Deo’Irah
As Caleb recounted the story of his imprisonment, his torture, and his fall Deo’Irah’s face was calamitously stern–only her eyes betrayed her shifting emotions, between seething contempt and heart-wrenching compassion. She made a note to remember the name of the perpetrator of these misdeeds, the deigan mage, immediately–he would be delivered the consequences of his actions, at some point. The pain that he had already inflicted would be far harder to heal than to simply continue the cycle of suffering and deliver to him the suffering that he had rightly earned, but it was in the rigour of forbearance that goodness blossomed. What made goodness so much less of an alluring choice was indeed that it required one sacrifice something with no hope of reward–whereas evil… evil was typically very direct about its rewards. It was with that in mind that she chose the path of forbearance, electing not to focus on the vengeance of the past but instead on the building of a new future.
Caleb was not a mundane. So easily the quick children of man forgot the ravages of time, and though a hundred years was well over a typical lifetime to them it was much less monumental to the deigan, whose youthful abundance lasted until snuffed out. It was even less still to a divine, who would simply discorporate from Reniam and return to their native realms. This short-sighted notion of exile with no means of recourse was not one that she could rightfully permit Caleb to indulge himself in. Trapped in a vessel that disgusted him, yes, he would rather simply end it all and sulk–but it would not redress what had been done to him, and as a divine he would not heal from those wounds without closure. Until he knew that Hai’vreh’era could never make anyone suffer like he and Feevesha did he would fester and spoil from within, left eternally to the agony of a spiritual malaise without end. If he did not secure a patron, given that he had fallen… that agony could mutate him in ways that would only lash out at others, and that was not a permissible fate for him or the innocents he’d potentially hurt.
“There are not words to console you, Caleb, for the suffering and abandonment you have been put through. I would speak them if there were, but… I fear it is action alone that will bring you peace. Forever is a long time, and the years will curdle that hatred within you into something that might change you forever, in ways that you might not want–to cut yourself off from anyone who might offer you companionship cannot do you any good. If it isn’t too much to ask… would you put your faith in me? I cannot promise it will be fast… but I will do aught I can to ensure the pain you suffered ends with you, and to ameliorate your pain wherever possible. If I might be so bold… I do not think the Glittering Lord deserves your forgiveness, Caleb. The Gods are a wondrous source of power, of purpose and direction, but the closer they get to the abstract the further away they get from the real. If they are so removed from you that they cannot or will not even come to your aid, are they worthy of your fidelity, of your oath? I know you must not look favourably on this world that took Feevesha from you, but… it also had to be capable of producing her and people like her to begin with. If we live our lives, make our choices, according to the principles she felt strongly enough to sacrifice herself for… it is like the most beautiful part of her is with us still. It cannot replace her warmth and her life… but it can pave the way for new life, and perhaps there will be more people like her if we forge a world worthy of them.” Irah spoke, her tone becoming very soft and affable–there was always a distinct force with which she spoke, an intensity that could be felt behind her words, and here it seemed far less commanding and direct so much as earnestly hopeful. After she finished speaking she inhaled sharply through her nose and composed herself, taking a quick moment to ensure her robes still felt comfortable and straighten them out. She picked herself up after Sir Yanin’s extra round of questioning, nodding at his assertion that she should talk. Her eyes flashed over to Sir Freagon, curious as to what his reaction to her speech might have been, but it was impossible for her to read the man at all. Her thoughts turned immediately then to Jaelnec, and that he would likely be her best bet at getting some information on Freagon–he’d seemed quite smitten earlier, and she could leverage that to get him to open up a little… though she would have to be gentle. She didn’t know Jaelnec very well, but something in his earnestness and lack of confidence roused a protective instinct within her–he represented a lot of the innocence that she sought to protect and appreciate, and she still had much of that earnest goodness flowing through her in that moment… but, through those rose-tinted lenses, she saw a beautiful confluence of her two favourite things: an opportunity to do good, and an opportunity to advance her understanding of a situation and further her goals. Good… well, good did not have to mean impractical, did it?
She looked over at Lhirin, and remarked to herself how similarly she felt about him with this little lens of rosy pink as she did without. She put it aside, though she could not help the corner of her mouth creeping into a little smile for a second. She composed herself, gave everyone a meaningful glance, and settled last on Caleb. With how much energy he’d spent… she wondered if he was even capable of maintaining an illusion on himself at the moment–and given that the Lady Bor had been an adventurer of some renown, if it was worth attempting to deceive her. The cost was not insubstantial if things went awry, and here in Rodoria people were much more ready to listen to a tale of aspiring heroism than anywhere else in the world. They’d come here precisely to sing that very song and listen to what the Lady Bor had to say, so earnest diplomacy did strike her as the avenue most practised as well as most safe–though she wondered to what extent Sir Yanin would ask her obfuscate certain details to maintain peace before Caleb could be smuggled out and events settled. Still… as matron to the people they were trying to save, though an ersatz one, Deo’Irah was confident the penin would truly want what was best for her people above all else and was open-minded enough to have entertained a summoner to begin with.
“Now is the time to choose, then: diplomacy or subterfuge? I suspect we would be best served by diplomacy, though..?” she began directed at Caleb, but trailed off as she shot Sir Yanin an inquisitive glance to see if he had any thoughts or objections they needed to consider. Lhirin and Sir Freagon could be expected to voice their concerns should they arise, so it was simply Sir Yanin and Caleb she focused on–if neither had anything to add that would change their plans, she’d turn around to go outside and meet Lady Bor with the others in tow.