That fucking sucks dude, but if you cut contact it had to be for a reason. Not my business but I understand the shit your going through, I had to cut contacts too.
Honestly, there wasn't really a good reason. I just stopped vibing with him, and I felt sorta the same from him. Still feels sucky to cut off contact with someone you've been talking to for most of your lifetime.
Lingering on the past won't get you anywhere, you need to look forward and not backward. I was like you once, and my problem was lingering on the past.
I just feel like I'm too slow to begin with. People my age are graduating university and I've barely started. If I had done things right before, I'd be better off now.
I guess my biggest issue is I never really found how I want to live my life. I've got no drive or passion, and every time I think I have a direction for myself, it all crashes and burns for me.
That's all in your head man, we all fail at things and mess up. You need to take what you get and enjoy life while you live your life the way you want it.
Honestly, this is gonna sound real cringe lmao, but I've never actually felt happy for a long time. I feel content and comfortable about things, but when I feel like I'm actually able to be happy about something, I end up ruining it in the end.
Thanks, really. I'm just beating myself up over losing something I held dear to me over a stupid thing I wouldn't normally say. A lot of my hurting is self-inflicted, really. I'll be better, though.
My Smite username = NanamiMikage. I bought the god pack when it was on sale from Black Friday. It lowered the price from $30 to like $12. All current AND future gods lol. And I'm still waiting for Sekhmet some day! :)