Tsukiko continued to sit in class though a lot of students gave her unusual stares when she had entered with the outfit she was wearing earlier. She didn't care if she wasn't wearing her uniform; she would go back to wearing what she wanted and stop giving a damn about what people wanted her to wear. She liked wearing dark clothes anyway especially black since it fit her character, nature and personality. The outfit she was currently wearing gave a dark aura into the atmosphere toward those around her. It made her look more mysterious and made people think twice about approaching her, because it also gave off the vibe that she was disturbed. That meant approaching her for a conversation might be bad idea seeing as she gave the impression by her fashion statement that she was not the friendly type. Which was actually true even if she put on her usual facade of being the sweet and kind girl to get her through the day. She turned her attention toward Haas and gave him a dirty look with his eyes even though he probably wasn't watching. She wasn't going to waste anymore time looking at him. Not like she cared what naive thoughts were going through his mind anyway.
She then turned to look at Ethel which made her grimace. Part of her laughed at the thought some of the students had the audacity to call that kind of figure a "goddess". One part of her almost giggled out loud, but she was able to suppress the thought from escaping her. Seriously, her fashion is so out of taste. I mean look at what she wears? It's a joke to call what she wears fashionable. She has no idea that she looks like a lolicon. She only wears it for attention, how lame... I'm not even that desperate. Ugh... I swear some of these idiots are literally fashion illiterate. The same part of her thought that though the other focused on trying to listen to the teacher.
At the moment she was wearing a cloak like cape that was raven black as the night with a pair of black gloves mostly concealed underneath the long sleeves. which also had a hood and a muffler which covered most of her face aside from her eyes. With the girl's appearance mostly hidden, it was hard for anyone to tell what the girl was actually thinking in her mind. She also wore a short red skirt and black thigh highs that went underneath her long black boots. She thought to herself while keeping her words to herself as she kept one watchful eye on the teacher. I still have to be around a bunch of worthless people. Having to be nice to them is becoming such a chore too... Not like I have much of a choice. Drawing too much animosity toward me could prove problematic. She then paused from her thinking and pulled out her current deck. She had noted adding two of the three Tri-Fusion Dragons. She also recorded the last name of the set that still had yet to be released. The one she heard that was useful in preventing Monster Effects. Currently she had two of the three which were Chrysantheum, The Spell Breaker Dragon and Retsugrata, The Trap Buster Dragon. Which made her think about her duel with Vincent. Retsugrata would foil Vincent's Trap Cards especially his annoying ones like Bottomless Trap Hole and Into the Breach. Chrysantheum would help her against Michelle preventing her from using her Spell Cards to shield her monsters with. These two thoughts made her grin a bit. Now she just needed Zarathustra, The Ruin Dragon to get rid of Vincent's annoying Chaos Monsters she had heard about. The only one she remembered was Chaos Sorcerer. But that also reminded her how much of a jerk Vincent was which made her angry inside that the volcano almost erupted spilling its ashes onto the entire class, but she was able to control her urge to blow up in front of Vincent. That inconsiderate jerk. Who the hell does he think he is? He might be good at dueling, but this fist of mine when it collides with that face of his would hurt badly. How dare he exploit me like that! She yelled in her mind until then she started to grin a bit when she thought of the most devious and evil way to get back at Vincent.
She pondered the thought about the duel with Haas. As much as she wanted to put it behind she couldn't. She would not forget Haas face nor the face she blundered on her own Spell Card. It was fuel for the fire many know as revenge. Best served when you least expect it as a surprise. "So many other cards out there that have yet to be discovered. The possibilities are nearly endless. Maybe along the way I can create my own style which branches off my brother's old style he used in the World Tournaments." She whispered to herself as she didn't really pay attention to any of the other students. They were pretty much irrelevant to her as she was only there to learn anything that could prove useful to her and think about new strategies she could use against her opponents.
She had spent two days in here room in complete isolation after Haas duel not wanting to associate herself with anyone. She also hardly ate during those days and still doesn't eat very much now either. No one has seen her face since the day of the attack where people wonder why she hides her face from everyone. She doesn't really care since hiding her appearance has actually helped avoid some unnecessary attention from some of the boys, but it certainly hasn't caused her fan club to disband. In the midst of all her thinking, she realized that not including Void Dragon wasn't possible. The card had a really strong resonance to her like they were connected someway in some sort of bond that she didn't know about. Much to her dismay since she didn't know anything about the card or its past regarding her mother.
"Void Twin Dragon has proven to be one of the most worthless monsters in my entire deck. Twice the thing has only caused me pain and I'll be damned if I allow it to do what it did to me the other day. I hate seeing visions about my mother's death." She said to herself silently thinking about how ineffective Void Twin Dragon had been to her. The regular form had proven some use to her and maybe Void End Dragon would prove more useful to her than Void Twin Dragon. "I don't know what you're trying to do, but I think you wanted me to lose on purpose, Void Twin Dragon. Why the hell should I put my trust in someone I hardly even know and looks like he's not only the laughing stock of the school but a class clown to boot? I swear, I'm too nice at times. More so than I need to be." She spoke silently again to herself as her lips did move, but no one could hear a word she said. The fact she gave Haas her registration bothered her. She didn't now what possessed her to do that after her loss. Maybe it was because she was so light-headed and out of it that day. She could still remember the anger that burned in her eyes that stayed with her after the loss even though she hid it with friendly eyes. She stared off to the side of her seat thinking clearly about what drove her to give him her registration number allowing him to register her as a friend. "Did I do that because of the fear for the future? That I might go down the path of ruin and need someone to stop me? I learned from my brother that despair is a dangerous thing. In the wrong hands, it can be a weapon of destruction. Is this emptiness I feel? The same feeling he felt back then? The endless torture spiral circle of death known as despair?" Tsukiko said softly to herself still reflecting on that day. The day she flew too high in the sky with wax wings and the sun melted them away bringing her back to the surface one calls reality.
Tsukiko had a lot of uncertainty which was like a weight on her heart which kept her hopes weighed down toward the ground. This same feeling is what lead to convince herself that she was a faithless child doomed to continue down the path of ruin. Her hatred for everything was strong and that hatred grew and swelled the two days she remained locked inside her room refusing to come out after her loss. The feeling inside her surged inside her like lightning and burned like a raging inferno wanting to explode from the depths below and release the animosity that was kept inside.
Guess I'll just fake being fine again. Not like it takes much effort to deceive people here anyway. Most are pretty naive. Tsukiko thought to herself as it would be yet another day where she would have once again be nice to everyone and try to be a likeable person. Part of that thought made her want to puke. To have intermingle with this society was rather disturbing toward a part of her mind. Who needed friends anyway? Most of them just weighed you down anyway which made her think that what her brother believed actually had some truth to it. That made her think about Haas and how she allowed him to befriend her so easily or that's what she thought anyway. She wished she could go back in time and rip up that note she gave him. What was she thinking? Obviously she wasn't thinking to allow someone like that to be trusted. So naive and foolish to the point that they could be a literal reckless endangerment to her. But another side of her liked the thought of danger. Risk was such a great aptitude. It came with a hefty price though this didn't stop her from thinking the idea was intriguing.
A dangerous side of her thought about how she used Power Bond. How she empowered her Overdrive Mode making it even stronger. It recalled that Overdrive Mode got even more intense as you inflicted more pain and suffering onto yourself where you drove yourself toward the edge of despair. If you threw yourself into the abyss below the power insider her would grow and swell. It wanted more pain to feed its hunger with. Pain was a great satisfying sensation that caused despair to grow even stronger driving a person toward complete emptiness. Not caring about their well-being nor the anyone else. The time will come when I even the balance between you two. I will finally make you both see how worthless everyone in this world is and they are just pawns for obtaining power. Everything has a purpose to be sacrificed for the greater good. It thought about how monsters were mere tools of war to serve as servants for their masters to utilize. They had no feelings and served on purpose. To destroy or be destroyed. All beings deserved to be hated. None were worthy of being trusted. It's simple, Tsukiko. You have been listening to your foolish egos for too long. Let me explain how dueling works. When you duel you do not make friends. Friends are for the weak. Duel for power and to destroy anyone who gets in your way. Show them no mercy. Do not hold back. Annihilate everything you hate. Enlighten yourself toward your own starvation of wanting to hurt others. Monsters are just tools of war. They serve no other purposes other than to destroy or be destroyed. Care not about destroying your opponent. Care more about your opponent destroying you. Everyone is evil. Everyone.
When you lose, use that as a fuel toward your own hatred. Hate that person strong so next time you can show them what hell really is. All beings evil deserved to face their indignation. Trust absolutely no one. They cannot be trusted. All will stab you in the back. Crush your opposition and walk over their corpses as you make your march through the battlefield. Only by extinguishing evil can you really find peace in your heart.
"Walk the path of ruin?" She murmured to herself not saying it loud enough for anyone to hear her. After she said she started to question whether there was underlying truth to what was being said. This part of wanted to hurt others which would probably get her in trouble with the academy not the mention that there was an attack on the academy last week. "Maybe you're right. Void Twin Dragon has been nothing but a Pandora's Box to me. It's been a useless monster both times I used it. Monsters are tools of war. They only are summoned to be destroyed. There is no heart of the cards. There is no faith or hope. There is only power and succession. They are servants that serve their masters bending to their will. They have no emotions or feelings. Useless cards are just worthless. That makes me even more worthless for putting my faith into such a weak spirited being that cannot overwhelm my opposition. Then again, all cards serve the purpose of destroying or being destroyed. Thus is the way of war. That is the true nature and world of dueling whether people want to accept it or not.
There is truth that all power should be discovered only by yourself. My brother's words that becoming stronger on your own is the only way to find true power have truth behind their meaning. I shall rely on no one from this moment forward. I will become stronger on my own using my own two hands to carve my path with." Tsukiko spoke silently toward herself again as she once again considered the words that were spoken to her in her mind.