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Middle-Earth: Bright Stars & Durin's Folk { Wolf & Angel }

Kili could tell a part of Yavanna was almost desperate to get home; maybe she missed her family. He wondered how soon Legolas would come back to see Yavanna. He knew she would not admit it out loud, but Yavanna needed him. Legolas always seemed to be the one person that made Yavanna the happiest. She hadn't been the same, since they parted ways after everything that had happened, so he hoped. He would show up sooner rather than later, and surprise Yavanna. And hopefully, make her feel better down the road. His horse was racing after Yavanna's...who seemed to be speeding ahead; clearly enjoying being on a horse again.

As Yavanna rode, she couldn't help but think about her childhood. How her elder sister taught her how to ride a horse. Along with the Elven Soldiers of Rivendell and Lothlorien teaching her, how to fight when on horse-back. Even from a young age, Yavanna had enjoyed different challenges and how to over-come them. It also for a few moments, reminded her off sharing a pony with Fili, after they met Gandalf's shape-shifter friend. Which did score her an injury to the arm. But she had brushed that off, as he wasn't sure if they were intruding or not.

On the journey, Yavanna couldn't help but think of Legolas again. Hoping that he was well in the presence of the Dunedian warriors.

With all of them, on horses. The journey seemed to go much quicker, then on foot. It wasn't long before they were passing familiar scenery on their way to see his mother, with their return journey to Rivendell.

Middle-Earth: Bright Stars & Durin's Folk { Wolf & Angel }

Yavanna noticed the way, Saeril was watching her. Like she was always on guard about something. Feeling Saeril's touch, Yavanna gave her a slight smile. It missed the usual warmth and light to her smile. But she tried to do her best to look a little bit cheerful. She didn't question, Saeril's actions. As she knew, she was just being her usual motherly self. Not aware, that Saeril was lying to her aswell. And if Yavanna hated anything, it was dishonesty and lies.

Kili hugged his mother one more time, giving her a reassuring loving squeeze. Before he joined Yavanna and Saeril, climbing upon his horse, that was ready. As they all said their final goodbyes; Yavanna wishing for Dis to be well and thanking her for her hospitality. It seemed like everyone was ready to go.

As Yavanna climbed on her horse; it wasn't long before her horse was galloping off. With Saeril and Kili not far behind. It had been a while, since Yavanna had been on a horse. But to feel the breeze in her hair, was something she always loved. Her horse seemed to keep ahead of the group; almost like she knew the entire way towards Rivendell from the Blue Mountains.

Middle-Earth: Bright Stars & Durin's Folk { Wolf & Angel }

Yavanna had no idea what would await for their return in Rivendell. But she would surely have to face her two elder brothers; whom had returned home not long before she left with Thorin and his company. Yavanna wasn't entirely looking forward to the awkward re-union with either of them, since their relationship was frail. Yavanna never felt close to either of the twins, as sad as it was. It seemed like the two sisters were close, and the twins remained close together too...almost making them strangers then siblings at most. It was the truth. Not entirely too sure, what would make her feel better. But if there was any hope left, something might cheer Yavanna up upon her return home.

She nodded her head, towards Dis as she thanked her.

Kili smiled softly at his mother's touch. "I will." he reassured her as he kissed the top of her head softly. "Please, don't worry about me so much." he rubbed her arm gently. "I'll be back, before you know it." In truth, Kili had no idea when he would return. But he didn't want his mother to worry so much.

Middle-Earth: Bright Stars & Durin's Folk { Wolf & Angel }

Yavanna had kept more quiet, than she had previously been. Or at times, got her frustration out at practising combat skills. It was one of the few ways to keep her mind off of things. Her star light was dim and her eyes were still the sad crystal blue; since the day she and Legolas had parted. She knew, Saeril was worried for her. So was Kili. But she didn't always voice her feelings, the last few days. Especially around Dis. It wasn't about her. Everyone else was suffering too.

The young elf, slightly shook her head. "No...but I'll be better." Was Yavanna's answer. An answer she had given a few times over the last while. Yavanna wasn't sure, when she would feel better. But it would take some time for her to recover and feel more happiness...like she once used to feel. She watched the exchange between Kili and his mother. That soft tender moment; made her miss her own mother. And grand-mother even. Whom had been one of the main female presences in her life, that she looked up to.

Kili smiled at his mother's sweet words. "I love you too, Ma." he said as he rubbed her back softly. Hearing her voice crack, he gently squeezed her.

As Dis pleaded with them both; Yavanna smiled at her kindly. "I'll help keep him safe, I promise. From anything." she woved to keep Kili safe and she would. He was her family too. And she didn't want to loose him, like they lost Fili and Thorin. And she'd help prevent anything bad happening to him. "Kili is strong, he might get into trouble sometimes, but he is brave and strong. He'll be fine." she tried to reassure Dis a little bit. As she knew what a capable fighter Kili was.

Middle-Earth: Bright Stars & Durin's Folk { Wolf & Angel }

As the days passed in Ered Luin; Yavanna seemed to be struggling. Everything seemed to remind her of Fili and Thorin; which pained her. The loss felt more fresh again, in the mountains that were their home for a long time before they took back the Lonely Mountain. A few times, young Yavanna had found herself in Fili's old room, grieving alone away from the eyes of Dis, Kili and Saeril. Almost needing that time alone to fully grieve.
Even though she found Kili's mother, a warm hearted woman. Yavanna at times felt at odds next to Dis. Not sure wether it was just the timing of things; but she wasn't sure what to say to her. As nothing could really make the situation better right now. So Yavanna struggled to find the words, any words to say to her. But at the same time, Yavanna did appreciate being welcomed in her home, as a friend.

Kili and Yavanna took note of how Saeril's condition was getting worse and worse; the head-aches seemed to be more intense than the first few that either of them witnessed. And it worried them both. Worrying, something else might be wrong. Something that Saeril was not admitting too just yet.

As they were saying goodbye. Yavanna had just finished fastening the horse-seat, adjusting it slightly. Everyone was thankful for the transport and things offered to them, by the Dwarves on their journey to her home. Yavanna had to admit, she did miss her people. Her father and beloved sister the most. Even though she had two older brothers; their relationship was ever so shaky, it made missing them all that harder given the lies they had told her all these years. Yavanna could see how reluctant Dis was to let Kili go with them; given all that happened. So she couldn't blame her for not wanting to let him go. But at the same time, Kili was stubborn and wanted to be the man he was, by protecting Saeril and Yavanna. And that meant going with them.

Kili embraced his mother in a loving hug; giving her a soft squeeze. "I will be back, always...I promise." he said looking at his mother. He knew it was going to be a hard promise to keep, given what was going on. But Kili had no intentions of dying, or giving up on life...even if that thought may have crossed his mind a few times; after the death of Fili. He knew his mother needed him, and to stay alive. For her, and for all those he loved. He would stay alive.

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In the lovely foothills of the Shire; Bilbo had been writing a book about his adventures. Meanwhile, the ring to rule them all was corrupting Bilbo at a fast rate. The once young Hobbit had aged more quickly than expected. Prone to a few outbursts, if anyone dared mention the ring in a bad manner. Gandalf grew increasingly concerned about Bilbo's health. As Bilbo decided to finish off his book in Rivendell. Feeling, like he needed to get away from his home, and visit some good old friends. And so before his departure, he had entrusted the ring to his nephew Frodo. Knowing it would be in safe hands.

A task would soon await Aragorn; to protect the young Hobbit and his friends; Should something happen to Gandalf after Frodo receiving a mission to get the ring away from the Shire.

Middle-Earth: Bright Stars & Durin's Folk { Wolf & Angel }

Yavanna was never one to hold back her emotions; good or bad. She either said it, how it was. Or expressed herself emotionally...even grief or anger. But Anger was something she felt very little. But part of her did feel Angry; Angry that lives were taken away pre-maturely as Fili and Thorin had a great path craved in front of them and Thorin would have made his people proud, and so would Fili if he would ever take over the throne from his Uncle Thorin, if that day ever came. Since it was something, Kili did not want.

"I truly am sorry." Yavanna told Dis "They were like family to me." She said honestly. Letting Dis know of the love she held for her big brother and her eldest son. "They were two of the most bravest people I ever met and it's been a honer, knowing them both like I did." She spoke very truthfully.

Hearing Yavanna and Saeril say that to his mother, Kili felt some relief that his mother would know how much they both meant to Saeril and Yavanna. It wasn't long, before Kili began to help escort his mother back towards their home. Leading Saeril and Yavanna inside the halls. Halls that only Yavanna had not yet seen, out of all of them.

Middle-Earth: Bright Stars & Durin's Folk { Wolf & Angel }

It saddened Yavanna to see Kili's mother like this. It was bad enough dealing with Kili and Saeril's sadness when it all happened. But Yavanna could also feel Dis' pain; a mother's pain. A little sister's pain. Loosing the one's she had. Which made all those she had left, even more precious. Even though Azog and Bolg were gone; that wouldn't stop others from trying to kill Dis and Kili in order to finish that job off for them.

Kili held onto his mother; as they all seemed to be mourning. Kili, Yavanna and Saeril were in mourning again. He noticed many of his people kneel down to pay respect to the fallen sons of Durin.

Middle-Earth: Bright Stars & Durin's Folk { Wolf & Angel }

Kili hated to be the bearer of bad news; he knew how sad his mother was when his father had passed away. Kili and Fili too had been traumatised by that death; despite being the youngest one...not having as much memories like Fili. Now, he felt like he was breaking his mother's heart by telling her about Uncle Thorin and his big brother Fili. Kili had always felt incomplete without his big brother. The troublesome duo was broken.

He could see how his mother was trying to be strong; as she hugged him. Kili held her close to him, feeling the tears run down his cheeks freely. Hiding his face in her dark hair.

Yavanna couldn't help but feel sad, for Kili and his mother. Seeing the pain on Dis' face and how she was trying to be strong; despite such horrible news. It was heart-breaking. There wasn't a moment, where Yavanna didn't miss Fili. Or the banter and trouble; he and Kili got into over the time she had known them. Even though, he and Thorin had moved onto a better place; spiritually. It didn't make it any easier. The tears rolled down her cheeks heavily, as she sobbed.

Middle-Earth: Bright Stars & Durin's Folk { Wolf & Angel }

It was a warm, loving gesture. Feeling his mother wrap her arms around his neck. Kili gave her waist a gentle squeeze. He only wished, that Fili and Uncle Thorin were by his side, that they could be a family...like they once used to be. Kili hated the thought of breaking his mother's heart, by giving her the bad news.

Her words about Yavanna, made him smile briefly. "I am sure, you'll love her even more when you get to know her better." Kili told his mother. As she asked about his elder brother...Kili felt his heart-ache. He knew, he had to do this; no matter how hard it was. "He's in a safe place." Kili said, sadly as she asked about his big brother. He knew, that Fili was safe in the after-life with his uncle Thorin. Kili had paused for a few moments, thinking of the best way to break the news to his mother. Taking a deep breath. "After we reclaimed our home-land; there was a massive battle. An old enemy, that had killed Grand-father, was still hunting us down. Saeril and Yavanna had always done their best to protect us from them....but during the battle....we couldn't stop them. They got to Fili and Uncle Thorin...." He felt himself getting choked up. "I am sorry, mother....I couldn't save either of them." Tears welled up in his eyes. "They both died, fighting for our people and home.."

Kili felt like he could have saved his older brother and uncle; if Saeril didn't try and get him to stay in hiding.

Yavanna felt Saeril's touch. It made her feel a little at ease. She was silent, smiling briefly at Dis' warm compliment towards her...but hearing Kili speak about Thorin and Fili, caused the tears to well up in her eyes again.

Middle-Earth: Bright Stars & Durin's Folk { Wolf & Angel }

Yavanna felt relieved,that Dis could sense her warmth and friendship towards her kind. Seeing how cautious the man looked. Yavanna felt sorry for him. Knowing he still must have been weary of her kind; from decades ago...aswell as the tragedy with the Dragon that forced them out of their home.

"It's quiet alright, I understand. I do feel sorry for your kind, having to suffer like that." Yavanna told her honestly. She smiled, hearing Dis say Saeril was family. That feeling was mutual. Just like Kili, Fili and Thorin had been family to her also. As Dis asked about her boys...Yavanna felt her throat begin to constrict slightly; feeling nervous almost...and a little chocked up. She couldn't break her word to Kili. Knowing he wanted to be the one to tell Dis what had happened, and the loss of Fili and Thorin was still a lot for her to talk about.

As she opened her mouth, to say something. But luckily to her surprise and rescue; Kili had appeared behind her. As he had enough time for himself. He had made his way back to find, Yavanna and Saeril in the company of his people. "Mother, it's so good to see you." His arms wrapped around Dis. Kili had missed his mother dearly and embraced her in a warm hug. Yavanna almost sighed to herself in relief...hoping Kili would somehow handle this matter well. "I am glad to see, you have met my dear friend Yavanna...she's like a sister to me." His brotherly affection, was visible in the way he spoke about Yavanna. And also said something to his people. That Yavanna was not to be feared.

But having heard his mother's question; from a little way away. Reminded him off what had to be done. Kili sighed softly, the pain visible in his eyes again, as he thought of the devastating news he had to tell his mother. "There's some thing you should know..." he began his voice, filled with worry of how she might handle the news.