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Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Whilst Iris had changed, she thought on his words, he didn’t date models because of the drama and trouble it caused. It made her curious about the subject and she didn’t let it drop when she had returned in the new outfit, “So models are not worth the trouble… So, what is your type? I thought all the high born boys would want some sort of model, they must look stunning.” To her it was innocent question, she wasn’t interested in him in the slightest but she wanted to know why he wasn’t interested in models because she assumed that all the high borns would adore and want to date a model. Did Cas feel the same? Would he have ever dated a model? It did for a split second make her doubt herself and her own looks when the boys could probably have any model going, what did Cas see in her when he could have anyone in the kingdom swoon over him?

“Oh well… dresses aren’t easy to come by in the districts.” Iris smiled answering the question from earlier as to why she didn’t wear that kind of attire, “And trust me the dresses you can get your hands on… well yikes, much prefer jeans and a jumper compared to that. They all seem to be grey and that is not a nice colour… but then I guess most clothes are pretty faded out there.” Hearing the compliment from Miles of her looking great in the dress she kept the smile on her face, but found it dropping ever so slightly at the mention of Cas texting.

“A week?” It was hard not to be shocked; she should have expected something like that, but lockdown for a week. What if they started searching houses for her? She knew that she’d be here in his home for a little bit but hearing that it was definitely going to be at least a week felt strange. I won’t be able to see Cas for a week… what if… what if he has a change of heart about us? What if it was all just because the trauma pushed us together. The pang she felt at the idea of them being apart for so long did worry her, she knew she was overthinking it and worrying on it further would only upset her and she knew she was a little on edge already with everything.

“Ahh…” Feeling her cheeks heat up in embarrassment as a sheepish smile crossed her face, “I’ll be honest I don’t know many card games.” A thought flashed back to how Harry had tried to teach her a card game in the hospital, but she had been so disconnected it didn’t work out. “I doubt you want to play snap.” Laughing a little nervously as she admitted about the card game. “Well… I might know more as I play, but I just can’t remember if I ever did.” Rubbing her arm feeling a little nervous she looked at Miles, “We could watch something? I’m sure there are loads of movies I have never seen before. Unless you really are okay with teaching me how to play cards.”

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

How exciting!! Do you have most bits sorted with the house?

A bottle of Gin some fancy flavour which was like made in the town I went too! It was super sweet.

No worries! Did you want me to work on a skip now or after you've including the last bit you wanted to include?

Haha a whole week until they can even see each other, poor Miles stuck in that awkward position too hahaha.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Still using the towel beneath her fingertips, she continued to dry off her hair as she met Miles’ gaze smiling softly at the fact, he had brought quite a few different choices from his sisters’ closet. Happy that her hair wasn’t dripping wet anymore and was towel dried enough to not cause discomfort she took the towel in her hands and folded it up before placing it neatly on the table, she’d ask were to put it later as right now she was interested in the different options he had chosen for her. “You sure she won’t notice? I don’t want you getting into trouble for me.”

Moving towards the pile on the bed she began to look through the choices, colours and variety of tops bottoms and dresses. There was quite the choice for her and a small part of her was excited at the options and she couldn’t wait to just try them on, it had been such a long time having the option to choose what to wear. Iris didn’t count the options she had at home in the districts because the only options she had to choose from were which torn jeans she’d wear or a jumper or a plain T-Shirt. Never had there been a choice like there was in front of her. Though I guess when I went shopping with Cas, I was able to choose a little, I just felt a little bad. I didn’t want to take the piss with him. I still don’t want to take the piss now. Is this really okay?

Finding her thoughts trail off she looked back down at the pile of clothes this time noticing a dark red dress, fingers brushed against the soft fabric as she felt herself smile. It’s his favourite colour, I doubt I’d suit such a daring colour, but maybe I’ll try it for him one day. I’m sure he’d like it. Trailing her fingers from the dress to another navy-blue garment she picked it up in her hands holding it to her body contemplating on wearing this outfit with a smile on her face. “It’s not often I wear dresses.” Speaking to herself more than anything, Miles didn’t need to know what kind of clothes she would usually wear, he probably didn’t care either. “I don’t count that hospital gown as a dress either.” Or that hideous pink number that Ethan wanted me to wear. Finding herself cringe at the memory of how that had meant to be a dinner date, thankful that instead the military had raided the prison and they had made their escape.

“Thank you, for doing this, finding me clothes too.” Deciding that she would go with the blue number she grabbed the other essentials and picked the towel back up to return it to the bathroom. “I won’t be a moment.” Moving back to where she had showered, she knew that around the corner was private so she could change there, and she was certain she had caught sight of a laundry hamper in the bathroom. Dumping the towel and the clothes that Miles had leant her into the hamper she got herself changed into his sister’s clothes for the day.

It was hard to stop the smile on her face as she moved back out the bathroom dressed in more feminine clothes, grinning as she looked back at Miles. “It’s nice. I feel somewhat normal again.” Iris wasn’t even conscious of the scaring on her leg from the bear trap, the incident that had started this whole mess off in the first place. The dress wasn’t a perfect fit, but it wasn’t tight on her, just a little bit baggy.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Oh wow! That is a lot of cases! Hopefully it won’t take too long though.

Oh yeah! I forget 4th of July is celebration over there! A little BBQ game party sounds amazing! I’m sure you will have a great time! Hopefully the headache will be a lot better by then.

I literally can’t wait, being away from my partner and cat for so long has been hard, but I’ve been needed where I am. The team got me such a sweet leaving gift as a thank you ;A;

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Oh gosh don’t apologise! I know it’s busy for you with the house and getting it all sorted on top of the corona stuff too. I hope its good news though! It sucks they don’t have the results back yet :/ I would have thought they would have focused on something like that. Either way take your time, don’t rush! I completely understand~

I hope the headache goes soon! Haha nice! Video game night is always the best. I’m travelling back home tomorrow; can’t believe I’ve been away from home for two weeks. I can’t wait to see my cat!! I’ve missed her so much ;A;

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Busy busy! I had such a busy day here haha. Work has been quite crazy!

Ohhh did you pick out the granite for the kitchen yet?

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

As the water beat down on her skin she was hoping it would wash away her worries, get rid of all the bad memories and even though she tried to hum in hopes it would distract her from the flashes of memory, they continued to haunt her. Trembling as the hot water warmed her body she felt her lower lip tremble as she tried to push down the thoughts, forcing them to the back of her mind but it seemed her thoughts had something else in mind for her. No, please. Stop it. As if telling herself would force it down, would force it to stop but it didn’t.

Raising her hands to her head she gripped at her hair as she knelt down in the shower, water still beating down at her as she shook her head wanting it to stop. Please. It seemed the pleading word of please had been some sort of trigger, flashes of the interrogation seeped in and it almost felt like she was reliving it all over again.

“You’re right, you are a dead person walking. Just like your father, well he is no longer walking. He was executed more than a few days ago. Regis Nox-Fleuret the leader of the rebellion, he was killed for his crimes.”

It was like she could hear his voice, the mocking voice of Matthew who had interrogated her, unable to stop the shudder as the flashes continued. The reminder that her father was dead, and she still hadn’t processed it, she knew he was a bad person, but the way she had received his news still hurt.

“No words about his death? Surely you loved him, he was your father after all.”

I did love him, right? I know he made bad decisions. I know he hurt a lot of people, but. It’s not wrong to grieve for his loss.

“Ah, I get it. You probably think we are lying. Let me show you, just so you know it’s the truth.”

Flinching as the flash of images crossed her mind, the photos he had shown her of how they had killed her father like it was natural. Without noticing the tears had flowed from her eyes and she had begun to cry softly in the shower, the truth was that no matter how many fake smiles she put on she was still very much broken and hadn’t fully come to terms with everything. It was becoming apparent that however she was coping was not very well, but she tried to make out that it was okay.

It didn’t stop there, the words played over in her head, cringing as this time she could hear her own begs and cries for death. How she had begged for them to kill her as she had given up all the information they had wanted. Feeling lost in her own world of thoughts she tried to calm herself from her sobs, not wanting to let herself get caught in this downward spiral that she knew was beginning to affect her. I have to stop; I need to stop. Cas broke me out. I’m safe… I’m safe here. Repeating the words over and over she reached up shakily turning the shower off forcing herself to put a smile on her face trying to convince herself she was fine.

Using the towels to dry herself off she changed back into the loose-fitting clothes that Miles had supplied for now until there were other options and headed back to the bedroom. Feeling cleaner and a bit more comfortable she walked out of the bathroom back into the room as she continued to dry off the damp strands of her hair hoping she hadn’t been too long getting all caught up in her emotions.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Hey no worries! I hope you get everything sorted! Its so exciting :3

I'm so excited for you xD

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

“I feel like you’ve told me waaaay to much there.” Iris smirked as he spoke about how deep his sleep was, “If ever there is a pen lying around, I may just have to test it out seeing as you’ll be dead to the world.” Chuckling softly to herself as she made a light-hearted threat of drawing on his face whilst he slept to see if he truly was a deep sleeper as he said he was. In all honesty Iris would never dare do such a thing but making a light joke, keeping the mood light felt appropriate with him. Iris could probably insult him in jest, and he would just do it back and find it amusing, it certainly kept her spirits on the brighter side than usual finding it hard to just disconnect around him.

Smiling as he confirmed he didn’t need the clothes she nodded her thanks, at least she had something to wear especially as she was certain he had trashed the hospital gown. Good riddance. Thinking to herself as she folded her arms listening to him talk on about clothes, features softening with a gentle smile at the idea of something more feminine. Not that she wasn’t thankful for the shorts and T-shirt because they were comfortable, but she had slept in them. Plus, it did feel a little weird wearing a guy’s clothes when she had no relation to them at all. “Oh, that would lovely. It’s fine if not. I’m sure I can make these shorts and T-shirt look fashionable.”

Holding her hand up in a wave after the confirmation there would be towels, she headed into the bathroom to get a much-needed shower. It was hard not to feel anxious showering in his room, but she trusted in the fact it was private and she knew she was just overthinking things like she always did. Turning a corner, she could see the shower, but her eyes sought out something else, the closet to which the towels would be in. Smiling as she grabbed a big fluffy white towel it was soft just like the blanket, the blanket of course had the towel beaten hands down, but it didn’t have the rough feeling like the towels in the districts. These felt so soft and smooth she was almost entranced by it as her fingers brushed against the white fabric.

“Right, let’s see how to work this then.” Talking to herself as she placed the gathered towels down and reached into the shower playing about with the buttons. It took a few minutes but Iris felt like she had finally gotten it down, she knew which was which the water pressure the temperature and when she was happy with how warm it was she began to peel the clothes off of her body dropping them into a pile on the floor just to the side of the shower.

Ah, much better. Stepping into the shower she could feel the running water hit her skin and within seconds she felt relaxed, like this hot clean water was washing away all the bad things that had happened. Scrubbing the dirt Iris was just glad she had access to these basic things that made her feel human, there was nothing worse than feeling dirty and she was glad she was able to make use of the facilities whilst here. As she cleaned her thoughts tried to steer themselves into the wrong direction, things she didn’t want to focus on so instead she began to hum to herself in the shower hoping that humming the music would distract her from spiralling.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Same!

It's going to be so good.

Oh yes please! When you get a chance I'd love to check them out. Also who doesn't love a good meme page, I bet it's quite funny when you get to know the types xD

Ooooof! Hopefully dinner will make up for it then haha