Mcmolly

Amygdala Circuit

Dahlia stayed put, smiling even though she heard Quinn continue to cry. She’d come to know the difference between her spirals and her moments of simply being overwhelmed, and even with the fog closing around her, that sense of panic was abated. The air was warm now, and calm.

“Mmh, breakfast…s’so nice of you. Can’t wait,” she said, laying her head against Quinn’s nest of hair. The hug was comfortable, like a heavy sheet, and she swayed to some pleasant, absent breeze. “M’you too. Promise. You too…”

Long moments passed and Dahlia showed no signs of letting go, though her arms did slacken a bit. Eventually Quinn would feel a bit of weight against her, hear the humming above her fall into gentle breathing. Now and then something loosely inspired by words escaped Dahlia’s mouth. Nothing was intelligible.

Her sister had fallen back to sleep. She stood upright, still swaying rhythmically, a contented smile on her face. Dahlia didn’t really share her dreams—if she had any at all—but if she was dreaming now, Quinn could be certain it was a happy one.

Pariah Online: A Voyage into the Intangible Aether

Location:The City of Thorinn, Aetheria

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Seele was surprised. Not in a bad way, mind, in fact quite the opposite. She understood the value of a good hug, and frankly, she was probably more liberal with physical contact than most. But she also knew some people didn’t respond to touch, or even outright loathed it. She might have figured Graves for the latter, but then again, he was a melee class.

Oop, right. And a strong one at that. He squeezed and she adjusted herself to keep her arms from being pinned to her sides, enough so she could hug him back. She leaned against his head, squeezed him back. Reflexively she wanted to tell him there was nothing to forgive, since really that was how she felt. But she guessed it was different for him. Perhaps Graves didn’t want someone to tell him he’d done nothing wrong, because perhaps that wasn’t true. Exoneration did nothing for guilt.

“It’s okay, sweetheart,” she whispered instead. “Whatever you’ve done, whoever you are, we go forward. Together. No one left behind, that includes you.”

Pariah Online: A Voyage into the Intangible Aether

Location:The City of Thorinn, Aetheria

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The edge had returned to his voice, the emotion was choking him, but that was a thousand times better than cold detachment. She didn’t shy away, but she didn’t dog him to look in his eyes. He turned, paced, and she stepped after him. An urge arose to reach out, touch him, but she quelled it for now.

Seele let his words simmer in her mind. It was a familiar heat, even if she didn’t agree with it—perhaps especially because she didn’t agree with it. This, she guessed, was much deeper and longer-reaching than the events of the Glitch. Though she didn’t know how far, and had no inkling as to the cause, he had said something she could empathize with. These people were the best thing to happen to her, too.

“You’re wrong,” she said, not harshly, but surely. “And what you’re doing—what you’re feeling—is proof of that, you know. You want to protect people, you want to help. Good people don’t think that way. If you were half the man you put on to be, you would have gladly stayed, and used us, and thrown us away when you were done. But you’re not that man. You’re hurting yourself because you think it’s the right thing to do. For everyone.”

She still stayed put, but—dang her impulsiveness—she reached out and laid a hand on his shoulder. She didn’t know how old Graves was in the waking world, but to her he seemed young. That wasn’t to say he was naïve, in fact, she thought the opposite; life had saddled him with many more years of experience than he had lived, and for the first time Seele considered how much of a curse it might be to have lived too much.

“It isn’t, though. That voice you hear, telling you that you don’t deserve happiness, that you’re a storm wrecking everything around you—it’s wrong. Everyone deserves happiness, you're allowed to find it in your friends,” she stepped slowly around him, to the front again. She took her hand off his shoulder, and took him gently by his wrists. “There’s so much more to you than your mistakes. I know it’s hard to see, but that’s okay. Sometimes it takes other people to show you.”

Pariah Online: A Voyage into the Intangible Aether

Location:The City of Thorinn, Aetheria

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Seele recoiled. Graves’ words weren’t spoken particularly harshly, and really, there didn’t seem to be an ounce of aggression left in him. She thought maybe she’d even seen him smile, barely, just for a moment, before he got up and started to walk away. Nevertheless a knot wound itself up in her gut, tight like she’d been kicked in the stomach, and she just stayed knelt there, watching him walk off.

Just like during the fight, she found herself doubting. He doesn’t mean it. He wouldn’t actually hit you. We’re a team, we work together. He’ll turn around. He’ll come back.
…you don’t get it, Missy…
No. He wouldn’t.

That familiar frustration bubbled up within her, and this time she let it—just a bit, just enough to get her up on her feet and marching after him. She closed the distance speedily, stamped down any sprouts of genuine anger that might have started to blossom, and rounded up in front of him.

“You’re lying,” she snapped. Oop, still a little too aggressive. She took a sharp breath in through her nose, sighed it out quick. Now, with less heartbeat in her ears, she tried again, much more tempered. “You’re lying. No one, and I mean no one is better off on their own. If you leave now, and you stick to yourself, you’ll get hurt, or worse, and you know it.”

She frowned, searching him in glances because she knew she might not have long. There was plenty to recognize, guilt in every twitch, soaking every word like the blood of a martyr. This side of him frightened her so much more than the attack. Rage was blind, but it could be directed. Despair was directionless.
…I wish you did, though…
“You’re lying,” she repeated, shaking her head. “To me, to them, and to yourself with this…this lone wolf act. It’s not what anyone wants, it’s not what you want, I can’t believe it is. I won’t. You’re not some kind of curse, Graves. You’re not dangerous. You’re our friend. You’re my friend, and I’m not losing you.”

Amygdala Circuit

Another change then, Dahlia could tell. She felt it in the strength of Quinn’s hug, heard it in the way her voice lost its panic, and then lost everything else with it. She knew it was guilt, even if that realization didn’t quite reach her consciousness. Quinn felt guilty about something, about her. Hurting her. Hurting her? Silly. Utterly silly.

“No, no,” she said, glancing stability for just a moment. “Didn’t hurt me. Never hurt me, Quinn. Nuh-uh. I just…forgot, s’all. Just forgot. No biggie. Sleeping fine, just a lil’ weird.”

She pulled herself away, just enough to look Quinn in the eye. Red, wet-cheeked, stricken with guilt or worry or grief or all; a part of her stung knowing this was the most familiar of her sister’s faces. Dahlia wanted more than anything these days to see her smile. To make sure she was safe enough to smile.

She smiled—like this, see?—and squeezed Quinn’s shoulders. Her eyes ached. “Never sorry to me. I’m not sorry. I wouldn’t change anything. Made you a promise. ‘Cause I wouldn’t change anything.”

Amygdala Circuit

Dahlia stood bewildered for a moment, reflexively returning the hug. Quinn was okay? She was okay. She was crying—normal, sometimes she did that—but she wasn’t hurt. Scared? No, sad, she heard sad. Sad. Not hurt.

She let out a breath that made her whole body rattle. Relief, mainly, but also the exhaustion catching right up to her. The fog in her mind had parted long enough to determine her sister was alright, and now she could feel it closing again. Quinn was sad about something. Something vague, at least to her, but that was okay. Dahlia was sad about things too. She wanted to say that, but she couldn’t connect those wires quite right. She wanted to ask her what was wrong but couldn’t articulate that, either.

Instead, Dahlia patted Quinn’s head, and resisted the urge to shut her eyes when she leaned her own against it.

“No, it’s okay. It’s okay. No one’s dead,” she said absently. Didn’t sound right. Felt right, but the words were mumbled and directionless, and part of her knew she was responding more with the intent behind them than the words themselves. “No one’s dead. Promise.”

Amygdala Circuit

The presence that haunted Quinn faded, satisfied, confused, and soon she was left with silence. Quinnlash didn’t have any answers for her, it seemed, or at least none she thought would help the situation. It was clear enough where she stood with regards to the Loughveins. If an article was posted tomorrow revealing their bodies had been found, there would be a party in the dream that night.

The last, lingering thought left in her wake was the word she so often used whenever they weaseled their way into conversation: Takers.

The quiet didn’t last long. From Quinn’s room there came a raucous thump, a muted, mumbled alarm, and then the hurrying of footsteps. A moment later, Dahlia came bursting through the door.

“Quinn?!” she yelped, eyes wide and heavy with bags. They locked unsteadily onto her, and with steps just as shaky she scrambled over. “What is it? What happened?” Her hands pulled Quinn’s face up, inspecting it, patting down her arms, searching wildly for some sign of injury. “Are you okay? Are you hurt?”

She wasn’t, not that Dahlia could see, but that didn’t settle her any. She spied the phone discarded on the ground, but didn’t bother with it. The room looked fine, no damage anywhere. No alarms blared. No attack. Still the worry stuck with her, and she looked to Quinn expectantly.

Amygdala Circuit

Over the past weeks Quinn had begun to see the effects of her status as a burgeoning celebrity. People wanted to speak with her—to hear her speak, as though suddenly her opinion on every topic, no matter how mundane, became gospel as the words left her mouth. Regardlessof how she felt, she was famous. She’d seen it on TV, on the news channels and talk shows. She’d seen it at Mona’s, with the gathered crowd, and the hostess herself. She’d seen it on the Aerie, in the eyes of everyone from the heads of medical to the trials in engineering.

And now she was seeing it on her phone, as she typed the words Mr. and Mrs. Loughvein into her search bar, and was met with dozens upon dozens of pages monopolized by the name Quinnlash Loughvein.

[RISC’s new pilot Quinnlash Loughvein maintaining silence after sudden departure from interview…]

[Quinnlash Loughvein refuses to take responsibility for Casoban upset…]

[Minor Houses in Helburke reportedly beseeching Great Houses to retaliate against Runa’s pilot Quinnlash Loughvein…]

[Euseran governor questions whether or not RISC overstepped by sending Quinnlash Loughvein to interfere in Casoban’s duel with Helburke…]

[Is Quinnlash Loughvein a Helburkan plant?...]

[What are Quinnlash Loughvein’s ties to Euseran tech companies?...]

[Quinnlash Loughvein: RISC’s newest pilot? Or last?...]

[St. Senn. Kimimura. Calhan. Merko. Loughvein. Abroix. Wender. Dane. Reos. Brandt. Jayne. Take this personalized quiz now to find out which pilot you are!...]

[Experts React: Dinner with Mona: Quinnlash Loughvein dying of modiotype liver disease?...]

[Steal her look! Quinnlash Loughvein replica eyepatch! 17.99 plus shipping…]

[…Page 63 for an exclusive interview with a Queenshand native claiming to be in a secret relationship with Quinnlash Loughvein…]

[Photos from Aerie Station show RISC pilot Quinnlash Loughvein wheeling Helburkan prisoner across commons. Were national secrets shared?...]

[Team Tensions? Dahlia St. Senn hasn’t spoken to Quinnlash Loughvein at all since interview? Does RISC’s star pilot hate its newest addition?...]

[Quinnlash Loughvein was born on the moon: proof next week.]

It went on. And on. And on. Page after page after page of news articles and speculative pieces, merchandise ads and tabloid garbage. To the world below her, Quinnlash Loughvein was a million different people all existing at once, and all entirely incompatible with each other.

Only on page 15 did she finally see a break in the form.

[Nation’s modiology stars dead? Originally slated to appear at a conference in Queenshand, Locke and Sansean Loughvein cancelled upon hearing that a singularity would be appearing in their hometown of Hovvi. While transportation to the lakeside town was heavily trafficked, sources say the couple, who had been booked a year in advance, were last seen boarding a flight to the neighboring town of Ozzi. It is unknown whether they arrived home before the attack, however, there has been no word from them since.

The conference continued, however many attendees requested refunds upon hearing the keynote speakers would not appear...]

The Shattering of Aegis

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Damn, right, the thing was dead, what the hell did it care if she punched a hole through it? As soon as it had ripped itself free of the knife, it was at her again, and though she beckoned her weapon back with a sharp wave and another whistle, it was slow. She was slow. Briefly she tried to recall if she’d survived a wolf-mauling before. A mountain bear had swiped at her once, a wild dog had chewed at her shins and she’d waked funny for a week. This, she guessed, would be much worse. Her arms went up, her head went down. She braced for pain.

Movement in her periphery, then the sounds of a struggle. Her body unclenched and she realized she was not dead, or even dying. There was a flash beside her. She heard fire, smelled it, but still didn’t piece together what she was looking at until she remembered their conversation the other day.

Kyreth, or the wolf, or both, were on fire.

Her mind shouted at her: Move, you idiot.

Lilann moved, broke into a mad dash and nearly stumbled to her face as she came to him. On instinct she grabbed the wolf’s pelt, and the instant she let her aether sink into it, she felt resistance. She let go. No time to fight on two fronts. Instead she found the cloak, twisted her fist into its fabric and flooded every fiber with her will. She felt it like she did her lyre, her knife, her props; it became an extension of her, almost.

Whistling, she crossed her arms first, psychically pulling both sides of the tangled cloak around the wolf’s body once, twice, and then yanking tight as she could. She held those ends together with one mental fist, and with the other she made a flinging motion towards the ground. Again she shouted: “Down!”

The thing was heavy, but with the amount of aether she’d pumped into the cloak she hoped it would be enough to throw the beast off of Kyreth and pin it to the dirt.

Amygdala Circuit

Quinn got an answer from Besca before she’d stepped off the elevator. – o yeah ! saw he r resume very samrt! glad u like her wil try 2 meet her soon ! :o) -

From Dahlia there was still no word, but once Quinn had made her way back into the dorms it made sense. Everything was just as she’d left it. Through the crack in her door there was only silence, and Dahlia still flopped down onto the bed, breathing quietly in the dark. How long she’d sleep was unsure, and had varied from day to day. Sometimes it was a mere two or three hours, even less, and others she was dead to the world for half a day.

“Day shmay,” she had said once, teasingly. “We’re in space! No horizon up here!”

To her credit, if not comfort, she was right. Unfortunately for Quinn, that meant there was still no one around to assuage her loneliness. These moments were exceedingly rare before, but more and more each day, circumstances were forcing independence upon her. As she stood in the commons, it became clear that, unless she continued to stand here for hours, there would be no one to come make the decisions of her day for her. This had been true of all the recent days prior as well, and if the trend continued, it would be true tomorrow.

An alien revulsion at the idea of simply waiting tingled beneath her scalp. Ultimately however, the only thing that could move Quinn now was Quinn.