August was done. Just done. Done with being touched despite all protests. Done with things being forced into her hands. Done with dealing with schizophrenic teenagers and demons and done with everyone acting like any of them made sense anymore. The thermos pushed into her hands had given a surge of unnecessary excitement from Daniel's past. Orion made a grandiose show of what she assumed was an attempt to help her. She took the mittens and promptly dropped them to one side, already feeling a creep of emotions from various sources. Nothing was new, if it was touched, it affected her, even slightly. The fabric of the mittens, the stitching, the packaging, everything had been handled at some point. She stared blankly at the arguing faces. Mary stepping up for Kanoa. Jackson barely holding it together. Daniel talking like he was Batman.
Broken wires. August shut down, her eyes glassing over as she pulled back, crushing everything behind her fortress of logic. She ignored the others, hand tightening on her cellphone as she pulled her beanie lower over her head, and stepped away from the group, the writhing mess of emotions. She wanted to go home. She wanted to just cut ties with this group and forget it ever happened. She wanted to go tinker with her machines, with the cold metal that she had gotten so used to. Those emotions weren't anything new. Whether they had been handled or not was a moot point, the emotions that tinged them were hers now, regardless of origin. They were familiar. Logically...logically she should stay and see this through. A missing boy and now proof that they could potentially help him. A moral dilemma? Not really. The argument was in favor of playing the hero. August didn't owe this boy anything. But she could help. These broken wires could help. But the biggest factor, what if it was her, missing, lost, scared, drugged. She'd want someone to help her.
"This is important because we will be heading to the nearby lake. I believe that's where the Fox spirit has taken our missing student."
Panic. A lake? Breathing? Drowning. Smothering. Suffocation. Ignoring the burning question of how Kanoa managed to make such powerful potions when she had asked Mary to help her even identify the herbs in the first place, not uncommon, she could have known the names and not the appearance, or always had them labeled when around her, August jerked and felt her heart start racing. She followed, trailing behind the group. Her courage gave out at the sight of the lake, and she stopped a large distance away from it.
"No."
She held her arms tightly, green eyes locked on the water. The magic and sheer miraculous growth of gills on Kanoa, instead of filling her with wonder and delight, instead only flooded her mind with images of the gills giving out at the bottom of the lake. Smothering. Fading conscious. The pain of breathing water, of her lungs filling up, of every cough causing more and more to enter and stop her breathing, of every silent scream not even causing bubbles to rise anymore. Of losing everything. Of becoming nothing. Losing control of your limbs while still being conscious and screaming and screaming and screaming for someone to just take your hand and pull you out.
"I'm not going in. I can't swim. And before ANY of you touch me or try to change my mind, if you even attempt to drag me closer I will fucking hurt you, so just don't touch me. I don't care about the potion, I don't-I just...I'm not going in there."
Her legs gave out and she slumped down, sitting heavily on the dirt as she stared fixated on the lake. It wasn't so much the water itself that scared her. She could be around water. She could splash in a pool as long as it was shallow. It was the fear that someone would try to take her into the water. That someone would force her, that this group would ignore her pleas and drag her in.
"I'll wait up here. I'll be look out. I'm not going in there and don't you dare try to make me. I'll stay up here and watch your stuff."
The redhead was NOT going any closer, and she looked ready to bite the throat out of anyone who attempted to change her mind, physically or otherwise.
Broken wires. August shut down, her eyes glassing over as she pulled back, crushing everything behind her fortress of logic. She ignored the others, hand tightening on her cellphone as she pulled her beanie lower over her head, and stepped away from the group, the writhing mess of emotions. She wanted to go home. She wanted to just cut ties with this group and forget it ever happened. She wanted to go tinker with her machines, with the cold metal that she had gotten so used to. Those emotions weren't anything new. Whether they had been handled or not was a moot point, the emotions that tinged them were hers now, regardless of origin. They were familiar. Logically...logically she should stay and see this through. A missing boy and now proof that they could potentially help him. A moral dilemma? Not really. The argument was in favor of playing the hero. August didn't owe this boy anything. But she could help. These broken wires could help. But the biggest factor, what if it was her, missing, lost, scared, drugged. She'd want someone to help her.
"This is important because we will be heading to the nearby lake. I believe that's where the Fox spirit has taken our missing student."
Panic. A lake? Breathing? Drowning. Smothering. Suffocation. Ignoring the burning question of how Kanoa managed to make such powerful potions when she had asked Mary to help her even identify the herbs in the first place, not uncommon, she could have known the names and not the appearance, or always had them labeled when around her, August jerked and felt her heart start racing. She followed, trailing behind the group. Her courage gave out at the sight of the lake, and she stopped a large distance away from it.
"No."
She held her arms tightly, green eyes locked on the water. The magic and sheer miraculous growth of gills on Kanoa, instead of filling her with wonder and delight, instead only flooded her mind with images of the gills giving out at the bottom of the lake. Smothering. Fading conscious. The pain of breathing water, of her lungs filling up, of every cough causing more and more to enter and stop her breathing, of every silent scream not even causing bubbles to rise anymore. Of losing everything. Of becoming nothing. Losing control of your limbs while still being conscious and screaming and screaming and screaming for someone to just take your hand and pull you out.
"I'm not going in. I can't swim. And before ANY of you touch me or try to change my mind, if you even attempt to drag me closer I will fucking hurt you, so just don't touch me. I don't care about the potion, I don't-I just...I'm not going in there."
Her legs gave out and she slumped down, sitting heavily on the dirt as she stared fixated on the lake. It wasn't so much the water itself that scared her. She could be around water. She could splash in a pool as long as it was shallow. It was the fear that someone would try to take her into the water. That someone would force her, that this group would ignore her pleas and drag her in.
"I'll wait up here. I'll be look out. I'm not going in there and don't you dare try to make me. I'll stay up here and watch your stuff."
The redhead was NOT going any closer, and she looked ready to bite the throat out of anyone who attempted to change her mind, physically or otherwise.