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Is it on? I don’t—there’s no light. There’s no red light on the—no. There? Why is it—never mind, shit, sorry. Can we start again? Alright. Yeah, Tobey, cut it—international addresses don’t have fuckin’ blooper reels. Do I have time for a—forget it, let’s just go.

Besca ran anxious hands through her hair while the small filming crew reset. The last time she’d given a speech had been at her graduation—high school. All anyone had expected out of her then were a few jokes and some fallacious remarks about she and her peers carrying Westwel’s future with them.

She wondered how many had survived the fall.

There’d been a speech after Hovvi, though it was small. More of an official condolence, and a promise to do better than those that came before her—not so different, thematically, from that high school speech, now that she thought about it. They had been calls for strength, and unity, and the only opposition were the silent Modir.

This was different. This, she knew, was the opening statement of what was going to be a long and arduous debate.

The red light came on. Tobey gave her the thumbs up from behind the camera. Besca stood upright at the podium, and glanced down at the papers before her—PR had decided that reading from a teleprompter would seem too ‘mechanical’. At least they’d let her write it—or, most of it. Parts of it.

Good evening, my name is Besca Darroh, operations commander of the Runan Isles Savior Corps. I’d like to briefly address the recent duel in Sacre Colline, involving the Helburkan pilot Roaki Tormont, and our pilot, Quinnlash Loughvein. Many of you who watched saw, and perhaps by now have heard via communications leaks, Ms. Loughvein refuse to complete the duel. By now the results have been voided, and as proxies in the conflict between Helburke and Casoban, we have no right to dispute that decision.

However. Allow me to be perfectly clear when I say that the RISC completely and unequivocally supports Ms. Loughvein’s choice. We have neither the obligation nor the desire to apologize for mercy. No laws were broken, and no lives were lost. There will be no punitive actions leveled against her, and the RISC will entertain no demands for compensation or rematches on the basis of that duel. Thank you.

Besca swallowed, but kept herself from sighing so noticeably while the camera was still rolling. She could see Tobey preparing to cut, and in that moment something grabbed hold of her.

And,” she said, unable to stop herself. “If a pilot is supposed to represent the will and convictions of their people, then, you know, I’d like to say that Quinnlash Loughvein did Runa proud. Thank you—again.

There was a brief, awkward silence, and then the camera cut. Quiet murmurs bubbled up among the crew, but Besca was already out the door.




As the hours wore on, and the artificial windows in the station cycled into evening, the Aerie quieted. In the dorms, Dahlia prepared dinner, watching the news on the common room’s big screen. Quinn’s fight was still playing on repeat on just about every channel. The political pundits speculated on how the duel had apparently impacted relations between Casoban and Eusero, who by all accounts had been entirely uninvolved in the dispute until the last minute. There were talk shows debating the ethics—not of the lethality, but rather, whether or not it was ethical for Quinn to have shown mercy to a pilot with such a violent streak. Despite not being particularly fond of Roaki, Dahlia found that an odd point to make; didn’t all pilots have violent streaks?

They had Casobani speakers on, and their stance was clear: Quinn hadn’t made a decision for herself, she’d made one for Casoban. The matter of mercy was theirs to settle, and as a proxy, Runa had no right to make such a decision.

On other channels, combat specialists and even a few former pilots—some who had only ever been hopefuls—analyzed the duel. There was general praise for Quinn’s ingenuity, and extreme scrutiny applied to every mistake Roaki had made. Some made it sound as though the fight would have gone completely different had they been the ones in the cockpit.

“See here,” they’d say, and point to where Blotklau’s foot was positioned on a hill, or how low she hunched when she ran. “This is how you can tell she’s not comfortable in the Savior.”

“I’ve had my shoulder crushed before, in sims. You gotta fight through the pain. It’s one of the first things they tell you, you know. You have to just grit your teeth. She doesn’t even try to lift her arm here.”

“This call to roll low like that—see? Just brilliant. It’s snap-decision-making like that, that sets Ms. Loughvein apart from even Euseran gold-league starters.”

“And she holds it in her mouth! Props to Helburke for figuring out a way to make dogs compatible with a Savior, I guess.”

Dahlia switched the channel. Some night-show personalities were starting to look more closely at Quinn. They knew she was from Hovvi, now. Knew she was the sole survivor of the invasion. There was an outpouring of scripted sympathy, and baseless speculation about what it must have been like to see everyone she loved taken by the Modir. They equated it to Westwel.

She turned to a music channel and left it there.

She didn’t want to be upset. She wanted to make dinner, and eat with her family, and be happy that Quinn was alive. So that’s what she was going to do.
Laying there, Dahlia sighed deeply as the anger and confusion fizzled out within her. She was content, which was a feeling that had eluded her for more than a week, and was only a visiting stranger in the weeks before that. But now the smile touched her eyes, shut though they were, and she leaned against Quinn and nodded.

Yeah. Yeah, I do. Love you, too, Quinn.

She could have stayed like that for a long time, and been happy. But that wouldn’t do, not for Quinn. She’d survived not only her first duel, but her first Modir as well—three of them, at that. She should be celebrating, or at least out enjoying herself while the tsunami of political fallout was still only on the horizon. There'd be time for business and fussing in the coming days, but for now they could breathe. It had been so long since she'd just...breathed. Not since before Hovvi—a lifetime ago, now.

You know, when I won my first duel, Besca and I baked a cake. I bet we’ve got all the stuff we need—we should make one for you tonight, too.” She brought her other hand up, tousled Quinn’s hair. “Go on, get out of here. Go relax, go hang out in the observatory. Go be happy. I’ll see you guys tonight.
Dahlia watched the fear in Quinn’s eyes melt into understanding, and felt relieved. Her own expression softened, and reached out as well when she did, though Quinn decided against the hug at the last moment.

I’m glad. I trust you, too. I can’t…help worrying. So much has happened, and none of it is fair. What’s worse is that it’s probably not going to stop anytime soon.” She frowned, more to herself than anything. She was meant to be comforting Quinn, not preaching doom. “What I mean is, I’ll always be there for you. Besca, too. Neither of us blame you for anything—you never did anything wrong. And even if you did, I don’t care. I’m with you. That’s family—real family.

I'm going to keep a tally of all the times I can't hug you, and repay it with interest once you're better.

Dahlia smiled. She couldn’t think of the last time Quinn had tried to make a joke, it made the room feel brighter. “You’d better,” she teased. “Debts are the one thing I don’t forgive.
Dahlia gasped quietly when the eyepatch fell away. She’d never seen beneath it either, never felt the need to know what it looked like, never much wanted to. But she did suddenly realize that she’d never asked what had happened. Now that she knew about the water, and she was seeing the telltale signs of a growth outbreak, it made perfect sense.

Every last trace of bitterness within her evaporated in an instant, burned away in the heat of something much stronger. She clutched the sheets, felt her new fingers squeeze so hard they clicked. With every word Quinn spoke, every sick revelation that came with it, Dahlia grew angrier. Her gut twisted in disgust, not at the ruinous state of her eye, but at the implication of its ruining.

Dahlia had killed monsters. She had killed people. She had never wished violence on anyone.

She wished it now.

With a small struggle, Dahlia sat up again, met Quinn’s eye and prayed she understood the fury in her own wasn’t meant for her, because she could not contain it.

It didn’t,” she said, composure shaken. “It did not have to happen. They made it happen. They hurt you, because they’re awful, horrible people, and they will never hurt you again.

Like Quinn were a cave, Dahlia’s rage resonated within her, and something deep inside echoed it back. Horrible. Unfair. Monsters. Takers. But the longer she looked at Dahlia the more that feeling settled. The more it urged her to believe those words. Believe she was safe, now.

She got the sense that trust was foreign to it. All the same, it wanted Quinn to trust her sister.
Besca had been worried about this. Part of her had known that Quinn’s display of mercy wouldn’t just be a single, isolated incident of sympathy. She was too kind for that. Really, she was too kind for any of this. Piloting had a unique and repulsively effective way of wringing the humanity out of someone, especially when it came to dueling. Cruelty was indeed an apt word for it. Those who stepped into the ring and lost were rarely ever seen as people by the victors, more as cisterns to fill with the consequences of defeat.

It had managed to effect Besca as well, much to her shame. She never gave much thought to the people Dahlia had beaten in the past, though the fact that she was young and most of her opponents had been older made it…easier to accept. She had felt some remorse at the idea that Quinn would have to kill Roaki, but only after Quinn had brought up her own misgivings about it—and even then, the stunt at the feast had left her sour.

It wasn’t my call. The Board doesn’t want an enemy combatant loose on the station. They think she might get into one of the Saviors, I guess—” she held up a preemptive hand. “I know how ridiculous it sounds. Everyone does. But the Board pays their wages, not me, so if they say she stays locked up it’s just…it’s how it’s gotta be for now.

I'm going to see her today. Soon.

That shouldn’t have surprised her either. Despite all her bluster, Roaki was perhaps less capable of violence than any other person onboard; even still, Besca wasn’t thrilled at the idea of them being in a room together, whether there were bars between them or not.

But she saw the look in Quinn’s eye, had seen it in the war room the week before the duel. She knew there’d be no point in trying to deny her.

I’ll…make sure you’ve got the clearance,” she said, and made for the door. “In the meantime, I should get back to work. Your, uh, performance in Casoban has brought us a lot of…interest. Anyway, Deelie should be out of here by tonight, so, I’ll see you both for dinner.

And with that she left them. Dahlia leaned with a groan onto the propped-up pillows, held out her hand to fiddle with Quinn’s hair. She was quiet for a moment, still unused to seeing her so wound.

Hey,” she said. “I’m really proud of you, y’know that? I don’t care what anyone else says. You did good.
How did one respond to being told that an entity which might, or might not, exist within the head of your sister liked you? Concern? Disgust? Perhaps a bit healthy dose of alien confusion? There didn’t seem to be a strictly correct answer, but for her part, Dahlia thought it was…cute. She wasn’t a doctor, and the Conduit effects she’d suffered had never drifted so far into the psychosphere, but it did sound harmless to her. The idea of Quinn having someone in her head to talk to seemed comforting.

She was intrigued, and could very well have listened to stories of these dream conversations all day. But then, with all the abrupt panic of a car accident, the topic changed.

To the Helburkan.

Dahlia couldn’t help the flash of bitterness within her—didn’t particularly want to help it. Her side stung from the rib implants, her two mechanical fingers were slow, still in their calibration phase. In the years since her only growth outbreak, she had begun to hope against hope that she’d avoid all that again.

Stop. You were keeping your promise.

She’s alive,” Dahlia said. She knew she should say more, but she just…struggled to keep the edge out of her voice.

Besca, saint that she was, picked the ball up. “Helburke decided to, uh, cut their losses. They were gone by the time we got you back to camp. Follen did what he could on the ground, but we ended up bringing her with us to handle the rest.” She nodded, but seemed uncertain of what to say—or perhaps just how to say it. “There’s been some…developments. She’s still here. She’s in holding.
As Quinn sat down beside the bed and continued to speak, a look passed between Besca and Dahlia. A silent agreement. As strange as the things she said were, as outlandish as the last few days—month, even—had been, after everything she’d done, they owed her the benefit of the doubt. They listened, and they did their best to do so with open minds.

It was…difficult.

Besca did remember the voice, and had, over time, come to believe it was a natural, albeit incredibly strained, reaction to the invasion. Quinn’s instincts manifesting in her memories as a direct push for her survival.

But then, she’d found out about the water, and suddenly it didn’t sound so strange. If she’d been dosed with modium her whole life, perhaps it was possible she’d been experiencing Conduit delusions before having ever stepped foot in a cockpit.

Only…

—And when I phase, she's what—she stops me from falling in.

The meaning was clear enough, and it really was her mind, tainted, then why would it be keeping her from closing the Circuit? It wouldn’t, she was certain, but until a few days ago, she’d been certain that Modir didn’t talk, too.

Alright… she said. “So this…other you. This little you. What does she…do, exactly? In your dreams, what’s she saying? She's not trying to hurt you?
The more Quinn said, the less Dahlia understood. She seemed outright delirious, and had Follen not made absolutely certain that she wasn’t suffering from modium poisoning, she might have worried there was a growth in her head, screwing with her mind. Could it have been the Circuit? But Follen handled her psych evals too, he would have caught something so severe.

A million reasons to believe Quinn was unwell, but nothing to prove it. How could any of this possibly be real? She looked to Besca, who still hadn’t budged.

When the swordsman attacked, it…someone—something joined the comms. I barely heard anything before my line got cut, but…” she shook her head like even she couldn’t believe what she was saying. “It spoke. I don’t know how much more it said, and that whole record after Blotklau went down was corrupted, but she’s not confused. I think the swordsman really did speak.

Dahlia reeled. Had she not been holding onto the bedside, she might have stumbled over. So they had both heard it. It was real.

A Modir was hunting Quinnlash.

If that was true, and it really had come to Hovvi for her…

Something stirred in the abneath between Dahlia’s flesh and her soul. It was dark, and it knew its own strength, and it was vengeful for the lives of her father, and her friends, and every last person who had burned with her home. It was hands pressing on her head, yearning to be whole. Unequivocally, unrepentantly, it learned that it hated Quinnlash Loughvein. It hated her more than it hated Helburke, or the Modir, or her own hellish existence living each day at the edge of a bottomless abyss. It would never forgive her as long as she was alive to remain unforgiven.

But it was not Dahlia.

It hated Quinn, but Dahlia loved her more.

I don’t care,” she said. She wanted to reach out, to touch her, but, god, Quinn seemed so afraid. Too much to even look at her. So she sat back against the bed. “I don’t care, Quinn. I hate…I hate what it did. I hate that it’s hunting you. I don’t…hate you. Quinn…” and she paused, and she thought. She remembered her promise to never lie to her sister. “I could never hate you. Never.

Me neither, kiddo,” Besca said. A hand ran down Quinn’s hair, into her braid. “I might not…really understand what’s going on yet, but what’s clear right now is that you need us. And we’re your family, right? So that means we’re there for you. Period. End of story.

Besca pulled her back, knelt down and, as she had done before, wiped Quinn’s cheek dry. Smiled. But there was a questioning look in her eye, too, and in her heart Quinn might have known exactly what she was going to ask before she ever asked it.

But…who told you it was hunting you?
Dahlia had spent the past two days begging to see Quinn, and trying to sneak out anyway when she wasn’t allowed to. The promises that she was okay weren’t enough, Follen’s personal visits weren’t enough. She needed to see her, needed to speak with her, and tell her how glad she was that she had made it, how much she cared.

She needed to tell her sister that she loved her.

But when the moment finally came, and Quinn—and Besca—arrived in her room, it was…off. Not bad, it could never be bad, but she knew immediately from Quinn’s face that something was wrong. So she contained herself, winced as she sat up and her new ribs very politely reminded her that they were resting.

What’s going on?” she asked, trying to sound more comforting than concerned.

...If you hate me after this I won't blame you.

Dahlia felt her stomach drop. She felt a deep and potent revulsion at the mere idea.

But she said nothing. Quinn needed to speak, and she needed to listen.

So she did. She listened, and Quinn spoke about the swordsman. She claimed it had spoken to her, and though she found the idea absurd, Besca very clearly did not. She’d never seen the woman so hollow-eyed, so calmly confused. It…talked to her? The Modir. Had that ever happened? She was certain it hadn’t, she’d never heard of such a thing, and doubted very much they’d be warring for so long and so hard against an enemy they could talk to.

But Quinn wouldn’t lie to her. Perhaps she was wrong, or confused, but if she wasn’t, then Dahlia was sure she was telling the truth.

Then she talked about Hovvi.

My fault. It was my fault my fault all my fault.

Dahlia though she’d been slapped. The room practically spun. Her fault? How…how on Illun could that have been her fault? She couldn’t help the flood of images that came to her, the fires, the screaming. She remembered that last, choked sound from Safie’s mic. She remembered identifying her dad in the morgue. She remembered that empty feeling that came from knowing her home and everyone she’d ever known was gone, like her whole life had been erased.

Quinn’s fault?

Hunted?

It didn’t make sense. It didn’t make any sense. The Modir didn’t…they didn’t hunt people, they just…they just killed. No purpose, no target, no goal other than to kill as many as they could before the Saviors pushed them back. That was all.

It…no, it couldn’t be her fault.

I—I should go.

Dahlia jolted, like time had just started again. “Wha—wait! Quinn!

But the girl had already turned and bolted for the door. Luckily Besca had been behind her, caught her—or really, it was more like she’d been dashed into and managed to stay upright—and held her.

Woah, hun, woah! Easy, hey. You don’t have to run. You don’t.

Pulling herself up, Dahlia swept her legs over the edge of the bed and got to a shaky, hunched stand. “Quinn…” she said, a bit winded. “I don’t…I don’t understand. What do you mean hunted? Did…do you know that Modir?
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