It's been a while, I should get on more. Just for this thread,of course. I'm going to get to work straight away and start my own series of rants and hopefully not ruin the flow of this current conversation. no promises.
Rant 1: my weaknesses in roleplaying and my apparent lack of ability or motivation to fix them.
This one is pretty much self explanatory except for what I am not so good at in this hobby of mine. I've been at the level I have in terms of roleplaying for about a year and a half or so, where I'm able to post a somewhat decent reply that satisfies whom I roleplay with. The posts are usually not too long and not too short, just enough to fit into what I would describe as a half-step above Casual roleplays. And this is what dissatisfies me. I've attempted to increase my understanding of many words in the english language not commonly used in day-to-day affairs,as well as the general length of my posts to no avail. I'm constantly stuck in this little void and I can't seem to muster the motivation and the brainpower to produce a post that flows easily and explains what I want it to easily. Another problem related to this is that I am appallingly horrible at sentence structure in my own native language, to the point where I doubt myself constantly when I write papers. I want out but I just can't seem to find my bearings in this vast sea.
Rant 2: Lack of muse and experience in non-1x1 roleplays. I am also not really good at roleplays with more than one other roleplayer in them. I used to a lot back a few years ago, but I had many bad experiences with them and thus stopped looking for them. The last time I was a part of a multi-roleplayer thread was 5 months ago and it only lasted 2 weeks due to inactivity and generally bad muse. Also, many of the threads that I see just don't strike me as interesting. All the threads that do have multiple roleplayers and an interesting premise tend to be in the advanced section, in which I have trouble due to said inconveniences in the first rant.
I have a few more, but I feel a bit better now that I've...gotten what I think are inconveniences on me off of my chest.