"You've never known love, have you?"
The Coherents catch her, swallow her in the press, as she knew they would. How could there be any beauty in the world, if they did not?
And Redana! She was worried she'd never see you again! You're getting the hug of your life after this, and probably a second one right after, and then you're going to tell her all about your new look, holy shit!
But still, she's staring up at Liu Ban, a look of shock on her face.
She stares at Aphrodite, meets his gaze across the battlefield, and levels one finger at her father.
"All this time! All this time, Aphrodite, I waited! You watched me wait, watched me slave for him, all in hopes that one day he'd love me, and you mean to tell me that he doesn't know how to love? For real?"
"All this time, you've never known what love is! What it feels like! You've never been in love! You've watched it happen, seen it from outside, and you decided you wanted people to love you, because people in love are half mad! What better servant could you wish for than one who loves you?
Liu Ban fights alone. He is all strength and too-long-limbs and terrible thundering strikes. And if she weren't so angry, she could almost feel pity for him.
"You saw how people in love hold to each other, and saw a servant who would never leave! And yes, love is greedy! When you have that person in your life, when you have so much of yourself tied up in them and so much of them tied up in you, you don't want to let them go! That you want them to stay, and you want to stay with them, and spend the rest of your life with them! But you saw that and saw only how love could keep a person bound to you, could keep them from leaving! But when you love someone, if they want to leave you let them go! You tear yourself apart, and you find ragged edges where pieces of yourself used to be and painful spots where they still are, but you do it because you want them to be happy, even if you're miserable because of it!
"You saw how people change for someone you love, and saw only how you could define a person, demand what shape that love should take! But people in love don't change because the person decided what they should be--you change because you want to be better! Because you want to fit yourselves together! And sometimes you don't change, and you talk, and you communicate, and you figure out together what the compromise is--whether a compromise can be reached, or who needs to change, or whether maybe no change is needed at all beyond what people want! And you do that together too, because love goes both ways! And you've never done that, because that would admit that other people might have value, might have opinions, that might rival your own!
"You saw what people will put themselves through for people you love, and boy, you're not wrong! People in love are crazy! Not gonna tell the story, but there's a reason for the new arms. That person is so important to you, you'd give anything to keep them safe, keep them happy, even if it means that you put yourself in harms way for it! But you saw only the act itself, of protecting them at all costs, and never considered that, again, love goes both ways! You've never sat awake and worried about a friend or lover, given yourself stomachaches with dread that something might happen to them! Never missed them, never cared! You never considered what you might do if it came down to it, how you'd throw yourself in the line to keep somebody safe, because you only cared about what you wanted!
"Degenerate hedonism, my ass! Love isn't about what you want, it's about what they want! And you can't decide that for them! You can't show them affection and declare that they owe you love! You can't force them to want what you want! And until you understand that, no amount of shutting up or waiting will make anybody else love you back!"
The Coherents catch her, swallow her in the press, as she knew they would. How could there be any beauty in the world, if they did not?
And Redana! She was worried she'd never see you again! You're getting the hug of your life after this, and probably a second one right after, and then you're going to tell her all about your new look, holy shit!
But still, she's staring up at Liu Ban, a look of shock on her face.
She stares at Aphrodite, meets his gaze across the battlefield, and levels one finger at her father.
"All this time! All this time, Aphrodite, I waited! You watched me wait, watched me slave for him, all in hopes that one day he'd love me, and you mean to tell me that he doesn't know how to love? For real?"
"All this time, you've never known what love is! What it feels like! You've never been in love! You've watched it happen, seen it from outside, and you decided you wanted people to love you, because people in love are half mad! What better servant could you wish for than one who loves you?
Liu Ban fights alone. He is all strength and too-long-limbs and terrible thundering strikes. And if she weren't so angry, she could almost feel pity for him.
"You saw how people in love hold to each other, and saw a servant who would never leave! And yes, love is greedy! When you have that person in your life, when you have so much of yourself tied up in them and so much of them tied up in you, you don't want to let them go! That you want them to stay, and you want to stay with them, and spend the rest of your life with them! But you saw that and saw only how love could keep a person bound to you, could keep them from leaving! But when you love someone, if they want to leave you let them go! You tear yourself apart, and you find ragged edges where pieces of yourself used to be and painful spots where they still are, but you do it because you want them to be happy, even if you're miserable because of it!
"You saw how people change for someone you love, and saw only how you could define a person, demand what shape that love should take! But people in love don't change because the person decided what they should be--you change because you want to be better! Because you want to fit yourselves together! And sometimes you don't change, and you talk, and you communicate, and you figure out together what the compromise is--whether a compromise can be reached, or who needs to change, or whether maybe no change is needed at all beyond what people want! And you do that together too, because love goes both ways! And you've never done that, because that would admit that other people might have value, might have opinions, that might rival your own!
"You saw what people will put themselves through for people you love, and boy, you're not wrong! People in love are crazy! Not gonna tell the story, but there's a reason for the new arms. That person is so important to you, you'd give anything to keep them safe, keep them happy, even if it means that you put yourself in harms way for it! But you saw only the act itself, of protecting them at all costs, and never considered that, again, love goes both ways! You've never sat awake and worried about a friend or lover, given yourself stomachaches with dread that something might happen to them! Never missed them, never cared! You never considered what you might do if it came down to it, how you'd throw yourself in the line to keep somebody safe, because you only cared about what you wanted!
"Degenerate hedonism, my ass! Love isn't about what you want, it's about what they want! And you can't decide that for them! You can't show them affection and declare that they owe you love! You can't force them to want what you want! And until you understand that, no amount of shutting up or waiting will make anybody else love you back!"