PaladinFoster;5529286 said Fuck, you wanna know why I'm still a virgin? Because I had almost nothing in the way of self-confidence, stunted social skills, and obscure interests that put off a good deal of girls. And I don't even fucking care anymore. Sure, my self-confidence has improved a lot, and I have made some strides in social skills(mostly through the worst way, trial and error), but that's simply not enough. I'm not even looking for sex in the first place. All I ever wanted in life was for someone to tell me that I'm not a total loser, that I'm not a piece of shit, that I actually mean something to someone. I want to be able to look in their eyes and tell they actually mean it, that they're not just saying it out of pity or familial obligation. And you know what? People don't do that. People are 90% assholes, 10% kind-hearted persons. The only reason I even get up in the morning is because I love my few friends and I want to get out of school and into a job I enjoy one day. This world is a cold, unforgiving, uncaring, fucking terrible place with few bright sides. It's bullshit, but I have to live in it, and I'm going to do that whether someone thinks I'm worth it or not. Virginity means nothing, only that someone was kind or foolish enough to let you in their pants.
My response to you back then, oh god how high was I:
Fuck man, you didn't have to bust a nut let the shower curtain open in my face.
No judgment here man, it's your choice whenever you wanna do the deed and you should wait until the time is right, otherwise you'll be bitter the rest of your life. Seriously though, and I'm saying this because I care for you brah, I think the sooner you stop thinking of the world as this dark and hollow bubble of hatred and pain, you'll remain positive and realize everyone's going through the same shit. You deal with it and move on you don't dwell on it because the universe is in constant motion and as I ride the wave, I'm bound to hit a few bumps. I get back up on my board and skate off again because I know in the grand scheme of things I'm being led on by a rope tied around me so in the end it's fucking [COLOR="Pink"]inconsequential[/COLOR]. It doesn't matter. Do what you do and I do what I do and universe do how she do and she keep on movin and we keep tryin to catch up to this bitch to cop some bud man and shit she don't even try to slow down, so we have to match her and you cna't win this fight. You gotta give in eventually, but when you do, she still moving and you trying to reassemble fragments together of everything you experienced and you wonder how the hell does it all stay together. What's beyond gravity and what force is keeping all the atoms and shit together? How does society not just break down and how the fuck are things working good enough so that we're not killing each other all the time constantly? That's life man.
For once look it in the fucking eye and tame the beast.
