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Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ohh 100% Though she is finding every excuse under the sun to not approach it and do something else xD

Ohh lovely! What kind of stuff are you going for this time? Is there a colour scheme?

I've been good! Working as always, but good otherwise :3 Though I'm a little worried about my cat, her ear is bleeding. Not now, but I think she's scratched herself and irritated the skin so I'm just a bit concerned for her.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Even as he held her she still felt tense unable to fully relax and take her mind off of her worries, though she was trying hard to divert her mind knowing she needed too because festering on it was not healthy and she knew she could become obsessive with it. It didn’t help with the fact she often felt guilty for discussing her issues with Cas, she felt bad because he shouldn’t have to shoulder it with her when he had his own problems and no doubt stresses that he was going through as it had been traumatic for him to be captured like he had. That and her own betrayal still weighed heavily on her mind that she had even done that to him. A part of her questioning herself on how she could say she loved him when she had done such a thing to him.

Feeling his hand run gently across her back it did feel soothing, to feel his touch as she tried to compose herself from her troubles not wanting to let it break her because she was strong and she could handle this. The fears would always be there, but then she hadn’t truly accepted what had happened from the moment they had touched back into the Capital. A part of her felt like she should have run after dragging him back, but she knew in her heart she couldn’t have left without knowing he would be okay after getting the treatment he needed.

Even with his confirmation that she needn’t apologise she still guilty for putting it on him, wincing at the idea of being honest with her feelings it was a huge bucket of emotions that she didn’t even want to deal with let alone getting him involved. “I know I can.” Trying to match his reassuring smile though she felt it falter briefly, but overall, he was right. They were safe right now; they could relax a little more together before they even had to think on what they would do next. Though before she could even consider what she would say next she caught the sly smile and then the suggestive whisper which gave her a slither of hope as she could easily latch onto that. Especially when it still excited her, and she melted into the deep kiss in hopes to forget about the time bomb of emotions waiting to just erupt.

It felt so natural with him and she felt the smile brighten on her face as she caught her own breath looking over at Cas hoping that her daze would continue because the nagging feeling was still there in the back of her mind. “I should hope not. Waking up next to you is something I never want to end.” Leaning up as she placed a kiss to his cheek before whispering in his ear cheeks heating up at the suggestive comment she was about to make. “Neither is sleeping with you.” Latching onto this subject was far easier than dealing with her emotions right now, plus she was only following his suggestion to relax a little.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Oh bless him, he's trying so hard! Though I think Iris is one step away from a complete meltdown, it's bubbling up away ready to just explode haha.

How have you been lately?

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Oh gosh yeah I didn't think of that! It will quite a lot of pressure for him all at once!

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Hearing the sigh, she knew she shouldn’t have mentioned it as it did put a slight downer on their moment together, on the wonderful morning they had after a good night’s sleep and enjoyable activities yesterday. Feeling a pang of guilt, she knew she should have just kept her mouth shut and thoughts and feelings to herself because now he would probably think on it like she had been. At least it only would have been one of them fretting over this and she was used to keeping her feelings to herself so she should have done it once more.

Even as she felt the kiss against her forehead and the arms wrapping around her tightly it didn’t offer any sort of comfort for her trouble, but she knew she was overthinking it all once more. Often she couldn’t turn her mind off from it unless she knew it was truly okay, but because there was a sense of danger an inkling towards not knowing the next plan it did set her on edge even if she denied it. There was a chance that this could be the last time she could hold Cas, touch him and enjoy the company because who knew what his father would do. They were being blissfully ignorant to it all, as if hiding from the problem would fix it and she wished it could. Iris wished that staying in the sunset veil together could be a permanent option, but it wasn’t and not knowing what they were going to do next unsettled her more than she liked to admit.

Closing her eyes as he nestled his head against hers, she tried to smile, tried to focus on the fact Cas was being positive to it all. That he’d fight for her so they could see each other and that he loved her, all nice things that she wished she could embrace but the negative was becoming more dominant and prone each day just waiting for the one thing to tip her over the edge. “You’re right, I should relax. I’m sorry.” Whispering out her words softly as she held him close, hand tracing gentle circle across his chest in hopes to soothe her own worries because she didn’t want to keep voicing them. “I love you too.” Smiling as she opened her eyes to look at him, trying so very hard to keep the negative side at bay.

“Let’s talk about something else, like breakfast. I don’t know about you, but I am pretty hungry.” Changing the subject as Iris began to focus on what they could have for breakfast knowing that it was just a buffer for her mind right now. Pretending everything was fine would be what she would do for now, Cas didn’t need to hear about her worries or problems because if she believed everything was fine then it would be even if for a short while. Faking it was easy enough, it scared her how natural it seemed to her and did make her wonder on past experiences but even thinking back on it was hazy as not everything had returned to her just yet. There was still parts missing of her memory which she hoped to get back.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Don't worry about it!

I was catching up with a few thjngs anyway, plus you know I'm always happy to wait.

I already feel so bad for Cas and nothing has even happened yet xD

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ohhhh yes I like it! It means big drama is on it's way and I can't wait :3

Ahhh yeah, that makes sense. I'm not a huge fan of that style either :3

I'm glad it's been good and you got that sorted! Ooof seven hour drive? That's quite a treck I hope it goes okay!

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Seeing him lay there with bed hair and the tired smile on his face made her feel warm inside, to know that she had a part in him resting well and he looked so relaxed and calm which was amazing considering all the crap they had recently been through together. “I’m glad, you look well rested. I don’t think I’ve ever seen you so calm before.” Smiling as she felt him pull her closer enjoying the warm feeling of his body against hers. It honestly felt amazing to wake up next to someone she genuinely cared about, to know that they were able too spend this time together even if it was briefly as she knew deep down this couldn’t become a regular thing.

Truth be told she worried for their future together, it could never be an official thing as she was certain he wouldn’t abdicate the throne. No matter what had happened with his father she felt like he would go back at some point, she couldn’t imagine him giving it up not because of the fame or the riches but because she felt like he would want to make a difference as King. Knowing that only made it difficult for them and right now she felt like they were on borrowed time together, there was nothing she could do about it. A girl like her couldn’t date the King, for one it would be improper, the people would hate her and on top of that his father would never allow it to happen.

Finding herself smile at his whine pulling her back down next to him on the bed she chuckled shaking her head, “We can’t stay in bed all day.” Though as she spoke, she wrapped her arms around him cuddling up to him on the soft bed enjoying the warmth once more. “I don’t want to sleep, not when I can be spending this time with you and making the most of it whilst we can.” Sighing softly as she trailed her hand across his upper body gently, “I’m worried we won’t be able to do this for quite some time. I have this bad feeling and it’s hard to ignore it.” Unable to hide her worries she felt it was best to be honest with him, open up a little because she was scared that after today something was going to go wrong. Either she was going to be imprisoned and killed, or something was going to happen with the rebels that had been quiet lately.

“I know it must seem silly; I’m probably overreacting but… I just. After everything it feels like it’s stacked against us.” Frowning slightly at the thought, knowing that it was never going to be simple for them. Though as she started to think on the negatives her mind couldn’t help but flash back to the death of her father, the aproveset drug and how she had honestly not recovered from that as it was just another thing she had pushed down in hopes that ignoring it meant she’d be okay.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Yaaaay, good idea! I've moved it to the morning for us :3

What's bluegrass? I don't think I've heard of that style before!

I hope you are having a wonderful time in California!