All these years in the cockpit, having assuredly been near-death and having undoubtedly killed many while sitting here, and you know what? Ingrid had yet to tire from it. Every combat deployment left her eager, even when on the lean or attending to the unimportant. This remained true now, as the Green Knights had a brief hold at the edge of the OZ. She knew that there was no other place for her in the Sphere, and that nothing else would come so easily to her, and in some way this limit brought relief to her. Having a place in life given to you by God himself isn't something that everyone could say, was it? What she would give to keep herself in the pilot's seat into old age!
Though, there was one thing different compared to usual. A tic she hadn't seen in herself in years, back when she was essentially a kid, going through training and her first combat drops. As she listened to the over-the-air chatter, something caught her eye below, just below the edge of the neurohelm. She held a loose grip on her Ostroc's yoke, but her fingers twitched. She looked at it and briefly forgot about the voices bouncing between her ears...
...did she feel anxious? Real anxiety, not just the anticipation of violence. Was it the stakes, her own or that of the entire unit, or did the opposition seem simply too much to handle? The others were discussing how quiet things seemed as she took ahold of her own wrist, took a deep breath and tried to push it back down. It didn't, not yet - and to be honest, it wouldn't until all eyes turned to her as the field commander. The line remained open, and she was expected to speak. With the push of shame to her benefit, she kept this anxiety as down low as possible.
In contrast to some earlier commands, her response this time was uncharacteristically brief. "Alright. You've already heard it, so no need to repeat myself - let's be quick about it!" She pushed her lever and thus the machine underneath it hard forward, tilting her in her seat. Sweat dripped down to her lap, and the jitters were put to the side. "We need to get as far ahead as possible before we get bogged down. Remember: this isn't just a skirmish, this for the lives of hundreds. Move!"
Though, there was one thing different compared to usual. A tic she hadn't seen in herself in years, back when she was essentially a kid, going through training and her first combat drops. As she listened to the over-the-air chatter, something caught her eye below, just below the edge of the neurohelm. She held a loose grip on her Ostroc's yoke, but her fingers twitched. She looked at it and briefly forgot about the voices bouncing between her ears...
...did she feel anxious? Real anxiety, not just the anticipation of violence. Was it the stakes, her own or that of the entire unit, or did the opposition seem simply too much to handle? The others were discussing how quiet things seemed as she took ahold of her own wrist, took a deep breath and tried to push it back down. It didn't, not yet - and to be honest, it wouldn't until all eyes turned to her as the field commander. The line remained open, and she was expected to speak. With the push of shame to her benefit, she kept this anxiety as down low as possible.
In contrast to some earlier commands, her response this time was uncharacteristically brief. "Alright. You've already heard it, so no need to repeat myself - let's be quick about it!" She pushed her lever and thus the machine underneath it hard forward, tilting her in her seat. Sweat dripped down to her lap, and the jitters were put to the side. "We need to get as far ahead as possible before we get bogged down. Remember: this isn't just a skirmish, this for the lives of hundreds. Move!"