. My schedule can be cleared for the two days until she is moved back to the penitentiary.” Harry smiled looking from Jacob to Caspain in hopes they would just agree, it gave the Prince time to go home and rest and in two days the girl should be fine enough to go back to the Prison. To him it was a win situation until her fate was decided.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Oh wow! Omg Never Have I Ever, what a blast from the past with that game! Oh bless him, least you were there to take care of him!

Yeees! It was a good weekend, then I have a few days at work and then I'll be travelling for work for two weeks!

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

But I haven’t forgiven myself for what I did. Iris couldn’t help but think to herself even as Cas tried to steer her away from that notion, with not much luck but she had already spiralled when it came to her thoughts and feelings. Even when he said how they wouldn’t kill her she wanted to believe him, trust him, but she didn’t trust his father. Feeling his lips against hers still made her heart flutter, it was still just as amazing the first time to even now when things seemed bleak. It still gave her a slither of hope that things could be okay, no matter how far fetched it seemed. The words he spoke, the compliments from his lips did offer some comfort. It made her feel good if only for a second, to know that he thought she was amazing, incredible and beautiful. It was enough to bring a smile to her face if only for a second, but the brief glimmers of hope were not enough to pull her out of her inner turmoil.

Looking down again as there was a knock at the door, she flinched hearing Jacobs voice at the other side of the door reminding her of her place here. Though he had done nothing to her the security team still struck fear because of their close connection to the King and he was someone she still feared to this day. The smile dropped from her face as she focused her attention to the hands on her lap trying to stay positive for him, but she couldn’t. “I just don’t think it will work Cas.” Whispering as she felt herself shake gently, “They know Cas. They know.” Biting her lip as she shook her head blinking away the tears, so she didn’t cry again, “They… asked about you in questioning. I… I-I couldn’t lie. They know I love you.”

To her them knowing that she loved him was dangerous, his father would be told about the information from the interrogation and if he knew she loved him it would only make things worse. It would spell out trouble and he would probably claim how it was all fake, how she led him on from the beginning which wasn’t true, but she felt like his father would make sure they’d never be able to see each other. That coupled with the fact she was from the Scourge, had aided in kidnapping the prince and her father was the leader of the rebellion he had more than enough reason to have her killed. That would end any sort of relationship they had, even if she was sent back to the districts to lead whatever sort of life there was to be had there.

“I’ll try… to stay strong. For you.” Whispering as she glanced back at Cas offering a pitiful smile as she was unable to bring a true one to her face. Pulling away from him she nodded to the door knowing it had to have been a minute and she didn’t want him getting into trouble, not with this security team who would report directly to the King.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ohh very nice! Sounds like a pretty fun weekend though!

Hey no worries! Oh gosh how drunk did you guys get?

I had a good weekend! We had a huge DnD night for my friends birthday were we all had some alcohol which was fun!

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Once she had opened up her emotions it was hard to stop it, the tears wouldn’t stop coming as she held onto Cas who was trying to soothe her through her sobs. Already her mind was racing from the fact she had tried to conceal it, the fact she wasn’t as strong as he may have thought she was to other thoughts how pathetic she must look right now and what an absolute mess she had to be. That she couldn’t handle being interrogated by the soldiers or being in a prison locked away for her crimes like she should be. It was all ridiculous thoughts but with all the pressure and emotional turmoil her mind was unforgiving making her truly believe she was not worth it.

I committed treason; how can you make that better? Words she desperately wanted to ask him, but she couldn’t find the courage because neither of them would really like the answer to it. Death was the most common answer, but perhaps they would pardon her and allow her back into the districts as she had helped him home. It was funny, they had spent so much time on an adventure in the districts breaking him back into the Capital and now roles were reversed, she was the captive but she felt like their options for breaking her free were very limited. Security in the Capital was vastly different to the districts.

Iris was calming down slowly, and she was trying to control her tremors, his gentle touch and kisses made her feel loved by him and of course gave her a brief feeling of joy. The way he brushed away her tear stained cheeks confirming to her just how much she meant to him prompted a slightly smile from her as she looked at him with puffy red eyes. “I don’t think it will be that simple Cas.” As much as she wished it could all be over, that with a snap of his fingers everything would be normal, and they could just live some sort of life together, but that would never be possible.

Reaching up with her pale hand she touched his cheek gently as her smile wavered on her face looking at Cas, “You know the crimes I have against me. I’ll never be able to take back what I did to you and that’s something I have to live with.” Rubbing her fingers against his cheek she let her hand drop to her side before looking down at her lap, eyes downcast in shame.

“I love you Cas, but… I. I’m not strong enough to go through that again, the questions… the interrogation.” Already she could feel the tears well up in her eyes again as she tried not to remember the questioning, but the imprint it had left on her was hard to forget. “I’d rather…" Hesitating before she said the next part. [color]=f49ac2] "I’d rather they just kill me already, let’s not pretend that’s not the punishment.” [/color] It was something that she had been thinking about, she had accepted the fact she was most likely to die. What’s the point in me living anymore anyway? Thoughts she didn’t dare to voice out loud to Cas.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

No worries! That sounds like a great night!!

Ohhh I hope you have fun with the games and drinking! That will be me tomorrow night :3

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

It was strange, Iris didn’t know how to feel as she saw him walk inside commanding an air of authority about him. Split between her emotions of wanting to hold him, to just be in his arms and forget about everything the other part, the fearful part of her instantly thinking that maybe he was here to tell her about her death. Or maybe he was here to tell her how he had used her to get back home, all ludicrous thoughts of course but with everything that had happened she knew she would deserve that kind of betrayal considering what she had done. It would be karma coming back to bite her.

Though the way he tried to get rid of Harry didn’t match with her thoughts of him coming to announce her death, the security guard could be present for such news after all they probably knew about her fate before she would find out. Watching the exchange as Cas changed tactic as the guard had said how Jacob knew which room she was in she felt nervous, the idea of being alone with Cas in the room made her feel light headed because she knew she had to keep her emotions in check. Iris had to be strong, make him think she was okay because then he wouldn’t be angry, because ultimately even though his father had ordered her arrest his father was in the right. She was a traitor to the crown, part of the rebellion that had hurt the crown Prince.

Seeing Harry leave the room she heard the door close behind him and before she even had time to think she felt Caspains arm around her. Comforting her. Apologising when it wasn’t his fault, it was her fault and he shouldn’t take the blame for any of it. Hesitating to return the hug she knew she was feeling overwhelmed, but she tried to make her voice sound strong. “I’m fine, honestly. Nothing happened.” He didn’t know what could have happened to her, she had hoped Jacob wouldn’t tell and maybe he didn’t. Maybe she could get away with pretending to be fine, though her heartbeat quickened as she tried to calm her emotions and keep them in check. “D-Don’t worry about it.”

Iris’ breath hitched in her throat as she stumbled over her words, feeling him pull her in closer and the familiar scent of him caught her off guard breaking through the cracked walls she was trying to keep up. Within an instant her walls came crumbling down and she couldn’t kid herself anymore, she couldn’t keep up the act as she finally returned his hug, her own grip weaker than it should be as her body shook gently. A barrage of emotions flooded out of her, first came the tears and then the sobs as she was unable to stop the gate that opened of her emotions. Iris wasn’t stable and as much as she had wanted to appear like she was fine she was far from it; she was a mess and she didn’t want him to see her like this. Not when he had been through hell because of her, not when it could have an impact on his relationships in his life because she was just one person and he had an entire nation to think about.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

It's so cute though bless him, he's barely just recovered! ;A;