Even with listening to his words she couldn’t agree, deep down she knew he spoke the truth, but it was hard to push past how she was currently feeling. It was hard to get out of that kind of hole. Trying to smile at his words, how he put the ordeal in a somewhat positive light that had it not been her someone else would have killed him. There was truth to it, if it had been someone else at the task, he could very well be dead, but would they have been able to slip past security? They were all questions she had and answers she would never get because it hadn’t played out like that.
“Please, don’t say that. You don’t owe me anything.” She didn’t want him to think like that, he didn’t owe her anything not compared to her and what she owed him. It wasn’t just the fact she had betrayed him but everything he had done for her in the Capital, he had practically homed her, clothed her and fed her he had even paid for her hospital care. There was so much she wanted to do to repay him, but she knew she would never be able to repay him. Iris had no money to her name, nothing and she couldn’t very well pay him back with nothing. “I… owe you so much and I can never repay that… not like I thought I could…”
Sighing as she looked over at Maisie glad, she had come in because she didn’t know what else to say to Cas. Although he had said he forgave her she couldn’t forgive herself for what she had done. Forcing the smile, she nodded at Maisies plan, “I think that’s a great idea… but I don’t want him coming after you. Will he not blame you?”
“He won’t blame me; he’d be stupid too considering I run the bakery with one of the only food sources in this district.” Maisie scoffed as she moved back into the room, “We can figure it out tomorrow, come on you.” Grabbing her friends hand she pulled her to her feet to drag her to the bedroom to get some sleep, she was not taking no for an answer as she knew that rest was needed for the both of them. “Go on, go get yourself comfortable, I’ll make tea for us all and we can get some rest.” Grinning as she urged Iris to head to the bedroom.
Keeping the smile in place she turned to Cas placing her hand on his shoulder gently, “Thank you. Sleep well.” Turning her back on him she moved to the bedroom not feeling any better, she was so stuck in her own head. Spiralling over her thoughts of how she had caused this and the what ifs if he hadn’t had been around at that moment in the forest.
“Do you need anything else?” Maisie asked watching as Iris disappeared into the bedroom. Turning her attention back to Cas she smiled, “Did you also want a cup of tea? I highly recommend a cup before bed; it helps calm you.”
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