So how's it going lel

@Pudding
When I have a moment (not gonna happen anytime soon) I'll probably fill people in on a couple of the physical issues I mentioned I have on my end, but yeah; it's not pleasant having the sorts of problems they're describing, and I've been trying to help @Ailyn Evensen get through hers as best I can, but my specialty as an "unauthorized doctor", per se, is focused on psychological ailments and not physical ones, so how much I can help is limited beyond just suggesting she get out of the current job she's in.

@NekoMizu
Busy. How about yourself?

@Shoryu Magami
I started a manga tonight. Pretty cool, I guess lel.

@Shoryu Magami
I started a manga tonight. Pretty cool, I guess lel.

Is it a good manga?

I cleaned my room! Which is actually a post-con first for me. I usually have everything thrown everywhere for weeks following a convention, lol. Now I'm tired xD

Happy Halloween guys ^.^

@NekoMizu
I think you mentioned this over Skype earlier... I think.

@Gowi
Only time will tell, I imagine.

@Ailyn Evensen
Good to hear it.

@HaleyTheRandom
Heh, Happy Halloween, even if we don't really have it here... How're you?

@Shoryu Magami Ha. Sorry about that.

Decent-ish, I suppose. Yourself?

@HaleyTheRandom
Honestly...? Pretty depressed tonight/this morning/whatever. I may not be capable of sleeping due to it.

@Shoryu Magami Oh wow >.< I'm sorry to hear that. Really, I am. Anything I can do?

Monday will forever be my least favorite day of the week.

Randomness aside (even though it's the truth), I'm down with a fever - I haven't been sleeping well due to stress from school. Just watch out that I may be very incoherent and sprout things insensitively for these couple of days from migraine, so please bear with my horrid inner childishness I may unleash out of the blue.

I promise no drama. I haven't fall that low yet.

Honestly, I'm not making much sense either as I continue to write this post. So I shall drift off and finish up mah homework. :P

@tsukune
Lol, don't worry about it, mate. I'm honestly in a really stressed out and sleep deprived state myself lately, with my work piling up really badly. That's not why I'm in such a bad state right now, but ever since I joined this site I've definitely been getting overworked; I do consider all of you worth that though, so I don't regret being here. Either way, if I can help out then let me know, otherwise just use this place to let out whatever you're feeling like you just did. I was wondering how you were doing pretty much right as you posted, and planned to poke you with a mention. Take care, you crazy person who needs to sleep my friend.

@HaleyTheRandom
Perhaps... I'm trying to work out how I can even describe what's bothering me, since it's pretty heavy... I think the best way to put it is the philosopher inside of me is having one of his more tormented nights; I definitely have nights where I stay up all night just thinking about things. I actually think I kept someone up for longer than they wanted to be up due to it, yet even though my body is incredibly tired I can't turn my brain off... Sort of makes me a hypocrite for telling tsukune to sleep, even if it was a joke.

@Shoryu Magami Actually, I get it. Have nights like that more often than not, so I can totally understand where you're coming from. No worries about being hypocritical. You're human and one thing that I've noticed is that we can't take our own advice, no matter how much it does or doesn't apply to us.

I got next to zero sleep last night, so, sorry if this doesn't make any sense, but hopefully you get what I'm trying to say xD

@HaleyTheRandom
I guess a part of me has always strived not to be a hypocrite. People very frequently refer to me as "preachy" and "self-righteous", but I sort of pride myself on the detail that I always practice what I preach; I'm my own biggest critic and I never place expectations on other people if I don't believe I can meet them myself. If I tell people they can overcome something then it's because I adamantly believe I can overcome it, for example.

You're making sense to me. I'm just a very conflicted person by nature because I have the ability to see every side of the story; even the ones I'm in heavy opposition to or don't agree with at all. The discussion I had with someone before coming to the hang-out thread doesn't actually reflect that too significantly; I was already in one of my moods before the talk began.

Another issue persistently bothering me involves this site; I'm not giving names, but while quite a few people have made me not regret joining this place (yourself included) there are also quite a few who make me not want to be here. I'm sure everyone has that problem; I'm not ignorant enough to believe I'm unique in that sense. Where I am perhaps a little more unique is that my personal dignity would very quickly cause me to leave this place for good if I felt disrespected.

@Shoryu Magami You're not either of those things, at least in my opinion, for what it counts, if anything. I've seen you give a really good bit of advice to people in the time that you've joined the guild. Long winded, perhaps, but not preachy and sure as hell not self-righteous. I mean, really. Sometimes it sucks being your biggest critique, another thing that I can totally understand you on, but, -as hypocritical as I am about to be- maybe you should lay off yourself from time to time. As hard as that may be, it can help.

Seeing/hearing all the sides of the story is a good thing, in a way. Makes for better problem solving and makes your advice giving even better. We all have our good and bad days, it's nothing to worry about. Who are they? Do I need to hunt them down?I'm just joking with you, but seriously. People not making you want to be here... well... what's there to say about that? People suck. They can also be jerks. My advice to you would to be say fuck 'em and move along, even though that, too, can be hard at times. Trust me, it get's easier to avoid such people with time.

@HaleyTheRandom
Heh, regardless of whether I actually am those things or not, it's refreshing to know you don't think I am. My own perspective about words like "preachy" and "self-righteous" is that they're entirely subjective terms; so I am those things to some people and I'm not to others. It's impossible for me to have a personal opinion regarding myself on those things because the words I "preach" are what I believe. I openly admit to the long-windedness, thanks to me having legitimately floods of thoughts going on through my mind at all times that I'm literally unable to put a lid on. Honestly, even when my posts are huge I'm only giving a fraction of what's going on in this screwed up head of mine.

You're probably right about me needing to cut myself some slack a bit; sometimes I feel like I'll die long before I finish my work just because of what stress does to my body. I guess I just don't know how to switch off for a little while. Good to know that my advice is better as a result of the way my mind works. I've always assumed that, but it's better when other people say it since it makes it sound less subjective. There's good days and bad days, for sure; I'm just having one of my nastier nights right now.

I don't particularly mind giving names (it's part of the discussion I had earlier), but if you want to know I'd be mentioning it over PM. No worries about hunting them down (even if it was a joke), since it's not like I care what they think. My ability to just say "fuck 'em" is precisely one of the reasons I'm still on the site, actually. I don't inherently care what they think, however that's also my undoing; because I don't care what they think, if enough people irritate me on the site I could imagine myself just deciding the place isn't worth my time at all. You guys really are the only reason I bother being here. I don't need to role-play here; I have other ways (in fact my primary role-playing has been put on hold due to this place distracting me). If I didn't think the people I'm getting to know here were worth it, I'd have left by now; I rarely stay on a site for that long usually unless I created it, and even then I "exodus" a lot. I'm an internet nomad, I guess.

@Shoryu Magami
Aw, friend. You're truly da best. Well, if no one minds reading a Asian idiot sickly high on fever ranting about his boring college life that is definitely too tame for the more "open" Europeans and 'Muricans, I guess I can just briefly talk about my current dilemma:

Well, a couple of weeks ago aka the start of my new semester, I mentioned about my bad luck to get group to a team of uncooperative members. On the surface, we barely have any inking of teamwork among us; then I realized that it was worse than I had originally thought. Not only that they got super-defensive when I was merely asking for clarification on the info in their parts so I'm more prepared for the presentation later, but the type of group mates I got was the worst to have in teamwork: the "not shy but I refuse to talk at all" kind. Okay, so they would split up the project tasks evenly, but everyone's doing pretty much their own work, lost in their own world, and don't even communicate beyond what's absolutely necessary. And it makes me irritated to see how the end product - how our slides have zero coherence and it's a visual nightmare. It's even more annoying that I have to save all their asses before the entire presentation falls apart because of their miscommunication.

...Okay, not brief at all. It's a literal bitching.

@Gowi myanimelist.net/manga/99449/100-man_no..
I'd say it's pretty nice.

@Shoryu Magami
Yeah I did mention it on skype I'm pretty sure.

Well, I did actually manage to collapse from exhaustion eventually. I don't particularly feel much better, but eh.

@tsukune
Lol, I probably am "da best". You know, I continually find the way you word things entertaining; I wish I was more willing to type up my dialogue in such a "non-grammatically correct" way for the sake of humour, but for some reason I only do it very rarely; when I'm not speaking using my voice at least.

In all seriousness though... I don't have the slightest problem with my friends coming into this chat to post up their woes or vent out things on their minds; that's one of the reasons I created this thread in the first place. I don't have any respect for communities where people aren't able to feel free to be real with each other; nothing is more shallow to me than a group of "friends" or "associates" who brush each other off when they're having hard times; I'm not some pathetic fair weather type of person. People who want to express their grievances aren't "attention seekers" for wanting to do so, nor are they somehow lesser people who deserve isolation just for having problems and being fucking human. I don't believe having a problem (or "bitching" about a problem) decides if a person is weak; it's whether or not they stop trying to overcome the problem that determines if they're weak. There's no shame in being upset with your situation; how you let your situation impact you is what speaks volumes of your character, so I have no issue with people discussion there concerns so long as they actually do something about them. If I can help them with that then I will.

Philosophy (if you can call it that) lesson aside, your situation sounds like a royal pain in the ass. I've never been the type of person who likes the idea of group projects, especially considering it can cause hard-working students like yourself to be held back by the ones who don't put it any real effort. Having associates who aren't willing to talk (when it isn't a reasonable side effect of being shy) is also irritating; they clearly lack any sort of real initiative on their part to actually make sure things are done properly. I'm not the most social person myself (there's a reason I don't really ever leave my studio), but even I know people need to work together to make things happen; whether I have the best people skills myself or not.

Feel free to partake in a "literal bitching" whenever you like; I'm completely open to listening to them and frankly I expect the people around me to be willing to do the same for me. As I emphasized earlier to @HaleyTheRandom; I'm no hypocrite, and I largely made this thread so the people I'm on good terms with (or those who want to be) can grow as a community. If anyone actually did mouth off at you for venting then they'd probably be the first person I end up telling to get the fuck out of here. People aren't "drama queens" just for wanting to express how they feel or what they think, nor are they just "edgy" for having problems. A lot of people are too weak to take on the weight of other people's problems; I'm not one of them.

@NekoMizu
*yawns* Yo.

@Shoryu Magami
How's it going though mate?
My friend I'm working with on the story [the guy I told you about who's on this site (though not really on this site)] is just lazy with how he types lel.

I think I might type a new character sheet, also expect a profile picture change some time soon.