Yatagarasu

Myriad Reality

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I'm just... I'm just so fed up with her. That was the most underhanded, not-okay...

@Techspert

I don't know how to word this, but I think she probably doesn't view your handicap as... As a thing to be careful of? She probably thought that since you were winning, it was the same as playing anyone else. To her, I don't think that it crossed her mind that doing it would even be a bad thing.
*Pauses*
I think the best thing to do is to talk it out once you've had however much time you need. I'll help however I can, but if you don't hear each others' views from the source, I think this could fester into something worse than you're feeling right now.

Myriad Reality

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...
*Lets go of the pillow and grabs onto you, crying on your shoulder*
I'm—I'm scared I'm a disappointment. Stella thinks so.

@Techspert

*Hugs you*
You're not a disappointment. I don't think that's what Stella thinks, and it's certainly not true even if she did.

Myriad Reality

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...Do you love them more than us?

@Techspert

Absolutely not! I love all of you, and I cannot and will not choose between my children. Please don't ever think otherwise.

Myriad Reality

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...Dad? Why did our brothers and sisters leave?

@Techspert

Oh boy. Uh... Well, I can only really speculate. They didn't exactly write letters for me, thinking I would come back somehow. Kari probably felt some sort of responsibility, a need to go because that was possible. Scarlet was always the adventurous type, so I don't doubt that she wanted to see what would happen. Zelda... I think he probably just wanted to be a pioneer, since nobody else had ever done it. And I have to assume Wynter just wanted to stay with her siblings. But like I said, I'm just taking shots in the dark here based on what I knew about them.

Myriad Reality

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Just... What can I do? How can I ever be a good sister, or a useful person like this?

@Techspert

Well, from my talk with her, Stella seems to think you're a pretty good sister.
*Sighs*
But still, you're young. There's no need to worry about what kind of person you'll be, and being "useful" isn't necessarily a good goal to have, in my opinion. You have time. More than that, I'm doing my best to try to give you the freedom to learn and grow into whatever kind of person you want. I'm not doing a good enough job, but I'll do whatever I can for you four.

Myriad Reality

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I—I'm not really sure. I know I'm disappointing you... but I guess I just want to find out what I could still do. It just hurts so much when Stella's great at everything, she can even learn to see again, and then uses that to cheat and beat me at the only thing I had.

@Techspert

I'm not disappointed, Dawn, I'm just worried. That's my job, to worry about you. What can I do to help?

Myriad Reality

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But Stella is better. At everything.
*Buries my face in my pillow*
I’m just a lost cause.

@Techspert

*Waits a moment before speaking*
I disagree. You've barely even started finding things to try, you shouldn't give up yet. Besides, she... Well, maybe she should tell you herself. Plus... Just because she boasts about her achievements, not that there's anything wrong about that, doesn't mean that she's better at those things.
*Pauses again*
What is it that you want to do? Stella has her detective work, and that singular drive is enough for her, but, and I feel like a failure for having to ask, but what about you?

Myriad Reality

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I sh-shouldn't've tried to find s-something to be better at at all...
*Sniffs*
I was so dumb.

@Techspert

Dawn, that's... It's fine to want to be better than someone at something. If you think that's true for you, imagine how wrong Stella must be for feeling that way much more often, right? You're doing fine, wanting to be good at something, better than others, is normal and not a bad thing in and of itself. You aren't dumb or wrong or bad for that.

Myriad Reality

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This is my fault...

@Techspert

There's nothing to blame yourself for. Getting angry is part of life; no healthy person can go forever without an outburst. Besides, do you think that what you got mad about was okay, now that you've stepped away from it? If you still think it was wrong, then there's no reason to apologize for thinking that.

Myriad Reality

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*Squeezes the pillow tightly between strained sobs*

@Techspert

*Sighs and walks in a step, closing the door behind me*