Esme
As Esme dreamt about her time in the asylum, she could not only see every detail vividly but could also feel, hear, see, and smell everything from that time. She could still feel the straps holding her down tightly in the gurney as the demons poked, prodded, beat, stabbed, and broke her bones while they did their experiments on her to see how each liquid they injected reacted to her body. They also put her through tremendous amounts of streets, fear, anger, and sorrow but never rage as they were too afraid to push her that far, fearing what she might be able to do, and they were told not to by their boss. They were to wait until they were in a more controlled environment. Esme could still hear the generator's hum that powered the lights and the beeping machines hooked up to her. She could still feel the various items shoved into her mouth to muffle her screams while they did the experiments and the shock therapy. When the memory faded and Duke woke, Esme was plunged into darkness before she found herself lying in an open field filled with lavender, lupins, lilies, and a little stream. She hadn't seen it in person in years, but it was always a place of pure comfort.
As Esme lay among the flowers, she heard Duke’s voice say her name. He sounded miles away, but it didn't sound like him. “Who’s there?” she called out but received no answer in return. She then sat up, keeping her left leg straight and bending her right knee toward her chest. Dropping right arm over her knee, she rested her chin on her arm and looked out over the field. Esme was enjoying the peace when a male voice called out to her. “Esme, Honey? I know you need rest. And this is your comfort place, but you can’t stay. You need to go back, Little Wolf.” Tears welled up in Esme’s eyes before she lifted her head and looked at him. “Daddy?” she breathed. Scrambling to her feet, she ran over and wrapped him in a tight hug, which he returned as she softly cried into him. “I miss you so much. I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you.” she cried. Her father smiled warmly and stroked the back of Esme’s head. “Shhh, you have nothing to be sorry for, My Little Wolf.” her father told her. Esme lifted her head and looked at her father as he continued.
“ I knew what I was walking into, as did the others. We all knew there was a chance it was a trap and we wouldn’t make it out. That’s why I sent you after those ghosts.” He leaned in and kissed Esme’s forehead, causing her to close her eyes and making a few tears roll down her cheeks. “If I would have been faster after you called, maybe I ……” Her father sighed heavily at her words and shook his head. “No, not even then could you have brought me back.” he whispered sadly. Lifting a hand, he brought it to Esme’s cheek and wiped away her tears. “I’m sorry I didn’t use better judgment that day so I could have been there to help you through everything you’ve been through. I’m sorry I wasn’t there to get you out of that asylum.” he said, hugging Esme again. “I’m sorry for what they did to you.” Esme hugged him back with a sniffle and shook her head against his shoulder, silently telling him he didn’t need to apologize. “Don’t apologize for that. No one could have known that would happen.” she said softly. After a moment, Esme lifted her head from her father's shoulder and looked up at him, meeting his gaze.
Her eyes held sadness and questions, and he sighed. “I know you have lots of questions after having to go back to the asylum. I want to tell you, but I don’t have the time to give you the answers you want.” he told her. “You have to get back to him. He’s worried about you.” Esme looked at her father, confusion written on her face. “Him?” she questioned. “Duke. You need to get back to him. He needs you.” he told her. Esme’s eyes widened with surprise that she had momentarily forgotten about Duke. The word ‘worried’ echoed in her mind, and then it hit her. Duke must be trying to wake her, but she can’t and is getting scared. Esme didn’t want to leave her father, but she wanted to return to Duke. “I don’t know how to get out of here without sleeping it off.” she told her father. “But I need something answered…. Is it true Mama made a deal with a demon, and I’m the product of that deal?” Esme watched as her father’s features hardened a bit and then nodded. “Yes, she did, but was tricked into making that deal. Your mother wasn’t familiar with demons and the other things that go bump in the night. I never told her about what I did until I had to. The demon claimed she was a “miracle worker” and could help her have the child she always wanted.”
He paused with a sigh, dipping his head a moment before looking back at Esme. “Your mother desperately wanted a baby. She wanted a small family. So she jumped at the chance even though it sounded too good to be true…. I couldn’t stop her. I was off getting us drinks at the bar when she unknowingly made the demon deal.” he admitted. “So, Valdin was right.” Esme breathed. “Yes, he was.” he answered her. “I’m sorry I never told you. I thought I was protecting you, Little Wolf.” “I understand.” she told him softly. “You'll find out all the other answers you seek in time. Now focus on waking up before that Cowboy of yours thinks you’ve fallen into a coma or you’re about to die on him. Who I approve of by the way.” he told her. Esme nodded with a light smile and focused on waking up, but nothing was happening. But then she lifted her fingers to her lips as she felt a warmth on them and could feel herself waking. Duke must have kissed her. Lowering her fingers, Esme looked back at her father with a warm smile. “I love you, Daddy.” “I love you too, Little Wolf.” he smiled warmly.
Esme’s father and safe place faded away, and she found herself in darkness again, but she felt Duke’s lips against hers, and a tear fall onto her cheek. ‘Oh, Duke.’ she thought. She concentrated on Duke’s lips on hers and finally woke, inhaling deeply through her nose as she kissed him back. Her eyes fluttered open, and she saw the fear in his teary blue eyes before she felt it hit her hard. She knew he’d be scared about her not waking, but not this scared. Her not waking up had scared the hell out of him. “Duke.” she said sadly, her eyes matching her tone. Esme quickly wrapped her arms around Duke. Pulled him to her and hugged him tightly, her hand resting on the back of his head. “Shhhh, it’s okay. I’m here.” she whispered. “I’m sorry I scared you.” She stroked his hair and kissed the side of his head. Tears welled in her eyes as she nuzzled her head against his and closed her eyes. “I’m here, Bright Eyes. I’m here.” She fought not to let her tears show in her tone, but she was sure she failed. Her tears were a combination of feeling Duke’s fear and from seeing her father and talking to him, which was strange and soothing all at the same time.