I'm so, so sorry. Please don't hate me for doing this but I mentally can't handle this right now.
@Dark Cloud Please do not worry about this or our opinions. Take care of yourself first!
RL > RP.
I know this is repetitive: But take as much time as you need. D&D should be fun, not stressful.
We look forward to when you can play again.
I just feel like I've failed everyone yet again. Just need to learn to try not to get sucked into that line of thought.
@Lurking Krog I truly appreciate that, and no worries you'll still see me but you won't see me DMing for the time being.
Sorry, I am going to shamelessly plug....
I got an interest check up. ^_^
I've been thinking this over for about half of today and trying to figure out how I feel about trying to DM Phandelver. And I simply don't want to try doing something I've already tried, especially since it wasn't the best experience for me personally. It caused me some real stress, so much I left RPG for days to avoid dealing with the shit that happened.
If anything I just don't really think I want to specifically run this module. I love D&D but god damn running one here is absolutely difficult. I hope everyone understands. I should really try to take a step back and try to review what I as a DM and a person can do. I just don't want to feel like I'm attempting to do something I simply don't have the drive to do at this moment right now.