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Johnathan's mind

Johnathan could hear the voice of Kazuo echoing around him. To hear that they all cared about him and wouldn't be fighting that hard if they didn't give a damn. The logic was sound, and when Kazuo spoke about Johnathan having not found what he could give yet, and that Kazuo and the others needed him to rescue Ms. Sasaki, He smiled.

The shadow from before who was now over Johnathan looked away and began to contemplate, frowning. The other Johnathan, the non-shadow him stood up and looked his shadow in the eyes, and in an instant hugged him. Crying into the shadows shoulder, the shadow gasped in surprise, only to hear Johnathan speak up.

"It's true, I haven't done much to help anyone. And I know there's not a ton I can give... I agree that we haven't been... the best of people, and that we deserve more... But ... this could be our chance. We could save Ms. Sasaki... And help the others survive! The others need help too! They... Need us...!"

"But... What if we're too late... What if we can't?"

"We can't live like that. We're not psychic. Yes we... have our doubts... But we just need to try our best and leave the future for when it comes... For now, we have to put our lives on the line to help others... We need to give ourselves to the people.. who truly care about us... and protect them... This... this land is horrid... Something caused this... whatever did could have a terrible desire to kill innocent people! We... can't let that happen! ... I can't be scared of death... I need to be fully determined... to face my death if it means protecting everyone else... But I can't just recklessly throw myself on a sword... We both... are eachother... You know exactly what we need to do... live in the moment. And even if our deaths are assured... We should make the future brighter for the people who are kind... Like Bride... and Kazuo!"

The shadow looked into Johnathan's eyes and wept with a sorry nod, as the two rested their foreheads on one another...

"You're me..." Johnathan stuttered, smiling. "And I'm you... So lets... Protect them... together..."

In one single moment, the world around Johnathan shattered like glass, as a beautiful while room encased him. He felt at ease... Felt at peace. But most of all, he felt free. A lush warm glow filled his heart, and in an instant he beamed with a jolly smile. And that's when the dream faded.

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Free from possession

Johnathan's mask had slowly retracted away, evaporating into nothing but static, as his eyes had returned to their bright blue normal colouration. He stuttered and twitched, only to grasp his head. It was then, he heard the voice of his inner self speak.

"Even if we don't know anyone... There are millions our there who depend on us... Even if we're just one person in a sea of many... Our voice, our sacrifice, we give people what we cannot have... We give up our life, we give up our luxuries... freedom... pleasures... So that the world may be given these in return... Your act is selfless... To give but desiring not to receive.... I am one such a person... My name is Albinadi... And my soul... merged to form our soul... will bring forth a brighter morrow... I am... your Shadow... But I am also... your..."

Johnathan slowly stepped forward, lowering his hands, he walked towards Kazuo and smiled. Turning away from him, he faced the others who were combating their inner demons and frowned, choking, he instantly vomited out a black putrid gunk from his system, the remains of a shadow with a pained cough. Wheezing, but with eyes of determination, he held his hand outward...

"PERSONA!!!"

TIME TO KICK IT UP A NOTCH!

With a single clench of his hand, his mask suddenly appeared upon his face, as the Persona from his soul emerged beside him. The appearance of an old man appeared. The persona stands at a height of 6 feet tall, and looks like an old, caucasian white man covered sprinkles of ash. The man is incredibly old, and suffers from baulding, with thin, fluffy white hair at the back of his head and a fluffy thick white beard. His legs and arms are chained together with bronze braces, and his chains are pitch black. He wears a single pair of burnt, charred legings, ending at his shins. 

Through his torso, coming out from his back is a large sharpened piece of wood, which impales him to the spot he stands, carrying him up slightly off the ground.

"I won't... lose you guys...!" Johnathan announced determined, as he picked up his crossbow.

"We all make choices... and my choice is to save you! I don't want you to leave us... But just know... IT'S NOT THE CHOICE THAT DEFINES US... BUT HOW WE LIVE WITH IT ONWARD!"

Johnathan fired held out his free hand toward Haruto@Kizumi

"ZIO!" (4 SP)

 *roll 19!* CRITICAL! 2.5X! 95 Damage!*

His persona mimicked his actions and fired the bolt of lightning straight at Haruto in the hopes it would help knock sense into Haruto. It was then he heard bride's shadow

@destinyfailhorror17"Shut up! Like you care...friends that pure shit right there! They all just want to leave...You only want to be friends with that whelp because out of pity, I bet you are just going to use him right?! He cant hurt a fly that why it so easy to do so...At end you will just leave and there would be nothing left for him! Things would be easy if he was a girl but nope just a freak. You are just lying! Always lying! Liars! Just like dad, like those perverted fuckers just freaking liars!"

Johnathan felt the feeling of Deja Vu when he spoke. They felt similiarly... She was actually a boy. And to be so used and hurt, because she just wanted to make others happy... The people who used her were nothing but bastards and scumbags. Johnathan knew exactly how such a feeling felt, and wanted to comfort him, even calling the group liars... But that's when he heard the non shadow bride speak up.

"...re-a...real..ly?...fri...end...s?"

It was Johnathan's time to speak up, if he didn't now, he wouldn't be able to face him later. He needed to let him know...

"That's... how you really feel? I... I know exactly how it feels to be used... and... used exactly how you said it... My best friend... He.... the one i thought loved me... abused me... in a ... perverse manner... And i couldn't get free... it was horrible, I felt horrible. I felt like everyone in the world just wanted to use me like a tool, like I was just an object to be toyed with and thrown away. I don't know you... Even if you are a guy... I don't care about how you dress! If you want to dress that way, I don't mind! I don't care how you dress or how you want to be associated! Honestly... I only care about people based on themselves... And from what you've described... you just want to make people happy... 

You just want to spread joy... You don't want to be used... And nobody wants to use you here... Or at the very least... I don't want to use you... And I don't want to lose you either... I've always wanted to know someone who wouldn't hurt me... who wouldn't care who I was, and wouldn't hate me... You are someone I respect... and... honestly, someone I could look up to... Cheerful... even if you're hearts hurting, you still smile... I could never do that! You bring happiness to people by just being around...! ... I don't want one of the only good people in the world to die...! I don't want good people to die...!"

Johnathan croaked and wept his last few words as he approached Bride. Putting his hands onto his shoulders, he continued to shed tears, speaking up to him as did Masako.

"In all honesty... I see you more than just a friend... Even if we don't know eachother, you've shown us what you really feel... you hurt and you don't want to be alone anymore! You don't want to be abused... So please... if it makes you feel better... Use me as a pillar of support... I want to make sure... nobody hurts you like that again... I don't wish you to give me anything in return... I want to give you joy... I'll tell you... everything about me... I won't hide who I am... so that you can trust me... So please... Chain me, bind me, force me to never leave you if it proves I won't hurt you... Take everything from me, if it may give you joy! Just please... Please don't go...!"

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SP: 76/80
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