Watching Jack eat her cookies was almost as good as listening to him speak and she felt the bit of sadness that had crept into her slip away to the recesses of her being where she pushed such unhappy thoughts. It wasn’t that she missed her family, she’d left them years ago and they had maintained a mutual minimal contact for years to everyone’s satisfaction. It was a hard thing to explain and she was glad that she didn’t have to. It wasn’t that she didn’t love her family, she did, reflexively, but it was hard to be a disappointment and she’d never been anything but. She had been the ugly duckling, to her sister’s Swans. The bit of quartz sitting off to the side behind the diamonds. While her parents had never said, directly that they were ashamed of her, it was a hard thing to keep out of their eyes and even harder to learn to live with.
So she’d left and not really looked back. But that didn’t change the fact that with every breath she took she was certain that she’d stolen something from her sisters. Taken an opportunity that might have been better spent on them. They were bright, they were irreplaceable, she was.
So instead she watched Jack’s mouth as it bit into her cookie, the best of the batch and watched him chew. The smile lines he displayed pleased her and when he grinned at her she grinned back, her dimple shyly flashing in the softness of her cheek. She shook her head at the offer of the cookie, she’d made them, she didn’t need one and honestly knew that watching him enjoy them was more pleasure than she’d ever get eating them.
She laughed at his summary of Midsummer’s night dream, she’d seen the play a time or two and would have liked to have seen it with him at her side. She could imagine she’d have laughed even harder with him there. The bleakness in her rose again when he spoke of his family. The love and the affection he felt for them was evident and it made her throat tighten. She squeezed his hand in turn, happy that he had someone waiting for him, even if they were asleep. He’d lost his home, the place he loved so much even though he’d left it before the change happened. But there was family for him still and he and the Pumphreys would make a new home for themselves. She liked to imagine that, a family of people with wonderful smiles, rolling accents setting up shop on New Canaan.
Then he was looking at her again, with that wonderfully intent attention that made her want to squirm and dip her head so that her hair would fall and cover her face to hide her flustered discomfiture. She caught movement out of the corner of her eye and used the excuse to watch the large shark with the broad mouth and cold dead eyes drift by. She shivered and felt in awe of the engineering that went into the building of this amazing ship that was humanities’ last hope.
There was a loud clang behind them and she looked up, eyes wide as a slender woman in a white lab coat and tangled dark curls stepped into the corridor with a confused look on her face. She looked up and then down and spotting Jack and Penny she narrowed her eyes
“Shit.” She said. “This isn’t Dr. Grayson’s office is it?”
At Penny’s shake of her head she turned and left without another word, the door clanging behind her with a loud finality.
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Stella cursed again, annoyed beyond all measure. She knew that there was some way to make the hand-held thingy tell her where she needed to go but it wasn’t cooperating. She’d pushed lots of buttons but that hadn’t done much more than make the thing freeze up and no matter how hard she shook it, it wouldn’t un-stick. So she’d tried to remember the route the thing had briefly showed her but clearly she’d got something wrong along the way. The tanks told her she was in the general area she needed to be, but she couldn’t puzzle it out any further. She had some questions and needed some information from the head Marine biologist who was technically under her jurisdiction or however the whole thing was structured. She didn’t know. People made no sense to her, they never had. But something was wrong, she could see that, she could feel it. Looking at the numbers, at the unexplained dead creatures in her coolers she could see just the barest edges of a pattern forming. It felt like if she squinted hard enough she’d be able to pick it out and unravel it. But she needed information for that.
Giving her hand-held thingy one more shake she strode off through the corridor half her mind skittering over the part of the puzzle she had while the rest was focused on finding the man who might have part of the rest.
So she’d left and not really looked back. But that didn’t change the fact that with every breath she took she was certain that she’d stolen something from her sisters. Taken an opportunity that might have been better spent on them. They were bright, they were irreplaceable, she was.
So instead she watched Jack’s mouth as it bit into her cookie, the best of the batch and watched him chew. The smile lines he displayed pleased her and when he grinned at her she grinned back, her dimple shyly flashing in the softness of her cheek. She shook her head at the offer of the cookie, she’d made them, she didn’t need one and honestly knew that watching him enjoy them was more pleasure than she’d ever get eating them.
She laughed at his summary of Midsummer’s night dream, she’d seen the play a time or two and would have liked to have seen it with him at her side. She could imagine she’d have laughed even harder with him there. The bleakness in her rose again when he spoke of his family. The love and the affection he felt for them was evident and it made her throat tighten. She squeezed his hand in turn, happy that he had someone waiting for him, even if they were asleep. He’d lost his home, the place he loved so much even though he’d left it before the change happened. But there was family for him still and he and the Pumphreys would make a new home for themselves. She liked to imagine that, a family of people with wonderful smiles, rolling accents setting up shop on New Canaan.
Then he was looking at her again, with that wonderfully intent attention that made her want to squirm and dip her head so that her hair would fall and cover her face to hide her flustered discomfiture. She caught movement out of the corner of her eye and used the excuse to watch the large shark with the broad mouth and cold dead eyes drift by. She shivered and felt in awe of the engineering that went into the building of this amazing ship that was humanities’ last hope.
There was a loud clang behind them and she looked up, eyes wide as a slender woman in a white lab coat and tangled dark curls stepped into the corridor with a confused look on her face. She looked up and then down and spotting Jack and Penny she narrowed her eyes
“Shit.” She said. “This isn’t Dr. Grayson’s office is it?”
At Penny’s shake of her head she turned and left without another word, the door clanging behind her with a loud finality.
Stella cursed again, annoyed beyond all measure. She knew that there was some way to make the hand-held thingy tell her where she needed to go but it wasn’t cooperating. She’d pushed lots of buttons but that hadn’t done much more than make the thing freeze up and no matter how hard she shook it, it wouldn’t un-stick. So she’d tried to remember the route the thing had briefly showed her but clearly she’d got something wrong along the way. The tanks told her she was in the general area she needed to be, but she couldn’t puzzle it out any further. She had some questions and needed some information from the head Marine biologist who was technically under her jurisdiction or however the whole thing was structured. She didn’t know. People made no sense to her, they never had. But something was wrong, she could see that, she could feel it. Looking at the numbers, at the unexplained dead creatures in her coolers she could see just the barest edges of a pattern forming. It felt like if she squinted hard enough she’d be able to pick it out and unravel it. But she needed information for that.
Giving her hand-held thingy one more shake she strode off through the corridor half her mind skittering over the part of the puzzle she had while the rest was focused on finding the man who might have part of the rest.