I draw terrible drawings, like this one

I hate good dreams, they just end up being disappointments once I know they're dreams.

I only have one new years resolution which is to get back to my walker. I start to work on my walking again and so far. I have walk 70 this year so far

I am a terrible cook. Kitchen appliances are allergic to me, no matter how I sweet talk them. If Gordon Ramsey himself made a dish in the same room as me, it would turn rancid for the fact I am within its presence.

So, my New Year’s resolution is to (hopefully) cure this ailment of mine through sheer will. And if not? Guess I’ll starve.

I am a terrible cook. Kitchen appliances are allergic to me, no matter how I sweet talk them. If Gordon Ramsey himself made a dish in the same room as me, it would turn rancid for the fact I am within its presence.

So, my New Year’s resolution is to (hopefully) cure this ailment of mine through sheer will. And if not? Guess I’ll starve.

I am not that great of a cook either. I have try to learn but my two tutors or helper to show me what to do. kind of give up and would end up drinking afterward lol

I don't wear much jewelry as I've gotten older, and honestly I'm not sure why that is. If it's not 'permanent' (one of my piercings), then I'm most likely not wearing it. The only pieces of jewelry that I do where that aren't in my head is a ring on each hand. The first is just a simple gold ring that my mother use to wear when she was my age. I wear it on the middle finger of my right hand. On my left ring finger is a silver ring with an infinity symbol that my mother got for me as well. She says that it's a promise to love myself.

I never do the new year new me b.s. but I certain one goal and work hard to get to that one goal. grant the goal has taken a little longer to complete then I would like but I am still working on it

The TAG Heuer store is giving out super cute complimentary stickers atm.

I recently made biria tacos, and they were insanely delicious!

I wear short sleeves t-shirt pretty much all year around. but for when it is like below 20 then I will have a hoodie over it lol

I give people too many chances. Even still, after all the heartache I've been through and the healing from these people I've done... I give people a billion chances thinking "they just need one more chance, they're not like them". And yet? I get proven wrong every goddamn time. And still have the audacity to believe/hope there's better out there. Be it in relationships, or even just in friendships...

The relationship that broke me in 2022 still haunts me and has forced me to believe that I'm here to love others but no one's out there that'll love me to the same degree that I would love them. And that's not me throwing a pity party or anything. I just... I'm tired of giving people 200% and only receiving 40% in return. At any given time. Bad days are a given, and I am a very understanding person... but to constantly only be giving 40%..? Why.. just why. Even with friendships, too. I've been taken advantage of by friends, especially during the questionable years for me when I was still figuring my sexuality out...

I tell myself that I don't want to make new friends, yet find myself doing the most when a new prospect for friendship arises...
I tell myself that I'm comfortable with the idea of never loving someone again... then find my golden retriever gf-ass remembering the high that I was on when I was in love with that girl in '22.

I just... really wanna cook for my person. Dote on them. Show them a love that they never thought could exist. Slow dance in the kitchen at 2 in the morning to our song.

I want friends who will be as devoted and loyal to me as I am to them. Who will be there for me, and rather than tell me "you can get through this", just tell it to me straight like "yeah this shit sucks" and be right there with me knee-deep in shit.. As Kevin Hart once said, "Your bullshit is my bullshit".

I'm just fuckin tired of getting played.

29 years ^{as of the 18th this month} of this shit, and I am TIRED.

I am way to nice for my own good that when I be a bitch or mean to someone even if they deserve it. I felt guilty being that way toward them

@wheels, there are great books on how to navigate social situations with toxic people/toxic situations. There are also books dedicated to setting healthy boundaries. I strongly recommend looking into those. They won’t gaurantee perfection, of course, but at least, they will help to enrich your social and emotional toolbox.

@wheels, there are great books on how to navigate social situations with toxic people/toxic situations. There are also books dedicated to setting healthy boundaries. I strongly recommend looking into those, at least to enrich your social and emotional toolbox.

I try everything talking to someone and other things but one specialist said I was programmed differently then most people. I kind of always been that way so I am kind of use to my feel

I find any type of clothing to be inappropriate as a surprise gift.

@Raptra, I think socks are a fun surprise gift. I bought my bestie a 12 Days of Valentine’s Marvel Sock Pack one year, for instance. Total win.

@Mole You've convinced me to make socks an exception, considering that they're usually free size and hidden in shoes.

@Raptra, yay!

I may not be a ten model beautiful but I am beautiful in my own way. I am working on my self-image it is a working process