Well it isn't so much of what she did, and more of just how things played out. We have known each other for about 5 years. Just do his summer I finally got my shut together with a good job, I am just 21, and was like "yeah, I am so ready for a relationship!" this is where things seemed to be falling into place perfectly: I am from Oregon, she still lives there, and a friend of ours was having a wedding to which I was flying in to attend. Me and her had been talking about how their family was hosting the party at their place, a great big farm house and barn, and how living arrangements could be made for me there for the few days I was coming. I thought this was all perfect, a gift from God, fate smiling on me, what have you. We had been conversing all year with each other, our familys get along great, I used to study theology under her father, finally got a stable full-time job, and I was staying with them allowing me to talk over having a long distance relationship with their daughter! How much more perfect is this!

Three days until my flight I am packing some things and relaxing reading a book when I get a snapchat. 36 hours before I get there she snapchating everyone about her new boyfriend (life's ultimate dick punch). That made this trip a lot more awkward for me! Now I am stuck never having been able to "love" her and not being able to have the girl I have had a crush on for almost 4 years.

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Dick move, bruh. I'm sorry, u_u women are cruel, cruel things.

Shit, man. A 3 year old thread. At what point does things thing evolve into an eldar thread and start turning into reality as a part of the weave of the universe. It's going to start casting debuffs soon enough.

My two weeks of straight work have ended at last and the holiday season has blown over like the storm it is. I am pleased to return at last and enjoy the time thereafter.

I will throw my lot in on further conversation when the drive is over.

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Yeah, I guess the worst part for me is thinking that I just didn't want to come on too stong, and I am an introvert, which didn't send much of a message to her. Now I have this feeling of loss and disconnect from such a long time of spending time together, and chatting a lot. It is hard now for me to pick up the pieces and move on. I guess I should also mention this is the second time something like this has happened. The first time was in high school when my crush, we were closer still, had to move away. Life just hates me.

I was able to pick up the pieces last time, but now it is harder to even think about moving on with love.

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