[OOC] Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

[Remram]

Also

[Silver Fox]

Alright then.

I don't have the enegy to argue.

@Caits

Good me either. *plays FF10*

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Dammit Fox you're giving me anxiety! *protects Fox from the rapists and murderers*

@hatakekuro

My cousin is also a murderer. And there's a guy on the bus and at work who talks about death and mutilation a lot. Fun convos.

Also, if it makes you feel better, if I did die, you'd probably never know

[Remram]

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Good me either. *plays FF10*

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My cousin is also a murderer. And there's a guy on the bus and at work who talks about death and mutilation a lot. Fun convos.

@Silver Fox

o_o

[Zarkun]

Serious conversations are serious. *goes to turn the fun switch back on for the OOC*

[Silver Fox]

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o_o

@hatakekuro

My mom also explained a lot of ways to torture people without killing them when I was ten. Those were fun times. :D

and there's a lot more I can talk about my messed up family but some might be offended. *eats Popsicle cause it's hot*

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But I know it's not good for me. I could go into shock, I could have a seizure, I could pass out and black out, my heart could stop, I could die. But I could also get murdered and raped by the illegite rapist across the street. I could also get hit by a car on a road called death highway because there can't be a death passed a week. I could get mauled by bear that occassionally walks through town.

Not saying I want to die, I just have a 'if it happens, it happens but I'd like to do what I like and not have regrets before then' attitude. It's why I don't scold people who do smoke or drink or skydive or bunjiejumping. They should know the risks by now. So let them.

But I won't drink more than like one glass. It's as much as my tastebuds can handle so then it stops being unenjoyable.

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Caaaaaause I felt like it.

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You literally contradicted that statement.

You shouldn't drink cause it's bad for the body.

Eating and drinking soda unhealthy is bad for the body, but I don't care.

Both are unhealthy habits, with different side effects. Both of which, you should know your limit so you don't do something stupid. Which a lot of people do.

Cats are unhealthy for my mom, should we give the cats up and leave them homeless?

If your going to do something, and anything, you know your limit. If you do and you still go through with it, so it's on you. So I don't really care if you cry or not if I die. Cause I did it. I was responsible for it. So there isn't any reason to be sad about it.

Now if I like get randomly murdered, then yeah.

Also, evil IPad autocorrect. I dunno why it did but to butter

@Silver Fox

Back to the ignored part i'm dumb.

There is a reason to be sad about it, since you will be gone. Cant say it happens when either you drink yourself to death because some stupid allergy or you get in a car accident. I would really want to cry if something like that happens since you would be gone but i just can't. When my grandpa for an unknown reason everyone was crying except for me. My mind immediatly went like your family will hate you now. When my grandma was in the hospital last week and nearly died because the doctors hit the main blood line i didnt feel any emotions either. That what person i am a sad non special nor usefull. Im dont even know if i can call myself a person anymore.

[Remram]

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My mom also explained a lot of ways to torture people without killing them when I was ten. Those were fun times. :D

and there's a lot more I can talk about my messed up family but some might be offended. *eats Popsicle cause it's hot*

@Silver Fox

I've been to a museum in Spain that had a lot of brutal methods of torture and execution when I eight or nine. It was an experience. xD

[MarshiestMallow]

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Back to the ignored part i'm dumb.

There is a reason to be sad about it, since you will be gone. Cant say it happens when either you drink yourself to death because some stupid allergy or you get in a car accident. I would really want to cry if something like that happens since you would be gone but i just can't. When my grandpa for an unknown reason everyone was crying except for me. My mind immediatly went like your family will hate you now. When my grandma was in the hospital last week and nearly died because the doctors hit the main blood line i didnt feel any emotions either. That what person i am a sad non special nor usefull. Im dont even know if i can call myself a person anymore.

@liferusher

You are a person.

I didn't feel anything when my aunt died, nor when. Grandpa or grandma. but now I can say I miss them.

I don't cry easily. Never mind the fact I've been on the verge of crying since yesterday.

People cope in different ways.

You are a person.

[Silver Fox]

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Back to the ignored part i'm dumb.

There is a reason to be sad about it, since you will be gone. Cant say it happens when either you drink yourself to death because some stupid allergy or you get in a car accident. I would really want to cry if something like that happens since you would be gone but i just can't. When my grandpa for an unknown reason everyone was crying except for me. My mind immediatly went like your family will hate you now. When my grandma was in the hospital last week and nearly died because the doctors hit the main blood line i didnt feel any emotions either. That what person i am a sad non special nor usefull. Im dont even know if i can call myself a person anymore.

@liferusher

I'm the person who reacts, but doesn't really understand emotion. Yeah, I'll cry, but it's like a reflex. When I was younger, I didn't realize I was sad whenever I left my parents or grandparents until my mother literally told me why I always felt ill.

I know my family wouldn't expect that of me.

They'd go like 'Shit happens, get over it you wimp. Time to move on.'

So probably why I have this attitude. It's not like they don't care, but they just keep walking. I'm one of the more emotional attitude in comparison. Cause I can reactively cry, just not get it on the inside. Body seemed to do that for me.

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I've been to a museum in Spain that had a lot of brutal methods of torture and execution when I eight or nine. It was an experience. xD

@hatakekuro

That sounds awesome.

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Good me either. *plays FF10*

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My cousin is also a murderer. And there's a guy on the bus and at work who talks about death and mutilation a lot. Fun convos.

Also, if it makes you feel better, if I did die, you'd probably never know

@Silver Fox

This is funny acttually. I always talk with my old rp buddies on whatever chat to see if they are okay. I even had some people who i tried looking up on internet to see if they still lived. I had this friend who i kept talking to each day and when he wasnt online for 3 days i got really worried and couldn't sleep. He didn't say anything when he was back. I had to find out myself since some people just dont care whenever or not others are okay. I stopped talking to the person after a fight and it has been about a month now. He doesnt even care.

[Zarkun]

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Back to the ignored part i'm dumb.

There is a reason to be sad about it, since you will be gone. Cant say it happens when either you drink yourself to death because some stupid allergy or you get in a car accident. I would really want to cry if something like that happens since you would be gone but i just can't. When my grandpa for an unknown reason everyone was crying except for me. My mind immediatly went like your family will hate you now. When my grandma was in the hospital last week and nearly died because the doctors hit the main blood line i didnt feel any emotions either. That what person i am a sad non special nor usefull. Im dont even know if i can call myself a person anymore.

@liferusher

You sound like someone I used to know. You are a person, but you're also desensitized. That's what happens in today's day and age with a lot of the movies, games, yadda yadda. My point is, you are ALWAYS a person, and even if you don't understand why, we do care about you.

[Remram]

That sounds awesome.

@Silver Fox

Not to a nine year old me that was scared of everything. xD

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I'm the person who reacts, but doesn't really understand emotion. Yeah, I'll cry, but it's like a reflex. When I was younger, I didn't realize I was sad whenever I left my parents or grandparents until my mother literally told me why I always felt ill.

I know my family wouldn't expect that of me.

They'd go like 'Shit happens, get over it you wimp. Time to move on.'

So probably why I have this attitude. It's not like they don't care, but they just keep walking. I'm one of the more emotional attitude in comparison. Cause I can reactively cry, just not get it on the inside. Body seemed to do that for me.

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That sounds awesome.

@Silver Fox

Its annoying to not be able to cry by other people. I only cried once because i told my mom my selfish dream. And thats about it. I keep putting up this fake smile while i keep dreaming about my own selfish desire. I only cry deep in the night and try to get panic attacks to let it all out at the moment. Its hard for me to talk to others about it and i havent been able to tell it to others person nor talk about it. Sorry for coming up with my selfish thoughts out of nowhere

[Silver Fox]

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Not to a nine year old me that was scared of everything. xD

@hatakekuro

True. Back then I was playing Onimushu. And mother was a bit blunt of everything xD

Granted, I was always terrified of the darkness and nightmares. So wasn't allowed to watch many things too gory,

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Its annoying to not be able to cry by other people. I only cried once because i told my mom my selfish dream. And thats about it. I keep putting up this fake smile while i keep dreaming about my own selfish desire. I only cry deep in the night and try to get panic attacks to let it all out at the moment. Its hard for me to talk to others about it and i havent been able to tell it to others person nor talk about it. Sorry for coming up with my selfish thoughts out of nowhere

@liferusher

Yeah. I don't have much comparison to that feeling. Since I can and do, I'm just told not to.

[MarshiestMallow]

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Its annoying to not be able to cry by other people. I only cried once because i told my mom my selfish dream. And thats about it. I keep putting up this fake smile while i keep dreaming about my own selfish desire. I only cry deep in the night and try to get panic attacks to let it all out at the moment. Its hard for me to talk to others about it and i havent been able to tell it to others person nor talk about it. Sorry for coming up with my selfish thoughts out of nowhere

@liferusher

huggles
I gotta go. I don't know when I'll be back.

[Remram]

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True. Back then I was playing Onimushu. And mother was a bit blunt of everything xD

Granted, I was always terrified of the darkness and nightmares. So wasn't allowed to watch many things too gory,

@Silver Fox

lol, that was exactly like me. xD I hated the dark when I was little and hated my nightmares. Now my nightmares sound like amazing movies.

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You sound like someone I used to know. You are a person, but you're also desensitized. That's what happens in today's day and age with a lot of the movies, games, yadda yadda. My point is, you are ALWAYS a person, and even if you don't understand why, we do care about you.

@Zarkun

Thats why i always get annoyed when people ignore me even if its only one sentence. I want people to care and live up with me because of my selfishness and when they do not i get angry and sad and just being dumb.

Oh fuck this, stupid emotions help my brain again to make me cry again

[Zarkun]

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Thats why i always get annoyed when people ignore me even if its only one sentence. I want people to care and live up with me because of my selfishness and when they do not i get angry and sad and just being dumb.

Oh fuck this, stupid emotions help my brain again to make me cry again

@liferusher

If I don't reply to something, it's not because I'm ignoring you, it's because I probably don't know how to reply to it.

[Silver Fox]

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lol, that was exactly like me. xD I hated the dark when I was little and hated my nightmares. Now my nightmares sound like amazing movies.

@hatakekuro

Be it dreams or nightmares, they are always bizarre. Movie wise, they'd make no sense.

Well, maybe one nightmare when I was younger. I dreamt that I looked for my parents, opened our bedroom door and see them with white painted face with back along the lips and eyes like a clown. Creepy smiles as they outstretched their hands. Ran away to find grandma, who looked like that and was coming up the steps from the basement. I ran outside terrified and the dream ended.

Weird.

Another weird nightmare was a world a mixture of medieval and sci fi. And a green haired alien girl comes to the world and whomever she touched would burst in a large glob of blood before being sucked in. A newly crowned assistant to the queen ended up at the same place as the alien and had to doge away from onslaughts.

I don't remember much after that, but I think the alien could of turned into one of those misunderstood villian's...... That just slaughtered like a million people.

Another nightmare was me being chased by blue zombies after watching parts of Dawn of the Dead

[Remram]

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Be it dreams or nightmares, they are always bizarre. Movie wise, they'd make no sense.

Well, maybe one nightmare when I was younger. I dreamt that I looked for my parents, opened our bedroom door and see them with white painted face with back along the lips and eyes like a clown. Creepy smiles as they outstretched their hands. Ran away to find grandma, who looked like that and was coming up the steps from the basement. I ran outside terrified and the dream ended.

Weird.

Another weird nightmare was a world a mixture of medieval and sci fi. And a green haired alien girl comes to the world and whomever she touched would burst in a large glob of blood before being sucked in. A newly crowned assistant to the queen ended up at the same place as the alien and had to doge away from onslaughts.

I don't remember much after that, but I think the alien could of turned into one of those misunderstood villian's...... That just slaughtered like a million people.

Another nightmare was me being chased by blue zombies after watching parts of Dawn of the Dead

@Silver Fox

Fox, whatever drugs you were on for those dreams hook me up. xD