There are several songs that convey different parts of my personality extraordinarily well, though I have yet to find one that encompasses me as a whole.
First up is Green Day's Jesus of Suburbia, and while the title may make me sound very egotistical, I don't think I'm Jesus at all. From what I've been told, I'm something of a hipster. I don't care what people label me as, because I'm so happy to be me and not be the poster child for American mal-health. If I think I ought to do something, I am going to do it. And I've reached a point where I am done apologizing for having an opinion or sticking to my beliefs. Nearly everyone seems to think I'm crazy and delusional because of my perception of the world, but I think that all those people are blind and force themselves to be hopeless and see the entire world as an orb of failures waiting for fruition.
Green Day said
I'm the son of rage and love
Green Day said
And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm supposed to be
In a land of make believe
That don't believe in me
Green Day said
The motto was just a lie
It says home is where your heart is
But what a shame
Cause everyone's heart
Doesn't beat the same
It's beating out of time
Green Day said
City of the dead
At the end of another lost highway
Signs misleading to nowhere
City of the damned
Lost children with dirty faces today
No one really seems to care
Green Day said
I read the graffiti
In the bathroom stall
Like the holy scriptures of the shopping mall
And so it seemed to confess
It didn't say much
But it only confirmed that
The center of the earth
Is the end of the world
And I could really care less
Green Day said
Everyone is so full of shit
Born and raised by hypocrites
Green Day said
Are we demented or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh, therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed?
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
For lack of a better word, and that's my best excuse
Green Day said
To live and not to breathe
Is to die in tragedy
Green Day said
I don't feel any shame, I won't apologize
When there ain't nowhere you can go
Running away from pain when you've been victimized
Then, we have Green Day's J.A.R. I have one life to live. That means that every single decision counts, especially while I'm still fifteen. If the average American lives to be 72, I'm almost a quarter of the way through my life-span. So I do think it's alright that I do what I like, cuz that's the way I wanna live.
Green Day said
My friend drove off the other day
Now he's gone and all they say
Is you gotta live cause life goes on
But now I see I'm mortal too
and I cant live my life like you
Gotta live it up while life goes on
And I think it's alright
That I do what I like
Cause thats the way I wanna live
Its how I give
And I'm still giving
And now I wonder bout my friend
And if he gave all he could give
Cause he lived his life like I live mine
If you could see inside my head
Then you would start to understand
The things I value in my heart
And I think it's alright
That I do what I like
Cause thats the way I wanna live
Its how I give
And I'm still giving
You know that
I know that
You're watching me
And I think it's alright
That I do what I like
Cause thats the way I wanna live
Its how I give
And I'm still giving
Gotta make a plan
Gotta do what's right
Can't run around in circles
If ya wanna build a life
But I don't wanna make a plan
For a day far away
While im young and while I'm able
All I wanna do is...
And finally (you guessed it) Green Day's Angel Blue.
Green Day said
Gonna build it up just to burn it down
You're a princess, I'm a fucking clown
Stop the presses cause I'm killing time
Won't you be my bloody valentine
You're just a fucking kid
And no one ever gives you a break
You want a señorita
And now your heart is gonna break
You're angel blue
With teenage traces
Angel blue
With pretty faces
Stab my heart like a stick in the mud
Cut my chest just to see the blood
Now I'm singing out the alphabet
As the tears are putting out my cigarette
We'll hit the cemetary so we can see the holiday lights
Waking up the dead and everything'll be alright
You're angel blue
With teenage traces
Angel blue
With pretty faces
Alright
Stuck in the middle of Heaven and Hell
Alright
Trying to find my better angels
Stab my heart like a stick in the mud
Cut my chest just to see the blood
Stop the presses cause I'm killing time
Won't you be my bloody valentine
You're just a fucking kid
And no one ever gives you a break
You want a señorita
And now your heart is gonna break
You're angel blue
With teenage traces
Angel blue
With pretty faces